pure heart

2010-05-01T04:21:00.002+08:00

was typing just now and i just feel no point in writing how i really feel at the end of the day. so deleted everything and just want to say that it is just tearing me apart.

2010-01-07T01:08:00.003+08:00

wish list
sling bag (have already)

a coach sneaker

top man

levi's jean
slim cut!

ipod touch!!!!!!

2010-01-05T01:31:00.003+08:00

sling bag will be given! so no need anymore sling bag
so i still don't know what i want for my birthday ! man

2009-12-23T22:22:00.002+08:00

new year

GOALS
20 core member!
lovely girlfriend!
become a CGL!

WISH LISTS
nothing in particular?
car?
sling bag?
shirts pants?
5 room flat for a start?

2009-12-15T21:41:00.001+08:00

this week of test!

kinda screw up my rmt paper eh -.- very sian sia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh well last 3 paper to go~

heavy heart??

watch astro boy Super touching don't know why will want to cry for a cartoon -.-

2009-11-27T03:22:00.000+08:00

don't be sad ok! it will break my heart when you do!

hmmm at least you have the pictures and videos ok :) i will see it soon

2009-11-19T00:41:00.002+08:00

talk to xiu zhen.. talking about relationship and my destiny.
my flesh says yes and my spirit say no ..... so is like a tuck war.
i really want to focus now. no relationship for 2 years. (didnt know why it extended from 1 year become 3 year -.-)

suddenly got her phone call, was quite happy but -.- she very drunk so she don't know what she is talking about and not in the right state of mind.

BRyan be my first customer for my sermon! haha.....

2009-11-15T23:28:00.002+08:00

woo... so long never update. was so busy ! and yup the blog is dead.
gonna rush my project and must do well!!!!!!!!!!!

gonna learn how to write sermon!
but first i need to get my glo disc to be install!

let me be more mature to get into it! i am not ready yet, baggage still there.
i do not want to fall if i get into it now.

i need time :)

2009-10-19T23:54:00.001+08:00

school started and is dreadful nevertheless i have to get my mood on track to take all the A s
because i am empowered to do so!

This is the time where i go through intense molding of character, trust me is painful! Sometime i feel very limited with my actions but i just have to learn and pick up.I will go through fire and if i and my works do survive this fire and i will have my rewards.

2009-10-06T00:01:00.001+08:00

depression due to staying at home! need refreshing in the private

2009-09-25T01:40:00.002+08:00

it been super long since i blog.... hahha. ok.
went to kl trip is fun and got closer to one another. played true and dare game-.- all the way is true.
which vette ask some questions that tries to delve into my conservative mind,
haha and of course i reveal my heart desires -.-

and overall is a joke please.
mar also -.- my leader is the best !

well i think i have to observe my heart desire
see how is the desire doing in her walk,personality. Till both are ready to be intertwine.
of course the right time of course.

i will really let go on the day when she found another then i will cut the band and throw everything away because you have someone that will take care of you :)

pros and cons after a relationship end uh.....
see some of my close friends the way they act is -.-
that is what happen when it ended badly.

my vision for this end of year.
10 members and 5 core!

it will come to past!

2009-09-10T02:52:00.002+08:00

it been awhile since i blog -.-
well. no meaning uh -.-
haha... and recently was good,
i want move on to a higher level than before. pretty sick and tired of being in the same place.BUT i need to get myself ready.
need more wisdom in doing things-.- become pretty retard in handling things, wake me up from my trance .
nightmares again, torturous still.
things is getting better after awhile but guess that i am on my own again.

holiday is long and draining on my finance due to restrain of time to work and spending power like a mini river -.-

went sentosa thrice

2009-08-26T13:50:00.001+08:00

yesterday was....
nightmare after nightmare....
how can i sleep -.-

2009-08-18T21:59:00.000+08:00

i just want a pure heart.

2009-08-05T23:32:00.002+08:00

although i am really not pleased! but let me have the right attitude . do not show much but much to bryan at least -.-

I WILL STILL BE PRAYING FOR YOU AND YOUR FAMILY

2009-08-04T21:29:00.001+08:00

i am happy !!!!!!! really! i am!

2009-08-03T21:34:00.001+08:00

if i can rewrite history, i will write it so much better now!

2009-08-03T21:30:00.000+08:00

i just want to be super busy to keep myself from thinking ?

2009-08-02T23:30:00.002+08:00

love is view differently contradicting to my previous perception
Is no longer having but blessing the person, as long as she is happy is fine !
there is certain things i am kinda down with after viewing. I will pass on the blessing to another one.
i will pray for your mum!

2009-07-30T00:55:00.002+08:00

why people will hurt someone so dear to them?
a question being asked by a friend

because of self center of the human being.
this question i have contemplated before
like why do i hurt her even when i love her.
got my answer at last

exams coming and i am so gonna be -.-
go darrion
you can do it !!!!!!!!!!
yes i can !
haha
encouraging myself because i do not have someone very dear dear encouraging me
lets run the race! do not give up~

2009-07-26T16:15:00.002+08:00

wah.. super painful for my toe-..- swelled and i cannot sleep for the night. suppose to see a doc but was too lazy.

你还好吗？希望你还好：）你会开心就好：）
照顾好自己！不要不吃饭！会胃痛。

2009-07-24T00:53:00.002+08:00

it been years since i blog uh...

i saw a old lady sleeping on the street :( i wish i were to be richer.
i think i will do something for her when i see her.IF i can talk to her.

when i turn 18 i will get a motor bike and have the license of course! haha then i can beat the traffic.
and jab want it too of course.

2 more project and 3 more exams
and i am done with this sem!

2009-07-20T21:29:00.001+08:00

THANK YOU BRYAN FOR THE GUITAR that you are giving to me :)
and the future lessons that you will be giving !

let me not have 3 min fever once again and play well :)

2009-07-20T00:12:00.002+08:00

i am turning fat soon -.- because i kept eating and eating and eating

4 projects down. left 2 more to go. and 1 assignment and 1 test and 3 exams. i am going all way out!
i want get good grades :)

i just wanna stay in Your presence. i will forsake all my worries and unhappiness .

2009-07-13T22:31:00.003+08:00

i guess you may read this..
well after reading your blog.
i believe is better this way.
If you will not cry for me anymore,
do not know me as a friend or treating me like a stranger.
well
i believe i am not a ideal boyfriend for you nor love you like how you like it to be.
so i believe is alright although is painful.
sorry that i am not a good bf or friend.
i do understand my character not that perfect right :)
now it really open my eyes how cruel can it be after a relationship can be broken off.

well sometime my friends around me tell me to put it down but i would not want to because i am still so deeply in love with you .

now maybe all i can think of is you having a great and awesome boyfriend that will treat you really well and not hurt you like i do, demanding as me. i begin to see myself being dirty in the heart. Because of my behavior towards you it shows a lot of things of myself .

thank you for everything.
and sorry for the hurts i cause in your life..
i am not such a nice person after all.

i know this relationship can never be mend no matter how hard i try. i just cannot change anything nor is within my control.

2009-07-07T23:12:00.005+08:00

a allegory is being made wonderfully by the creator.

one day a man have everything in his life. He have the riches of the land. He lead a nation!
He is a apostle of GOD.He is a bachelor . Many women long to have him as a husband.
A line of women will always be in front hearing him preach about the word of GOD.
The ladies is in awe of his charisma.
He one day wait on GOD and GOD spoke to him about his future spouse.
He is totally shock.He cannot believe the news.

GOD say" her name is Goomo a high class prostitute at street 51 "

mark says "is impossible, how can that be?'
his worker told mark it cannot be GOD that spoke that? it must be the devil!
many people around him criticize about that word.

GOD say to mark "it is true, goomo is for you'
mark cannot comprehend what GOD is saying
GOD said ' I want to create a love story that is going to impact the history'

mark went to street 51. He asked around where is goomo. The prostitutes told him ' is going to be expensive and hardly can get to see her " mark say " is alright i just want to know where will she be"
they told him that goomo stay in that mansion over there.

mark went over and he paced himself slower as his heart beat against his chest.
He reach the doorstep of the mansion "the playboy mansion"
he paused to take a deep breath and knock against the door of the mansion.
The door slide open and there was goomo. She was gorgeous with the long silky blond hair and with the beautifully curve shaped body . Her sexy voice spoke ' i know you, you are the pastor of the nation,is on the house tonight. you can enjoy me for free.'

mark startle and say ' no thanks but could we have a date?'
goomo was astonish and agreed due to his purity.

mark abased his head and went off quietly. when the door is shut. He jumped with joy feeling a joyous feeling.

mark and goomo have their first date and goomo was feeling a love feeling she never felt before and was curious about mark. on their first date they never held hand, mark was shy.

as the dates pass by mark fall on his knee to propose to her wanting to take her hand for marriage.

the workers under him critisize him saying that the people disagreed with what you are doing pastor. mark refuse to listen and say she is my only love and i love her.Many worker walk out of mark life and during the marriage very little turn up for the wedding.

mark and goomo were intimate and they loved each other deeply.
as years went by there are three children in the family.
goomo begin to act weird in the marriage
and

one day
mark recieve a note saying "dear mark, i want to thank you for your love for this period of time and i am happy to be with you .
but i have to leave as i cant be with you anymore and
i want to tell you a secret i have been keeping from you

the three children are not yours and they are from different father.
i am sorry to cause so much misery.

mark begin to bend down and tears flow like a stream of river.

the kids ran to mark.shouting daddy
daddy

mark turn his way unable to face the kids for a moment as there are no blood and tie
but he turned and hug the kids saying i will be here for you kids , no one can take you away from me , no one!

a few days later

a worker recieve a news
and pass it to mark.
the news is about goomo.
the worker ' pastor ,goomo is facing judgement of GOD , she have HIV and now she is going to be sold by the auction sales.

mark was in a rush to gather all his cash and placed it into his cargo and went to the place.

The auctioneer have brought out goomo. goomo 's face is bruised and she look like bones and stick. The auctioneer have strip her naked and people laughed at her. She look down on the floor and she was afraid. the auctioneer placed a bid of 100 pieces of silver.
but no one wanted
the auctioneer shout come
just name your price
no one wanted
the auctioneer lower it to 50
no one wanted
and the auctioneer was so tense where he is willing to seel at 10 pieces of silver.
someone shouted
offering 1000 pieces of silver. everyone turned and startle by the price.
It was the panting mark grasping for breath.

he ran towards goomo and he strip off his clothes and put it on goomo and holding her assuring her saying ' lets go home '

this is a picture of Jesus and us.. where we (goomo )where we sin and betraying GOD.
GOD still love us, not despise us where others (worker)despise.
the a devil (auctioneer)where he try to humilate us and selling our life off.
and Jesus died at the price(high price) to redeem us.

For my story
i lived in a broken family and it was never perfect for me.
i have never experince what is a real fatherly love before i came to know GOD.HE is my first love, my FATHER that always love me even though i am rebellious at times.
GOD filled my life, He never fail to strengthen me when i am weak. some love may look eternal but is not.sometime I am being abandon by friends(mere friends) and the one i loved and devoted my life the most.i was so broken when i am being abandon once again but it doesnt matter.because in life humans are never perfect . MAR says believe in people and trust in people.

there are people i want to thank!
bryan, dennis, mar, van.they stick with me when i am down!
there are some also !
especially bryan -.- become so crazy with him -.-

recently my mum and i have a tense conversation.
comparing me, and i teared because so many thought just came upon me. like she have a partner that cared for her. and i am alone now! but ya i am not alone :) HE love me more than anything .

projects!!!! -.-

could you even think for a moment?
you made the statement that you are lost but i am free ?
i am stating that i want you to be happy to let you go and that what you wanted.
and now you say

as long as i am happy?! 我會讓你明白是你失去了我不是我失去了你

( and well your ignorant friend agree 说得好:) ) do they know me ? basically no. and how much i have gave you just wanting you to be happy and wanting you have a new life of love.
come on.. i am the one who gave you the authority to make the decision. i never make the decision of breaking up! if at that moment of time you have the decision and you made that you wanted to leave me and great you put every mistake on me. did you ever think for a moment, when i begged for you to come back and you rejected :)crying for you to come back.

i lost you . yes! i lost your heart !

think for a moment! i know i am incompatible to you! i am not that intelligent, handsome, romantic, rich! but at least i devote my life to you ?
you told me you will leave and you left. leaving me in a bad state where i am picking up the pieces! you just say love is tiring.
thank you :) i wore you out. so sorry .

2009-06-09T20:19:00.000+08:00

down with a bad flu.. and fever is coming up!during common test. what a day for me -.-

2009-06-08T00:04:00.002+08:00

woo..study the whole day today and anime and sleep -.-

ok.. at thursday i have a thought that in the past i really have bad attitude, ignorant and childish.
I have changed alot i believe?
wei shan compliment me that i have become mature.

I believe i have changed alot after a painful experience..
I always learn after a bad hit.
I am willing to experience the extreme of humanity to be able to comprehend what others have gone through so i can counsel others and lift up the person that is going through the pain.

consecrate my life to YOU. I want to set apart myself, is no longer I but all about YOU..

2009-06-07T01:05:00.001+08:00

my best friend will be at china for a week!#$@$^$%&%$^
sian sia no need be crazy with him already

2009-06-06T02:35:00.002+08:00

i dreamt about you. It was sweet but treated me coldly in the dream too.
I was standing at the distance looking at you and my friends pulled me over and i sat beside you..
My heart beat faster at the same time when i sat right beside you but you display a long face when i sat beside you.
i been dreaming about you for weeks. When i dream, you will always be in the picture.
When i think about you, i tend to smile unknowingly. When i stone you are always in my head. When i see some action or things familiar to yours, i just smile.
haha.. this is not a emo post ok! is a post that i am happy about.
it is just the sweet things i always remember.

It is a love story that i keep flipping over and over and smiling at the same thing.

2009-06-05T01:09:00.003+08:00

woooooooooo
common test week is next week !
3 paper left!
gosh. I will go all way out to study !

THIS IS THE LOVE THAT I HAVE FOUND AND IN THIS LOVE I AM FOUND.

i watch the movie GHOST OF GIRLFRIEND PASTS
that show is awesome! and with someone special of course who is BRYAN!
haha there is a statement i captured " the one who care less have the power over the relationship but is never happy , the one who care the most have the happiness in the relationship "
After movie felt a sense of remorse but bryan say is not for you la! then i am like oh ok -.-
very funny la. we bought a top each from topman and is cheap! 2 for 29 bucks. After that we took a bus from bugis to woodlands. The trip "very very " short. We ate at 888 plaza and talk. Enjoy the time alot..

BTC and IS test have pass. Left with plw ,els and rer -.-

2009-06-01T23:22:00.003+08:00

PAin
pain
and very pain!!!!!!!!
emotion is very temporal due to pain and cannot eat!

very glad to receive the message in the morning. smiling over it !
i don't mind being in hospital so you will visit me :) crazy idea though

2009-05-31T18:47:00.002+08:00

i want get a new sneaker! worn out !
new zara clothes!
buffet after i recover from pain!!!!!!!!!
so dennis, bryan and mar promise! anyone want to join also can!
haha... six months of sacrificing now is 6 months of pampering myself! so saving up to do these three mission after common test !
pray for me to do well!!!!!

2009-05-27T22:31:00.002+08:00

(講到他

就突然很沉重

但很開心的事情

是他終於放下了 -.-

希望你能得到幸福)

dumbfounded though.

as long as you are happy without me
it is alright! anything do not matter anymore as long as you are happy:)

2009-05-24T00:55:00.000+08:00

i am being delivered.
haha... and i forgive :)

gosh my files in my camera are being corrupted -.-
gg

2009-05-22T23:27:00.003+08:00

There is a song have lyric which is 'break my heart for what break Yours'
mar begin to say this and it just struck my heart she say that at one time when she sing this,GOD say to her this 'When you act sad like this it break MY heart " that she encounter a broke up in the past. I wanted to break down that very moment. I did not know that i meant so so much to GOD. i been acting really upset these few days after the broke up. It hit me so hard that i begin to wobble so much that i do not have the strength to walk. I do not know how to move on, i even begged her. This show how much i am affected.
When no one wants me, GOD says to me "you are my beloved " I will have you ! "
I have the joy of the Lord! He strengthen me .

2009-05-17T21:54:00.000+08:00

i sure make a new blog to separate the good things and the bad things

2009-05-17T21:52:00.002+08:00

happy birthday wen shen

2009-05-15T23:44:00.002+08:00

a young little boy is savoring his sweetest ever lollipop but was being snatched away by someone that he love deeply and he just kept mute as the lollipop is taken away.Tears trickled down his cheek.He was so afraid that he do not ever dare to look into her eyes. It is not that she is a ghastly person but is that if the young boy look into her eyes he will remember how the lollipop taken away from him and he will want it back no matter what happens so he just look at somewhere where he is feeling comfortable with.
He have no choice but turn to his DAD and cried out, a pair of arms begin to embrace him.He felt warmth rushing in his eyes and burst out in tears.Hearing words of affirmation and security begin to fill his little shatter heart. He begin to sing and sing and sing and dance at the same time where tears are like perpetual.

2009-05-14T00:21:00.002+08:00

my mum is hospitalize due to the need of having a operation.
PLEASE PRAY FOR HER!

your curiosity only hurt me to satisfy your need

2009-05-11T19:26:00.002+08:00

my skinny friend 0.- queen of eyebag.

this is the girl confess to me that she had a crush on me in the past infront of her boyfriend 0.- astounded me -.-

idiotic face but my best friend

she is one of the beautiful woman i ever seen and respect.nice classmates i can say :)my big boss .mar at last willing to take picture with me.i look like a drug addict

2009-05-11T00:01:00.002+08:00

stop it darrion! stop doing stupid things nor be agitated!
she is no longer yours!
she is long gone! her heart is not yours! so could you stop having foolish thoughts!
stop being so naive! get over it !

2009-05-08T23:38:00.002+08:00

pei jie ask me a question that struck me!
she ask"you still like her alot right?"
i said "ya i do,very much"
she ask"why do not want to patch back with her "
i say "eh "

well for me,i can no longer give her happiness so
it will be redundant if i were to ask ?

:(

shall not be to emotional
well
but i only blog when i am upset -.-

2009-05-07T22:03:00.001+08:00

i did not know it hurt that much!
!#)E$($*%^*%*&%(^&^)@#$E!*
why am i the weaker party!

2009-05-06T00:01:00.001+08:00

stress man -.- when my mum ask me "you broke off with been ting ""why?"
i am like ehhh...
she say "your heart fall for another girl "
i -.- "NO LA ! "
then i try to skip the topic
do not know how to answer
-.-

2009-05-03T03:12:00.006+08:00

wept because of the abandonment and being affiliate
due to the allegory i have encounter. Is like overflowing of tears

i never felt so nervous talking to you,
yeS ! it been awhile since i ever talk you.
happy or nervous?
well maybe both?

i found a lover! and i will be love for the rest of my life and i am going to love HIM for the rest of my life!
YOU have accepted me when no one wants me,
YOU clothe me when i am naked,
YOU tell me is alright when i am panicking,
YOU tell me i love you when no one love me,
YOU paid the price for me when i am almost being sell off,
YOU cry when i left ,
YOU want me to love you ,
YOU forgive me when i did something grave,
YOU never walk out of my life,
YOU stayed when no one is around,
YOU make me valuable when i am worthless,
YOU bring me high when i am low,
IT IS YOU I WANT!!!!

kinda moody these days.
must eat more sweet things to keep me sober so will not moody..

arhhhhhhhhhh!!!
why why why !!!

2009-05-02T02:54:00.003+08:00

cheer up! and do not be afraid of anything i believe you are a bold girl!jia you ho been ting!!!!!!!!!

2009-05-01T02:30:00.000+08:00

actually i wanted to keep it! but i have to give it back !

2009-04-30T00:00:00.001+08:00

pretty upset with myself for not doing the right thing!
must prioritise !

2009-04-26T02:54:00.003+08:00

i do get jealous when i know that she is with someone -.-
gg...
oh well:) smile darrion!
as bryan state , a void at my heart that she have left.

★拿的起, 放的下微笑將屬於自己

smile!

super gg 0.-
really do not know what to say about my emotions.

quite piss with a particular thing!
let me do things with wisdom and not with my foolish authority!

2009-04-25T02:40:00.001+08:00

i am glad. i am just glad that you are fine :)
and you have gave me alot ! thank you

2009-04-24T00:04:00.001+08:00

What a foolish thought that have pass through my mind !
So foolish till i can ridicule myself.

2009-04-22T23:28:00.002+08:00

this is my class!!got some not in there because they went off -.-
haha... it been awhile since i blog:)
well.. school is quite tiring but cool.. my new GOOD friend is shy and hid at the back -.-
haha..

watch (taken) and it is really a nice film!
(are you planning to sacrifice her) lady
(no i am willing to sacrifice anything for her)man
lol... these sentence capture my attention..
haha .. shall not be dishearten -.-
i am willing to sacrifice anything for her!
gg.

2009-04-19T15:36:00.002+08:00

Went for the fellowship at the night and went to overnight at bryan house,he is so nice to let me sojourn for a night,get to know him more and deeper.lol. sound so gay 0,0
when we are about to sleep,intense pain come upon my left ribcage(till now also pain-.-)

I want to tell a certain person that she is going through alot in her life but no matter what i will be there for you.I believe everything came crashing down on you but is ok. GOD is with you till the end of the world(your life time)
jia you !!! do not ever ever give up on yourself.
Do not run from pressure but face it and you will become a greater person :)

2009-04-16T23:01:00.004+08:00

Sorry if i have done anything that made you angry.

"all the best for your 1st day of school"
this sentence made me happy :)

2009-04-14T01:31:00.002+08:00

My mum gave me so little pocket money and rebuke me for my untidiness.
These add on to my burden. I can say that my mind is like in the whirlwind, so confused and uncertain.I love her still but i am not obliged to love her,i have no right because i am unable to give her happiness.
I want to be the one comforting her when she cry, i want to be the one to lend her a shoulder when she need.I want to be the pillar she rely on, encourage her when she fall.
Lift her up when she need the push, pushing her to the greater length.
Make her smile and laugh when she is bored. Accompany her to go all over the world.
Bring her to places where it will elate her.
Saying i love you and i love you and i love you and i love you till death set us apart.
Propose to her at the place that is exotic,wearing the ring for perpetual.
My life is in the mess without you texting me,loving me,hugging me and occasionally letting me to savour your lips.
I want to marry you and i meant it :( I really do, i still have so much to do with you,getting married,have a family with two kids ( a boy and a girl)although you yourself do not want to have any due to the pain.
it been 15 days since we broke up, it been so awkard with my life,without you, i just felt something missing, something that is important have departed from my life.
The last words you told me when we broke off, made me cry so badly when i was on my way home.I never thought we will end up in this state,even though we love each other so deeply.
In the past during our cold war which is at most a week,it end up me msging you because i can never never take it being without you loving me. I always sound so weak but i really do miss you so much.If i am given a opportunity to hug you and have you. I will never let you go away from me. I will stick to you for the rest of my life.
I am aware that you are very angry and resent me alot which can be seen by your defensive side.I am not him, i am really not. I am different, i do love you from the start and till now i still love you. I am sorry,you know my character right?where i am so insensitive with my words when i am hot headed.Please do forgive me.

i am elated that you are being encourage by some friends, at least i know you are fine without me. I am happy for you :)
Is never good to have a nasty emotion. I will want you to feel nothing for this relationship
so you will be able to go through life.BEING HAPPY IS ALL THAT MATTERS.
I believe without me life can be ever greater for you. I brought pain to your life and i am aware of it. My wish is coming true, you are happy and you are perfectly fine.
I know i am so ugly in the inside and maybe outside and i just feel so ugly in the inside. I hate myself,i despice myself.

I believe you can find someone that love you ever more than i could. I want you to have the best of everything! The best of everything in life!
The best love you can ever obtain!

i believe i am not fit to be your lover.

2009-04-13T00:19:00.002+08:00

i am so foolish by losing my cool during my previous post, i cannot believe that sometime when i get hurt i will retaliate back that harshly. Darrion is a mean guy. I gave a thought over everything. Well let me say about how i feel ok? i thought that you never really care and do not feel a prick in the heart but i am really wrong about everything after i read your blog. I seriously believe you are the one being hurt the most.It is my miscalculation after all...
i want to sincerely apologize to ho been ting for hurting her over and over again ever after we have part our way.

i can tell you that you are the best girl i ever met for the 17 years of my life. i want to thank you for everything. The tender love you gave to me once and i can tell you that i loved and love you the most during my life for this 17 years.

Forgive me for my transgression. I have been a bad boyfriend.

2009-04-12T00:51:00.002+08:00

THIS is my blog and i believe i am fit enough to say how i feel in my blog...YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO MANIPULATE ME ANYMORE!!!!!

i am freaking conflicted by your words......i have my rights to place any picture i want... since you are so keen to end this relationship of ours... 2 years and 17 days...then go ahead
it do not mean anything to you from the start?
well it doesnt! so thank you for your lies and everything, stating that you love me but you do not. Whole chunk of shits?
SO overwhelm by it!
YEA i am a freaking jerk :) i will get away from your life since whatever i say you feel that i am always pushing the blame to you.
Is like whatever!

stop trying to log into my account and change without my permission is freaking irritating! well you do not have a hold anymore since i have change the password.

i do not hate you and i cant bring myself to !

2009-04-09T00:47:00.002+08:00

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eh
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ok with
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?
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-.-
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yr emotion?>
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ben ting?
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-.-
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died
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-.-
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miss her alot lo
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ok.
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we are with you k?
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haha
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yea
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God is always with you.
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loving you.
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aware of it and appreciate it plenty
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=)
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sot fun
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?
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i am fine
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just need to crucify my flesh
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discpline
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sleep early wake up early and not sleep in class!
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still do not want to turn in
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?
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soon
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it been nearing two wks that i come online
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sleeping soon
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ya
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mar
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erm
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its only second wk
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ha ha ah
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need GOD more la
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ya
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le
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and worn out
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take some time to wait on God
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let Him fill and refresh you k?
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i will keep you in prayer! fresh oil from heaven1
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thanks mar
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i need it alot
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to recharge me to go on
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yup.
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sleep early..
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and help more people
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tmr wakes up early to seek God
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our calling is to God
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ya
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yup.
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=)
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sleep early tonight k?
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i gtg...tmr need to wake up at 5.50am!
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ok
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night
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sleep well
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ha ha ha. nite.tks darrion for being a disciple of GOD
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one life lets live it
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my pleasure
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strength ,anointing and wisdom
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amen
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haha
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ok
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bye
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nite. bye.
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anything msg me
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ok
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:)

sometime mar says thing that made me go over the moon

2009-04-08T02:26:00.004+08:00

joke of the pic... dar dar saving a girl that is falling from the pole?

lol...

ok... went to witness the solemn matrimony....
and well it is great ?
my mum remarried and i am part of the english man world :X haha.. i got the "blood" now,
so will be consider pretty attractive :X
lol...
and during the ceremony, guess what,my mum phone rang -.-
it was during the man hosting for the matrimony.
took some picture and went to eat!
totally famish after the whole day and i order a huge meal!!!
gobbled down the food
so not glamorous,oh well.
haha.. went to meet bryan,andy, cheryl,vanessa and mei man.
took some pictures and my precious andy and mei man went off -.-
so left me,bryan,cheryl and vanessa...
we have to hang out with treacherous ladies :X
went to catch a movie,shijiku incident. I suppose this in the spelling.
A jackie chan film! Is quite a disheartening movie :( love is painful. lol

went to eat mos burger after that, then cheryl start a personal test on every one..
question 1 ) ans) from darrion from van from bryan
who will you go with to a forest? -mei man? -bf? -yea kai?

question 2) which animal will you ans) owl ? fox? bird?
see?

question 3) ans)a hut? haunted castle?
what type of house will you see house?

question 4 )
what will you see on the table of ans)a candle? nothing? keys?
house?

question 5)
what will you see at the back of ans)lake lake? river
the house ? a lake ,river or sea

ok
so answer is revealed!
1st question
is the lover of your life ...
mine is abit funny -.-i chose her because i have to put on a brave front so will not die earlier in the forest =.-
which shows that bryan is gay =.-
van is -.- not specific

2nd question it show the personality of your so called lover -.-
and mei man is really a owl =.- that sleep really late at night
van bf should be a cunning one?
bryan. yea kai like freedom
-.-

3rd question shows
what type of relationship are you after?
mine is a simple one.. bryan is demanding ?
van is scary relationship?
lol

4rd question show
what type of personality are you..
i am romantic?quite true ?
van is nothing -.-
bryan is the one wants to be in control maybe?

5th question shows that
how much are you willing to love -.-
mine and van is not alot but willing to love long...
bryan is a river-.-
lol

so
well very hilarious -.-

i missed you alot...
i wish i can still be together with you
dear. i hope you love me still?

2009-04-06T02:08:00.003+08:00

woo was suppose to blog yesterday but delayed till now..
Was ushering and someone felt that i am fierce looking when i aproached her,terrible...
I have to wear a wide smile to serve and is tiring to smile all day long but i guess is unto the Lord :) amidst of serving,power of GOD just flow through me.That is indeed a great feeling i have.
During service... a choir sang the song.(If i love it will be forever, if i give my heart it will be all)
these lyrics arrest my attention. Was thinking of you.
pastor preached about love busters and one of the love busters are annoying habits, where pastor kong state that in the past he will shake his leg whatever he does, counselling , eating, talking , praying , basically almost everything until one day sun ( his wife ) rebuke him by saying is irritating can you stop !
It brought into remembrance of me and her where she will feel pissed by the annoying action i done . This thought led me to a smile and i miss it alot.

Dennis heard the news and he said 'what the f***" then i am like -.- "you do not have to use that word .Train home with dennis and he ask why do i still wear the ring and offer to help me throw than i am like "are you nuts no way i am going to give to you! '
haha.. I told mei man this and she ask a profound question "you are still waiting for her right ?"
and i gave a profound answer "yes "
of course i am!!! hilarious and i told her that human beings are quite retard , where people cherish after losing it.Which i am wearing the watch she gave,can you believe it ! darrion hate wearing watch is wearing it and enjoying it alot! I found out that i love the watch alot !

Met up with wen shen ,i z, and hl.
Ate and chat!
When i first stepped in , wenshen disturbed me all the way.-.-
Had a good time with them.

Jab and i chatted for awhile..
talking about eyecandy...opps i do have -.-
no la.. I have to deal with my emotional baggages first . Have phobia of woman or girl

2009-03-31T23:22:00.002+08:00

Grasping for air,lung being squeeze under tremendous pressure.
The room is so bloody and messy,solem atmosphere where there is sorrow and pain fill the thick air.
A still small voice spoke and brought clarity to the vague future that i am uncertain ahead.
Situation after situation crops up that cause my sorrow to invigorate.Believing is all i can do,groping for a answer to latch on so i am able to overturn the table.
Mere words can never descible the unbearable pain, tears may be able to descible when it trickle down my cheeks.
The promises and hope for a perpetual marriage are being dashed by the instant breaking up.
I promise to be your best friend if you would still want to open your life to me where i state that i will not abandon you alone even you would to leave me.
Still wearing the ring that do not belong to me.

Another situation crops up is family problem.This stituation is very crucial and it may pan out really bad.
So is really a hard time for me where everything crumble down on me at once.
i love her and my family.

guys keep me in prayer and i would want wisdom and anoiting to pull it through

2009-03-31T00:01:00.003+08:00

130307 to 300309

love story have ended

2009-03-27T00:37:00.002+08:00

thursday is the most exhilarating feeling i ever had these few days:)
Sorrow intertwined with hatred injected into my heart.I am enlighten with the presence of yours,as i just long to see you.
Although the time we spent is short, i enjoyed it to the maximum when i am able to see you.
Although you say that you are not affected even without me, it does hurt but it doesnt matter anymore.
I want to subtly draw your love to me :)
i believe your love for me have swayed aside,where studies and friends have avert your attention from me.
I felt i have fallen so deep for you where i need you to fill my addiction for me.
I am so enthusiastic for you, my girl !
I miss you deeply :) so so so so so elated to see you.
hope you feel the same !
It been awhile since i felt this way :0

thank you !for those who had genuinely cared for me:)
I believe i have trouble a certain friend of mine during these few days.
hope that we can be greater friend in time to come.
Let me know when you fall because i will lift you up when you fall!!!
MMM!

2009-03-25T11:48:00.001+08:00

sometime i and jab enjoy doing stupid stuff-.-

2009-03-24T10:49:00.002+08:00

my existance is insiginificant to you :(
confusion of being insane or being grief!
It is just wonderful how a year relationship can inflict damage compare to a 2 years relationship?
How affected you are when i first found you and affiliated you.
well everything may surface out as emotional but that what i am contemplating right now?
maybe it is just me? the willful party?
love is a choice and intensive passion?
did you lose the passion you had for me once? or you never had from the start?
my brain is toasted by the question that is confronting me.

A giver is wanting to give happiness and benefit to someone in the expenses of him/herself
even though he/she is unhappy!
A taker is wanting to have happiness and benefit for him/herself at the expenses of other even though other is unhappy

well after i got these from pastor. I evaluated myself and i gave in by texting her first saying i am willing to make changes because i loved her deeply.
The response is mean and it reveal lots of nasty things which i can never imagine about!

many have told me to smile but is easy to smile:) but in the inner part of me is totally on the contrary :(

Mar told me i have to work it out by talking. Guess that i have to do it.
It will be tough because whatever i said will always be stress :(
I will do my best to phrase it the best way!

2009-03-22T22:54:00.002+08:00

i felt very grief every night,it seems that i am shedding my tears every night. I MISS YOU but i do not think that you do feel the same way towards me.
My heart felt so sour as i am unable to distinguish what is the truth or lie.
i have abased myself to you and i get no care :(
2 years relationship?
Do it mean anything?
Is your heart with me still?
I am hurt? Do you care?
I cared for you?
I loved you ?
I felt lost and empty?

2009-03-20T22:13:00.002+08:00

ok... yesterday went out with cgm and gg...alan abandon us -.-
went to play len game
left 4 dead :) is a pretty cool and hilarious game among us when we played we dennis -.-
he killed jab his own team mate
how saddistic is he -.- andy's team have great teamwork among them
so it came in handy for them and extremly level for us to win them in the game and it came to conclusion they feel that is boring to play with us where we are so disunited in the game.
i love that game although is quite violent
after the game we went to play pool! basically is so embarassing where i am subdue by siona at her skill. Basically i am dumbfounded after she have defeated me in that game with the help pf hong yi (great player) i suppose the best for the day .
i really buckle under siona
i shall have my little revenge, it will be at the back of my heart.
We basically took so many pictures during our outing.
Well i am unable to upload the wonderous photo as i am at dennis house blogging :)
The photos are in my desktop. I saw a actor at the kopitiam at plaza singapural
He is undeniably dashing,i am totally jealous of is prominent good looks
is really notable among the people
ok lets get back to the events i am not trying to veer from the main thing ok!
we went to eat bean curd and fried bread, i do not how to phrase it -.-
we went to meet yea kai!!We chit chat for a while and linger awhile.
I wanted to catch the movie with them intially but i have to go to work tomorrow and was a little tight at my finance which i have to pass it :(
I WANT TO WATCH BLOODY VALENTINE
who will be willing to watch with me -.-
lol actually got alot la but i want someone special to watch with me :) i suppose it will not come to past as it is extremly gore i believe.
i headed home with denise and have a nice conversation with him, it been awhile since we speak as we are busy with our own life.I believe is a enjoyable time for me and him where we commune with one another :)He stay over at my house, one good news is he is in love with a special girl:) GOD bless that relationship and make dennis even a better man through this relationship.

This morning when dawn breaks we headed to jab's void deck and waited for him and we headed to work near yio chu kang i suppose.i believe all of us were frazzled in the morning.
WHAT YOU SOW IS WHAT YOU REAP
and guess what after i declare that keefe is a dustbin man doing rubbish job ( throwing rubbish)
in his blog, i am doing that role today. How misfortunate can i be?
The ablazing sun is literally scorching at our sheltered butts by our loving parents that sloted their guts for us.
I done the most dumping of rubbish,it stench is so rubbish.It is so hot that i took off my shirt and do the job.
well after the whole dumping of rubbish,i reeks of rubbish smell and sweats all over.
It is so sticky,stinky,tiring and dirty !!!then after that we went to be become movers,move boxes from places to places,totally draining of energy.
and we played basketball by throwing too,is full of excitment and fun in the midst of working :)
well setting aside the naggy superviser,it would be perfect !
we went to cut stuff too. here came the main point of me blogging today
we started throwing things and then the violent act between me and jab have started.He is holding a sharp pen knife pointing towards me and i went over using my boisterous hand and on the other hand he is swiping the pen knife towards me.
I have a grip of his hand and it just slipped and he cut my hand :( ouch! it is really a deep cut
where i am bleeding profusely,i asked for plasta from the staff there where a guy help me to clean my wound.I was standing and my head started to spin,feeling weak where my knees are going to falter soon.My eyes beginning to shut and from the information i heard,my face turn as pale as white sheet.At that moment i said to myself "i do not want to die yet,i still have so much to do,the work of GOD and getting married with HO Bt"
althought i knew that i will not enter the kingdom of GOD so early.
I literally go unconscious for a few seconds -.-
thank GOD i am alive -.-
my hand were being bandaged by the staff and jab dad speak in tongues softly and i heard it vaguely and my strength is regained and i could see clearly and the face of my colour regain its original colour.
it is so dangerous -.-
then others is nothing much :)

byes:) pictures will be updated soon

2009-03-17T23:30:00.000+08:00

selfishness? maybe ? i am?

2009-03-16T01:30:00.002+08:00

went out with ee kiat, mar, siona and hong yi

we watched kung fu chef -.0 and is like super lame pls

i was ridiculing the show and the actors through out the show -.-

well mar laugh because partly i am talking about the show -.-

jab meet us after the movie

and we went to eat kfc -.-

i am super terrify of fast food -.-

i do not want my life to be shorten and shorten as the days go by.

totally famish :( and soothed my grumbling stomach by the hot food :)

ok then we shop around at the it fair and i got a few things :)

haha and coincidently i saw cheryl( my primary classmate) and her sister

haha

at the IT fair we are always seperated -.- have to make tons of phone calls

lingered around the place then we head off to starbucks

and chatted,slack and took some photos with the people :0

is like so good :) enjoyable time with them :) notable memories

then headed home with jab and ee kiat

and was like so hilarious when

ee kiat wanted to take a number of a girl where he found her prominently cute

then i am like-.-

you serious-.-

in the end the girl 's boyfriend board the train after several stops.

i heave a sigh, thank GOD he did not ask for her contact-.- or else we will be having good game.

i and jab was on our way home and he ask about bt

and then he said you are like a dog rather than a boyfriend.

when needed then being called to. He said two years! she go out with her friend.

I am like -.- i did ask her to come with me if she wants 0,0 oh well

i percieve that he is sowing seeds of discord -.-

but it sounds really real :(

2009-03-15T01:13:00.003+08:00

reach home and i start breaking down!
i totally hate you and love you at the same time

2009-03-14T00:23:00.001+08:00

:(
insanity is so overwhelming
cause by devoid of love
the way to keep me alive

2009-03-13T00:52:00.004+08:00

my skills -.-

become got style.. still cool

this is certainly cool... eugene photographic skills :) cool

nerd andy

nerd dardar

nerd man man

nerd van

was trying out

recently i have to handle alot of cash -.- payment for fees and laptop.how i wish i earn this amount every day. 1 k a day for a start -.-

the outing was great :) i believe i have a great time with them

and i found out that i must learn to have patience like andy

was really marvel by his patience towards everyone :) and this is the spiritual fruit i lack of :) so i learn :)

ok was fun and fun where

i played game at the len ( left 4 dead)

haha

anyway is our 2 years

and well-.-

it drifted-.-

anyway happy 2 years

was really excited actually

haha oh well-..-

i got a surprise haha :O

2009-03-01T23:25:00.003+08:00

my cousin is so so cute she is my playmate for today -.-my aunt really have a hilarious expression on her face when i ask her to take photo with methis is the game we two play for the day.
my childhood lover-.- how hilarious when i come to think of it helping to slice the cake.ex ok. my mum buy for my little cousinmy aunt my cousin, grandmother and cousin and aunt

so tormented by recently nightmares,felt a deep pain in my heart.
when i woke up,found myself groaning in pain,uttering words that is so emotional. It is so unbearable and tremendous torment i am facing. i dread that it may happen in real life.

2009-02-19T23:44:00.007+08:00

basically is fun and is for chew zhi qi as we celebrated for her 17th birthday. Hope is an enjoyable day for her,really made an effort to plan hor!!! happy birdday zhi qi!

2009-02-05T19:21:00.002+08:00

:)
the storm abated in my life...
bit by bit i see sunlight streaked the path of my life.
mesmerize by how she speak. the beauty in her eyes arrest the attention of mine...

ok... woo... i recently was reading DRIVEN BY ETERNITY..
let everything i learned be etched in my soul and heart so i will be able to change my life and the life of the people around me letting them and myself to be able to enter the kingdom that everyone so desired. change me so i will be able to change the life of the others and not let them live in regret for eternity..
when there is knowledge there is a load of responsibilty on my shoulder....i will have to account for my life in the end of the day and wishing myself to be able to say
i have done my part and fulfill the call You asked me to fulfill..

2009-02-01T23:24:00.002+08:00

? i cause a wound on your heart?
what have i done?
why is my life being veered right and left?

2009-02-01T03:03:00.001+08:00

一直是我陪你去躲回憶裡的雨
你無心的嘆息
有心碎的聲音
他的好他的壞他的不安定
他的故事是我和你
愛情裡的烏雲
從我愛上愛他的妳那個瞬間起
一直是雨天
你只愛雨天我用傘保護你
親吻著你苦澀味道的微笑
閉著眼睛我明白你
想念他的秘密
我一直在第二順位愛著你
一直從雨天
一直到陰天
一直到晴天你逃離過去
我一直在第二順位等著你
一直從昨天
一直到今天
一直到永遠我相信是我最愛你
聆聽你說抱歉多過你說我愛你
你困在雨裡
我困在雨裡我的傘濕淋淋
『沒關西』是我最常說的一句
就讓我等就算我冷
至少我陪著你

2009-02-01T00:17:00.002+08:00

this few days in my life is kinda in a storm and there is no sign of abating.
in a pretty bad mood this few days after the strife i am in,bottom up all the feeling i felt.My mind is like in a swirl,confused and leery of her love.

well i am rejected for architecture and i am enrolled into REAL ESTATE in nee ann poly. well my spirit sagged when i am rejected, how can i sell properties -.-
well going to appeal for MI really wish that i would get into it although dennis felt that there is no vacancies.
failure really propelled me to GOD and to thrive for future.

now i found out that people do not love me for who i am but what i can act as.

2009-01-30T18:52:00.002+08:00

dishearted after recieved the enrollment of courses.
woo.slowly my emotions shall become a mystery to everyone except the only one and only that have agape love towards me.would not reveal the spectrum of my emotion.even i m dishearten, i will place a brave front. i believe i have no more peer that would understand my deepest heart desire.

got the book i wanted! DRIVEN BY ETERNITY!
woo...haha

2009-01-29T02:10:00.002+08:00

i left myself in solitary contemplation..things do not always be on the right track...

the room was engulfed with darkness, a very dim light was overpowered,
cracks and holes on the wall and deep cracks filled with blood,screams for love and pain begin to be louder and louder.
Portholes and gates begin to be seal with cement,rage was breed inside, the place was set ablaze by the rage.... and tears trickled down the cheek of the naive heart.Time is ticking waiting the one who have the key to unlock the gates and set free the person.Can the one make it on time before the cement sealed of the gates and portholes.What if the person is burned to cinder before the one make it or lost hope and gave up. The person is hiding at a corner waiting and shaking with fear and very frantic about the enviroment that the person would be facing for a period of time.Looking really frazzle,as the time ticks,eyes begin to shut hoping not to be in reality but the pain keep bring the person back to reality that he feared most.

2009-01-28T00:02:00.001+08:00

i pour everything to her.. just pour my heart out...
is pretty heartbreaking...but she dont have time for me and wanted to sleep...
so oh well....that it

2009-01-26T21:45:00.001+08:00

:(
i am feeling the world is crumbling down on me...
i just feel like breaking down....
i hate everybody... for being so hypocrite...

2009-01-25T20:36:00.002+08:00

freaking boring today...
i read and use the com today....
today there is no reunion dinner... because we ate it a few days ago....
was kinda pissed with certain things... >< still sizzling over that lie

2009-01-23T23:49:00.002+08:00

a cat that is in love with the dog...
why must i be in this strife that i do not want to be in..

2009-01-21T01:08:00.007+08:00

haha my beloved beauties girlfriends (bell and jos)

haha carpet friend and yahoo.... haha so nice of them to come:)

haha well is me and hl and keefe:) no hair for keefe... haha... and he got a k at his head:)

haha... our common place where we eat suki sushi to celebrate our clique birthday

haha... that is bell photographic skill -.-

i and beloved jos..... she becoming prettier... woo...

haha bell with her bang... so cute... got hole somemore

wa edwin so cute...lol.... so funny his facial expression

bell photographic skill again... haha...

hl... haha... this is where we play pool...

i and my beloved sweet sweet wife :) so sweet of her to come all way down even she is sick and in pain....

group photo....

nice wraping very creative

iz and zq and bell
under my house playground to celebrate and eat cake

haha...my guys friends:)

sweet ar

my cake!!!!!!!!!!!from xav and jab and keefe so nice:)

from bell. edwin . keefe .
jos. jia le. hl. yahoo. and joshua...
i like this flip flop alot :)

from joshua.... sweet !!!!!! but that mean i got 2 wallet for bd

this is from bt MY LOVE OF MY LIFE.... so sweet... this cost a bomb man!!!!!!

cannot believe it!!!!a speaker... haha... she really think alot for my present and made alot of effort.... she is so sweet... the love of my life!!!she is so creative and innovative of thinking of this to get me this present... is an extrodinary present i ever recieve:) cool!!!!!!!!haha.... i love her alot for she is so forgiving towards me :)

and this is from potato!!!!!!

gosh... he is so nice! always buy the things i want or need!!!!

i nvr even told him wat i wanted!!! but he always hit right to my desire

thanks!!!!!

from yj... woo... she go to and fro... just to pass me present...wooosh...

so nice.. well so many present from her... and the brands... cost alot too... thanks alot

appreciate it alot :)

this is from the cg... two consecutive years i receive water bottle... i dun look like suffering from dehyration right haha...

from my daughter zhi qi.... a golden tie:)

from wen shen and brenda... belt.... quite ex.. i think.. because is man master....

haha... thanks alot bro and xiao shao

this is a best birthday out of my 17 years of my life :) awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-19T23:04:00.002+08:00

met daryl for lunch....
it is great. it been awhile since i catch up with him... a great friend if u get closer to him... i was once very very close to him... it prove that as we grow older, there would be lesser time for friends but is really awesome because we do talk like before :)

well is really absurd as my "CG" going to celebrate my bd today... in the end only my beloved leader came.... well so sweet of her... to spent time with me... to celebrate my birthday....
had a good time i guess... mar prayed for me and blessed me.... woohoo... great :)

haha... hope tomorrow would be the best among the celebration for the two days... which is so horrible.... at least dennis and mar make the day for me :) thanks

2009-01-19T03:06:00.002+08:00

went out to celebrate my birthday with my family...
haha i got a camera for my birthday and i am delighted to have such a great presents from my beloved parents that my mum have never abdicate her responsibility as a mother...that always been the one providing for me.... she is a great woman that is in my life...
i m so ably love by her and being adore....
it is so wonderful...
and we went to eat new york new york...nothing special about food
well my birthday with family is kinda freaking spoilt
is so idiotic that my sisters are so freaking engross in themselves and what they want is shopping and shopping for the things they want... i just sneer at them.... in the end my mum have to go off and leaving the three of us watching movie...
and guess what... they want to watch what they want and not what i want...
hello!!!!!!!!!! is my birthday not yours!!!!!!!!
then i just marched off and in the way demand money from my mum and wanted to meet my friend to chill... and relax... i am ablaze with anger... i called dennis and didnt pick up.... haha.. he is the first one in my mind that would be beside me when i m in trouble.... well...then after that we met and catch a movie and well he brighten my gloomy day.... such a wonderful friend i got... he rush down all the way to meet me at town.... woo really touch by the way he treat me...
then we watch red cliff 2 and basically i promised my mum to watch it with her but she cannot so ya.... is a vague promise...oh well i rejected dennis once for the movie for the promise i gave to my mum... in the end she is the one rejected me...so well i catch it with dennis...amusing... become a cycle -.-
haha... i am excited for my birthday that i may celebrate with my friends and dearest girl i love and dearest friends and an angel.....
i m hope i am ably treated....woo hoo high expectation :s
GOD thank you for loving me so much and watching over me :) i bless YOUR NAME!!!!

2009-01-13T01:40:00.002+08:00

well... i got a shitty results....
so what can i do???? curse GOD?
of course not!!! HE deserve the higher praise.....
HE is awesome... always so loving....
ya people may say i thought your GOD is alive....
yes HE is....i trust HIM... although HE did not help mi through...i still trust HIM....
praise the holy one!!!!
well... i fail my english and cannot get almost anywhere i wanted....
of course i feel devastated....i felt pain... i feel unfair....i just don't understand...
why i got this results... i am shock...abandon myself in shame...
astounded by the results..and did not believe it is mine....
is not a dream... but is a true fact that i have to retake.... i want to go junior college
but it is impossible... for now!!!

well another year going to be wasted.... !#$@%#^^%^
well...

at least jess is veri veri caring towards me... i am so glad that i have her as my friend...
thank you so much...even i was so upset till i dun wanna reply anyone but u still keep encouraging me....i was so blessed...that the pure intention that you have towards me....

happy 1 year 10 month dear....although is a very shitty day for us.... but i wanna say that hope that we can share weal and woe together..and put this through this bad event..

dennis and eugene is nice to say that they would lend me my shoulder -.-
thanks buddies

2009-01-11T23:01:00.001+08:00

haha..i m off to cycle...wanna cycle alone... to think through and pray... gonna be good...
tata.

2009-01-11T19:39:00.001+08:00

nvr eat the whole day
cox maid not at home... lazy to buy food :(
sian sia

2009-01-06T21:49:00.002+08:00

gals....gals.... the gal i love is innocent and loving.....tat the gal care onli about loving mi....
but as gals become women.... the gal is becoming a women...and like all women...they like the 4c
cash, condo, car ,credit card...when the reality hits mi... it really make mi dishearten...where is the gal i once love...i must work hard and earn money?
thoughts just running to and fro in my mind....although she just say is joking...
she love mi ?do she?
i really love her...i really do!!!!!!but i dun show?
baby dun change :(
i dun wan....

or am i just paranoid...

2009-01-04T03:44:00.002+08:00

hello 2009

haha... new year...woo... spend time with my friends most of the time
haha...playing.and laugh... not crying.nvr did cry...
it was fun and great to haf friends tat would stand by your side....
haha.. i haf a few good friend

dennise he is realli a nice guy..a pleasant guy to be wit... he is smart and great...cute.
in his funny ways....
he is veri close to mi recently...

eugene...ha...totally funny to the core...the way he act ....but he is kind by nature...
i love him....

jess... she is realli a sweet gal...but haf a veri scary side too... haha... a gal tat i can approach....

keefe nice guy...but hardly contact..
lol

mar... my leader....

wenshen....ha....idiot guy....but he is veri nice to his gal and mi of course...haha..
if haf time will try to hang out wit him...

and most importantly my sweet heart...tat she stand by my side for around 1 year and 9 month....
she is so tolerant towards mi.....gosh... my attitude is realli bad to an extent....tat is cannot make it...but she choose to stay by mi and not leave.. she may get angry at time
but still she is so adorable.....
i love her...and i realli miss her and wish to spend more time wit her....
haha...

i think hardly
nobody will read this
cox my blog is so dead...it been century tat i haf updated...

2008-12-26T03:08:00.002+08:00

merry christmas?
i dun haf the mood for merry christmas but then i got the best present... which is the salvation of my mother and dad.....
haha... well.... my sweet nvr... but then i will still continue to believe...
there is no better present then bring my sweet to recieve salvation... tat would be my birthday wish...haha my birthday coming... in less then a month... i made the wish to early haha... well.... lets pray tat it will happen :) i m excited for my birthday that i can get something tat is precious :)

2008-12-07T03:21:00.002+08:00

it been a long long time since i blog...
my blog is so dead...
haha.. well taiwan trip was great...
went all the way up to taipei 101 the highest building in taiwan... and it is beautiful...
and most importantly i went up with the love of my life...
haha... i was at her territory...
and walk over the 情人bridge..
with her also... and it means that we are lovers.. haha... hope it is for life...
lovers and as sweet as ever.....
have our picture drawn by a lousy artist and horrible... get cheated badly... well let it be then...
went to a few places... and bought clothes but i felt is not enough... rahh...
after leaving taipei... i feel a little weird because i m going to leave her.. i don't want to i miss her alot....
got afew picture but cannot load it to the computer...
how i wish i am able to spend more quality time with her...
really wish to spend more time...
well met her mum... i am so nervous that i am loss with words at time...
is like gosh.. weird feeling...
speak to her... after what she said. i felt a bit :(
i will work even harder so that i be able to obtain my love...

went to church and it was great... rev john avazini preach and anointing past through the whole room.....
it was great.. GOD will do something miracle for me. i will be recession proof!!!!
i will prosper like no body business... :)
let it come to past in the name of JESUS

2008-11-24T23:01:00.002+08:00

actually i m veri worry.
well nvm.. cox i agree to it.. but then i m not willing at that time...
just dun wan to spoil the mood. when i m talking to you the last call...
hai...
sometime i maybe too naive tat u will understand mi...
well.. fun and friends tempt tat little heart of urs
well.. let it be then

2008-11-22T04:17:00.002+08:00

i wanna be able to influence and be able to change and impact the poor and the needy...
well.. singapore is very fortunate. and we tend to take everything for granted...
in our studies and the people beside us...
i will cherish...and treasure...
i wanna be very rich... so i be able to build school and hospital in the less fortunate country...
i wanna be a pastor too...and a businessman...
this is all my dream... i will run towards it.... i be able to do it....
nothing is hard because i know my GOD is there for me and who can be against me...

it will be done in the name of JESUS...

my sweetie left me...so sad right
i will miss you and i will be seeing you in taiwan... wait for me alright :)
i love you...

service was great... i feel there is a change...

2008-11-17T07:13:00.002+08:00

it been such a long long time since i update...
haha... exams is over and i m so so happy can...
but i haf some fear ya... but i hope no matter wat it will just last.. i just wanna say i love u as much as last time :)

i work once a waiter... gosh is so tiring can.... my bone is breaking...
haha... i learn quite a sum of things tat is veri useful...
maturity and being accepting to other... i really cannot believe tat eugene a great friend of my haf a good attitude is veri hard for mi to obtain...
i will haf and i will change.....

2008-10-24T21:02:00.002+08:00

well....
o level... is on... and i gonna do my veri best....
well... sometime i felt being used... but wat can i do... sometime i do treasure friendship alot...
but it seems nth to them.... -.-
well... focus on o level ba....

2008-09-20T21:45:00.002+08:00

haha...i saw quite a touching scene.... haha to mi... how i wish it would be for mi...
congrats val..... i think she veri happi haha... i believe it will happen for mi... but still veri long....

pure heart

as long as i am happy?! 我會讓你明白 是你失去了我 不是我失去了你

as long as i am happy?! 我會讓你明白是你失去了我不是我失去了你