dishearted after recieved the enrollment of courses.
woo.slowly my emotions shall become a mystery to everyone except the only one and only that have agape love towards me.would not reveal the spectrum of my emotion.even i m dishearten, i will place a brave front. i believe i have no more peer that would understand my deepest heart desire.


got the book i wanted! DRIVEN BY ETERNITY!
woo...haha

i left myself in solitary contemplation..things do not always be on the right track...



the room was engulfed with darkness, a very dim light was overpowered,
cracks and holes on the wall and deep cracks filled with blood,screams for love and pain begin to be louder and louder.
Portholes and gates begin to be seal with cement,rage was breed inside, the place was set ablaze by the rage.... and tears trickled down the cheek of the naive heart.Time is ticking waiting the one who have the key to unlock the gates and set free the person.Can the one make it on time before the cement sealed of the gates and portholes.What if the person is burned to cinder before the one make it or lost hope and gave up. The person is hiding at a corner waiting and shaking with fear and very frantic about the enviroment that the person would be facing for a period of time.Looking really frazzle,as the time ticks,eyes begin to shut hoping not to be in reality but the pain keep bring the person back to reality that he feared most.

i pour everything to her.. just pour my heart out...
is pretty heartbreaking...but she dont have time for me and wanted to sleep...
so oh well....that it

:(
i am feeling the world is crumbling down on me...
i just feel like breaking down....
i hate everybody... for being so hypocrite...

freaking boring today...
i read and use the com today....
today there is no reunion dinner... because we ate it a few days ago....
was kinda pissed with certain things... >< still sizzling over that lie

a cat that is in love with the dog...
why must i be in this strife that i do not want to be in..

haha my beloved beauties girlfriends (bell and jos)

haha carpet friend and yahoo.... haha so nice of them to come:)

haha well is me and hl and keefe:) no hair for keefe... haha... and he got a k at his head:)

haha... our common place where we eat suki sushi to celebrate our clique birthday

haha... that is bell photographic skill -.-

i and beloved jos..... she becoming prettier... woo...

haha bell with her bang... so cute... got hole somemore

wa edwin so cute...lol.... so funny his facial expression

bell photographic skill again... haha...

hl... haha... this is where we play pool...

i and my beloved sweet sweet wife :) so sweet of her to come all way down even she is sick and in pain....

group photo....

nice wraping very creative

iz and zq and bell
under my house playground to celebrate and eat cake

haha...my guys friends:)

sweet ar

my cake!!!!!!!!!!!from xav and jab and keefe so nice:)

from bell. edwin . keefe .
jos. jia le. hl. yahoo. and joshua...
i like this flip flop alot :)

from joshua.... sweet !!!!!! but that mean i got 2 wallet for bd

this is from bt MY LOVE OF MY LIFE.... so sweet... this cost a bomb man!!!!!!

cannot believe it!!!!a speaker... haha... she really think alot for my present and made alot of effort.... she is so sweet... the love of my life!!!she is so creative and innovative of thinking of this to get me this present... is an extrodinary present i ever recieve:) cool!!!!!!!!haha.... i love her alot for she is so forgiving towards me :)

and this is from potato!!!!!!

gosh... he is so nice! always buy the things i want or need!!!!

i nvr even told him wat i wanted!!! but he always hit right to my desire

thanks!!!!!

from yj... woo... she go to and fro... just to pass me present...wooosh...

so nice.. well so many present from her... and the brands... cost alot too... thanks alot

appreciate it alot :)

this is from the cg... two consecutive years i receive water bottle... i dun look like suffering from dehyration right haha...

from my daughter zhi qi.... a golden tie:)

from wen shen and brenda... belt.... quite ex.. i think.. because is man master....

haha... thanks alot bro and xiao shao

this is a best birthday out of my 17 years of my life :) awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

met daryl for lunch....
it is great. it been awhile since i catch up with him... a great friend if u get closer to him... i was once very very close to him... it prove that as we grow older, there would be lesser time for friends but is really awesome because we do talk like before :)

well is really absurd as my "CG" going to celebrate my bd today... in the end only my beloved leader came.... well so sweet of her... to spent time with me... to celebrate my birthday....
had a good time i guess... mar prayed for me and blessed me.... woohoo... great :)

haha... hope tomorrow would be the best among the celebration for the two days... which is so horrible.... at least dennis and mar make the day for me :) thanks

went out to celebrate my birthday with my family...
haha i got a camera for my birthday and i am delighted to have such a great presents from my beloved parents that my mum have never abdicate her responsibility as a mother...that always been the one providing for me.... she is a great woman that is in my life...
i m so ably love by her and being adore....
it is so wonderful...
and we went to eat new york new york...nothing special about food
well my birthday with family is kinda freaking spoilt
is so idiotic that my sisters are so freaking engross in themselves and what they want is shopping and shopping for the things they want... i just sneer at them.... in the end my mum have to go off and leaving the three of us watching movie...
and guess what... they want to watch what they want and not what i want...
hello!!!!!!!!!! is my birthday not yours!!!!!!!!
then i just marched off and in the way demand money from my mum and wanted to meet my friend to chill... and relax... i am ablaze with anger... i called dennis and didnt pick up.... haha.. he is the first one in my mind that would be beside me when i m in trouble.... well...then after that we met and catch a movie and well he brighten my gloomy day.... such a wonderful friend i got... he rush down all the way to meet me at town.... woo really touch by the way he treat me...
then we watch red cliff 2 and basically i promised my mum to watch it with her but she cannot so ya.... is a vague promise...oh well i rejected dennis once for the movie for the promise i gave to my mum... in the end she is the one rejected me...so well i catch it with dennis...amusing... become a cycle -.-
haha... i am excited for my birthday that i may celebrate with my friends and dearest girl i love and dearest friends and an angel.....
i m hope i am ably treated....woo hoo high expectation :s
GOD thank you for loving me so much and watching over me :) i bless YOUR NAME!!!!

well... i got a shitty results....
so what can i do???? curse GOD?
of course not!!! HE deserve the higher praise.....
HE is awesome... always so loving....
ya people may say i thought your GOD is alive....
yes HE is....i trust HIM... although HE did not help mi through...i still trust HIM....
praise the holy one!!!!
well... i fail my english and cannot get almost anywhere i wanted....
of course i feel devastated....i felt pain... i feel unfair....i just don't understand...
why i got this results... i am shock...abandon myself in shame...
astounded by the results..and did not believe it is mine....
is not a dream... but is a true fact that i have to retake.... i want to go junior college
but it is impossible... for now!!!

well another year going to be wasted.... !#$@%#^^%^
well...

at least jess is veri veri caring towards me... i am so glad that i have her as my friend...
thank you so much...even i was so upset till i dun wanna reply anyone but u still keep encouraging me....i was so blessed...that the pure intention that you have towards me....

happy 1 year 10 month dear....although is a very shitty day for us.... but i wanna say that hope that we can share weal and woe together..and put this through this bad event..

dennis and eugene is nice to say that they would lend me my shoulder -.-
thanks buddies

haha..i m off to cycle...wanna cycle alone... to think through and pray... gonna be good...
tata.

nvr eat the whole day
cox maid not at home... lazy to buy food :(
sian sia

gals....gals.... the gal i love is innocent and loving.....tat the gal care onli about loving mi....
but as gals become women.... the gal is becoming a women...and like all women...they like the 4c
cash, condo, car ,credit card...when the reality hits mi... it really make mi dishearten...where is the gal i once love...i must work hard and earn money?
thoughts just running to and fro in my mind....although she just say is joking...
she love mi ?do she?
i really love her...i really do!!!!!!but i dun show?
baby dun change :(
i dun wan....

or am i just paranoid...

hello 2009


haha... new year...woo... spend time with my friends most of the time
haha...playing.and laugh... not crying.nvr did cry...
it was fun and great to haf friends tat would stand by your side....
haha.. i haf a few good friend


dennise he is realli a nice guy..a pleasant guy to be wit... he is smart and great...cute.
in his funny ways....
he is veri close to mi recently...

eugene...ha...totally funny to the core...the way he act ....but he is kind by nature...
i love him....


jess... she is realli a sweet gal...but haf a veri scary side too... haha... a gal tat i can approach....


keefe nice guy...but hardly contact..
lol



mar... my leader....


wenshen....ha....idiot guy....but he is veri nice to his gal and mi of course...haha..
if haf time will try to hang out wit him...



and most importantly my sweet heart...tat she stand by my side for around 1 year and 9 month....
she is so tolerant towards mi.....gosh... my attitude is realli bad to an extent....tat is cannot make it...but she choose to stay by mi and not leave.. she may get angry at time
but still she is so adorable.....
i love her...and i realli miss her and wish to spend more time wit her....
haha...




i think hardly
nobody will read this
cox my blog is so dead...it been century tat i haf updated...