my existance is insiginificant to you :(
confusion of being insane or being grief!
It is just wonderful how a year relationship can inflict damage compare to a 2 years relationship?
How affected you are when i first found you and affiliated you.
well everything may surface out as emotional but that what i am contemplating right now?
maybe it is just me? the willful party?
love is a choice and intensive passion?
did you lose the passion you had for me once? or you never had from the start?
my brain is toasted by the question that is confronting me.


A giver is wanting to give happiness and benefit to someone in the expenses of him/herself
even though he/she is unhappy!
A taker is wanting to have happiness and benefit for him/herself at the expenses of other even though other is unhappy


well after i got these from pastor. I evaluated myself and i gave in by texting her first saying i am willing to make changes because i loved her deeply.
The response is mean and it reveal lots of nasty things which i can never imagine about!


many have told me to smile but is easy to smile:) but in the inner part of me is totally on the contrary :(

Mar told me i have to work it out by talking. Guess that i have to do it.
It will be tough because whatever i said will always be stress :(
I will do my best to phrase it the best way!