ok....
marking day....so happi can go out and haf fun...
haha....
and went to sentosa.....
and was fun...and i send her to school....
ya happi to see her...then we went to sentosa...and play and tanning too... haha...
i m so so red....
then after tat i saw isabelle and her gang....haha....
lol...
they come sentosa then sit there onli afew go play water than come sentosa for wat...
go under block play la...
lol....
haha....
then today yong teach how to front flip and i m the onli one success....haha....
so delighted... and play and tan....
then i suddenly sit at one side and think something...and felt unhappi...
so i decided...i lie on the float....and sun tan...
and i feeling ok ok....
then suddenly someone flip over...then i scold *&^*($
then i walk away....
super piss...
and yong tok to mi....
he tok to mi...then i listen...
and to mi he is like a big brother....
veri gd ok....
then i apologize to mar....
i will change and control....and respect my leader....
then we went to vivo....and just slack and eat....
haha...just lie down and tok.... and stuff and walk walk brought stuff...
haha....
ok....
then went home....
so is a fun day......





yesterday was realli upset...because i keep toking to this gal....
and she like treat mi transparent in the way..... so realli upset...thought tat we are best friend but now not even a friend....and i m like an idiot caring?
but she treat mi as if i do not exist....
and i realli hate and angry....
i really hate her.... when she do this to mi....
did u respect mi as a normal friend....no!!!!
and today i treat her as if tat she does not exist....
and i am upset too..


is ok cox i haf her....
and i chat wit her....
and tok and tok then tok abt the guy...
tat say wan to take care of you...
of course i m pissed!! althought u say dun wan...i m happi .... but when u say is like friend onli la....
is like bell....
wat the &^*$ ....
i tell her to.....
and she is my friend....
and if is a guy and my friend so is ok...
and i say wat if a gal take care of mi...surely u dun like it....
then u say i m pushing my anger towards you....
fine....and i m thinking tat why should i care so much...
when u dun like.....
haf you went to my friendster...
and keep looking at my comment whether gals go flirt wit mi...
basically no....
and i always go to urs and check...
becasue i dun wan anyone to flirt wit you....
coz you are mine...
i m always anxious abt you....
and i m realli upset...
i noe to u i m a unreasonable and angry bf....
i m thinking why should i be so anixious.... i think i should just let it
be....



and ok!!! i think...nvr mind no friend and her.... to be there for mi...
i think brother will be enough!!
and yet when on the way home....
i was toking and jab and keefe ps mi....
wt...
ok lor...
nvm then i say why nvr call mi...then kvii say i thought you toking...
then cannt inform la...
i m like idiot go and find you all..then u all ps mi...


ok...on the bus i felt realli sad and unhappi...
on the way home....on the bus my tears keep flowing and is veri warm tears tat is filled saddness and hatered.....
and thinking there is no one to lie on to....
and all the way like tat...and when she msg mi...i was happi alittle but when i replied.... there is no reply back....
so nvm....
and i walk home alone....
cox just wan to relax a little....



so today happiness ccannot be compared to the saddness...
oh nvm....i will be strong....