ok ...
i m so bless today by the word...
is like faith...
i really wan to achieve my dream to be a pastor...
and i m really touch when
i speak my member is willing to listen to mi...
although mar say must improve my speech....
sometime... i m veri grateful... to haf supporting member...
tat wat i wanted all along... support!!!

i m veri veri worry... did not get any
contact from her...
until i reach home to see her sis is online then i noe

haha... hmmm...
english oral is over....
and i dun think i did..... well...
oh well...
teacher discourage mi say i will not make it for chinese even i retake but i believe i can...
i dun care wat other say but i noe i can...

the sweetest thing u gave mi today is the kiss of my life...
and the cookie...:)
thanks sweetheart

ok....
i got a news...
i got my chinese result.....

back...

ok...
i got c5...
ok... from e8 jump to c5... is 3 grades...
thank GOD....

but is not wat i wanted...
kinda disappointed....
but is alright.....
in bad time... just praise....
:)

quiz????
1. The person who tag you is .
keefe?

2. Your relationship with him/her is .
best friend i hope?

3. Your five impression of him/her.
smart.funny.gentle. bully my sweetheart. my fruit


4.the most mermorable thing he done...
got a pencil case for my birthday....
and is the brand i wanted...

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you .
i lend u money? lol... i always say i dun haf... then he say i lend you... actualli i haf la... but jk wit him...

6.If he/she become your lover, you will .
i dun mind if i m a gal?


7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be .
change sex then haha...


8. If he/she become your enemy, you will .
pluck his braces...

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be .
i dun think will happen

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is .'
tell him to study


11. Your overall impression of him/her is .
lier

12. How you think people around you will feel about you .
violent -.- which i already change


13. The characters you love of yourself are :
when i lay my life down when i love the person


14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are .
attitude


15. The most ideal person you want to be is .
jesus

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them .
thank you and i love u

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you
i skip this question -.-


18.Who is no.6 having relationship with?
nothing led

skip all le...

haha...

haha.....
i think i will haf to overwrite the sad post...
haha.... cox andy tell mi to write to overwrite tat...
haha... hmm seems like i post onli when i m sad...
so ok....

haha...
ok i got 15 over 25 for a small physi test...
although not up to my expectation....
but is GOD grace... cox i am consider the best in my last class -.-
thank GOD i getting my pace....

-.-
so long nvr fall in love
hai.... sad sia....

ok...
if anybody see this
pray for my MUMMY i wan
her to be heal.... ya... she is sick in her body and need to go for operation...
so i need prayer....
this is another burden for mi to ya...

dear i m sorry!
i hurt you badly. :(



is my mistake... tat i have done something wrong...
i should not have say those things...
when i say that i knew
her heart shatter into pieces like a fragile glass tat is hit by a ignorant child...
i should have not say those hurting words... even i m unhappy....
at that very moment... i was feeling sour and bitter at the same time...

how i wish time could be control by mi... which i can stop and rewind and not say those words.... how i wish i can take away the pain she is enduring.....
when i look into her eyes... i can feel the pain as tears is stuck in her eyes.. i knew she was holding back her tears.....


how can i be so stupid.....
i felt is my responsible to take good care of her....
to let her be happy... maybe sometime i doing my very best to protect her.....
but i m the one that broke her heart the most....
i m so confuse and felt a heavy weight at my shoulder.....
feeling so pain in the inside.....
i will not blame you for this entire thing...
i know i brought this up myself... therefore i will be the one that bear this consequence myself...
u feel i never give you freedom...i m sorry ....
i will let you be... ya... i really dont know what to do....


guess that i will go through the hard time myself then....
sweet moment is easy to go through but i know is very hard to go together...
in hard time....this is a simple logic. humanity has a mindset to survive for its own.....


and i was feeling very terrible... i don really wanna go for fop... but i still go after i sit in the mrt from bugis to pasir ris then back to kallang... i m very deep in my thoughts... i was trying my best also to talk to the new friends... yup... i push myself....
and felt very exhausted....i know new friends are important..so i care lesser for myself...
souls are important...



as worship starts....
i saw myself full of cuts.blood.the pain i felt and the exhaustion......
i begin to breakdown....
warm tears roll down.... the burden is being lifted up.....i feel lighter....
i begin to remember how a father was taking care of his son....
i believe it is the same for mi....




ok... today the preacher preach about growing up...
maturity.... is define as the one ready to take responsible....
ok... is very good... word.... i will bear in mind what i can control and not control...
i cannot control the weather... i cannot control.her.my future son. church.
but i can control myself.....




ok sorry for hurting u....
i m hurt tat you are hurt...