continue

hmmm...
her parents found out and stuff...
and i was worry... but i say to myself and her tat no matter wat happen... i will be wit her.... even the mean to wait...
baby i will wait....
i love u deeply.....
dun worry k? nothing can seperate us.....
all i wan is u to be happi :)
lets work hard together....
and acheive good result.....
i m urs and you are mine......

baby i wan to tell u one thing....
this is the ring i wan to wear forever....

haha....yester day went out wit auntie alice...ate alot....

and is nice food...haha...

realli realli blessed by
GOD and her... haha.... haf a great time..... and went i grow up i wan to be like her.....

so so greatt....

haha...ok...woke up in the morning...still tired.. haha

then penis called...to buy present... haha..

ok...

then i went...and i bought present too... haha.... is not bad....

then went to cwp...haha... bought cars....haha... and motorcycle... ahahah...but in super mini version haha....

then.... i went to the park alone... haha....

just wan peace and joy...haha...so went there...

actually wanted to study first before praying....but cant....haha....
and there is alot of people...so GOD cant realli appear in the sense...
but can feel HIM.... so so peace....haha...then i explore the place.....haha...is veri cool...i climb here and there.....haha...but i got scratch by something while i was climbing over....ar....
haha... haf great views...and my heart pump quick as i was climbing as is is realli high....haha....
and i almost fall afew times....
haha... saw alot of couple...hhaa...
and tat time i miss her alot alot...wan her to be wit mi.....
haha...but anyway is wit GOD... so is great oso...quite fill.....
haha...quite hot and stuff so went back home...on the way home... man wind blow and one leaf come towards mi and i got scare over it >< haha... scary cat man.....
so went home...haha..... happiiii....
oso...





hmmm i still love u de same....
i prefer my gal to be crazy over mi tat all...
but nvm... is ok....
i miss u badly

I WAN TO BE HAPPI WIT YOU... IT DOES NO MATTER ABT THE PAST .....



I WAN TO LIVE IN THE WORLD OF MUSIC AND DANCING AWAY THE SADDNEESS....



I WAN TO BE HIGH....

I DUN WAN TO BE ALWAYS SAD...



I WILL LEARN THE PIANO...

I WILL PLAY FOR U.... I WAN TO GIVE WAT YOU WAN
YA LO...
HMM I WAN TO BE WIT YOU FOREVER...I REALLI WAN WAN!!!
i **** u onli...

haha

hmm... this morning veri tired....
haha...so sleepy...she tok abt last time of something...then i like ><>< reALLII alone....
dun like but nvm.. anyway i resting so is ok..... i and understanding that u need to be wit your friend oso... so is ok....
haha... then ss test lol.....
i nvr study but sbq not need study haha...
but noe how to do...
haha... but abit bad mood because alone... and tired.... and i tok to her... then she cut in >< arhhhh... wat she wan... i tok oso cannot i dun tok oso cannot i think i go back indian and flip roti prata....
ok... after boring lesson then went home wit her.... haha...
then we tok... then i say can we start again and forget abt the hurts for the past few days...
hmmm ya... i reall love u de......
haha... happi can spend time wit her... and she enjoy it too... and shy... :x so cute dde lor......

lifeless

hmmm.... ok... in the morning... i clip up my hair... haha... alot of people say tat i cut hair... haha.. i dun wan to be caught or else must cut hair...haha.. i thought i will not be caught... but still get caught because of the side and back...
then i >< ' not happi la... hha...then hear mr justin to tok and tok.. haha... his stage..... the potato go rtp because of attitude.. ai yo.. must be smart... learn how to react ma....
ai yo....haha... went back to class... haha... saw her sit alot...then i sit beside her... then teacher tell mi to sit at my place.... rahhh i say " teacher u jealous ar?" haha...
went for pe... haha.... so so fun... played hokey.... haha... run here and there... veri fun.... haha... but she stand there like a rock... haha... but nvm....not as sporty... haha...but nvm... different people.... i cant expect her to be sporty...
hmmm... ya.... everyone haf gd each and his or her gd point....... but nvm... for her i will change... i will play the piano...one day... for her... because she wan....
i will step into her life... :) but sometime no one step into my life :( but haha.... she step alot... i m happi to a certain extend.... haha....
ok... realli wet... because sweat alot...
haha....
went for recess... and ate... then jab told mi tat the shop the food haf worm >< wat!!!! next time i not going to eat there anymore.....
haha...went back class... wanting to change... then i saw msg... then i rush down..cox i thought she alone... chey... wit zq...hmmm but veri happi becasue she care... she thought i m alone.... haha..... recess ended... spa... veri tired...
so i work wit aqidah... save time and strength....haha....
so second recess i fall asleep then she wake mi up...then she tell mi to sit wit her... then i tell her to sit wit mi then she give mi the :( face...then i walk behind reluntanly...then she walk to sit my place there...man... so so so complicated gal.... nvm......
hmmm... so i tok to her... but she ignore mi....then i like wat the....... u told mi tat i tok tooo little.... then u feel i love u lesser... then i tok now...then u ignore mi....wattttt
nvm.... then do group work... once again... i tok to her...and she ignore mi... then i like rahhhhhh!!! ok.... maybe she nvr hear.... so i nvr say anything... then i was thinking i alwasy listen to u...attentively....but sometime i tok. u listen but your mind is always away at other thinngs....sometime i m hurt by your action... but i just nvm.... is ok.....
went home... and slept and bath then went out... my ez card is spoil... so i went to amk to do.... ok...haha...find her oso... and listen to her....haha....
ok.....so we tok...she tok abt how unhappi she is...ok...she is a great great gal.....
haha....hmm... actually today not realli happi abt how she react when i tok...but nvm... so abit unhappi ba.... but glad to see her happi......
haha.. she is cute...her action so so cute....
went home after tat...to be truthful i m not happi when i say i love u and u are normal.... maybe i m too sensitive.... so went home.. waited her... she nvr msg mi... is onli went i use my sis phone... then she msg...
nvm....
so today is like unhappi plus haix.....
oh well.....is ok.....





prayer :
i pray for my mum to haf gd health as she is not feeling well lately....
she is one of my closest.... because she is my mother...
i pray tat UR blessing will be pour over her....

wat is love?

ok.... i been lazy to update blog....
haha....but sometime i dun realli wan to share my thoughts wit
not realli close people.... ya lo....but anyway....
the day before cg....
hmmm i love u so i will not want to do the thing tat u dun like....
and after tat i remember the thing then i told her...hmm.. ya is my fault and i dun wan to give any excuss....
hmmm.... u feel tat being slap in the face even you dunno... hmmm... i didnt do tat thing when i m wit you ? is before....
but.... nvm...
i feel tat i m a jerk... not an ideal bf....
now my thinking is tat i need to be more "perfect" so tat i will not dissapoint u.. in the way....
sorry tat i m not transparent. sorry tat i m not mr perfect. sorry tat i make u cry so much. sorry for being forgetful.sorry tat i keep thinking of the past,but now i m not trying to think anything,i dun wan to spoil our relationship. sorry for bringing so much hurt into your life. sorry tat i bring you tears. i nvr wanted you to be sad.... but this is due to my bads points and my wishs will nvr come through... tat i always wish u will be happi every single day...
as i begin to walk alone to the place.. i m thinking why is it like this...
why because of one wrong thing human do the gd mermories disappear...
and maybe i not gd enough to make u happi....
as i begin to go the cg place...hmmm.. i put a smile... but the smile didnt last veri long.... during worship.... i break down... i ask for forgivness.....
wat GOD says is i will be like peter and not as weak as samuel.....
i understand wat HE says....ok... is good... i m a little better...hmmm... i noe at tat time she is realli upset.... but yet she still ask keefe to tell mi to take care.... at tat time... i m happi as she do care....
ok.... but i told her tat i m not the guy u think i m....

for today.... her first msg to mi
DARRION.... ........ ...
and ok... realli stranger.. and dissappointed... walking in the rain... while on my way home....and went home... and her... nick is " i belong to myself" actually she write " i belong to him" last time....
and is like ok...... i realli arhhhhhh!!!
and it hurtS!!! due to my mistake her love is so much lesser....
ok... nvm... is human reaction... so...
nvm... but when she hurt mi...i always noe i love her even more...because my tears are more than ever....hmmm... after tat she say she forgive mi... hmm.. i m like ok ok.... because my mindset is change.... in my mind is to be mr perfect and cant afford to make any mistake.....
in the future..... during msg... felt weird...like nth to say.... i dun wish to say anything wrong... 'ok ' alot.... welll both is like injured puppy...dun even wish anyone to touch... or will be afraid if anyone come near....
after tat went to service....hmmm... during service is great i noe i m so fill with love.. i feel much much better.....
haha... i will learn to DO A ACT OF RANDOM KINDNESS A DAY... haha...
hmmm...after tat went to eat...haha... i m starving badly....
hmm... after tat i saw her.... felt weird...then i tell her tat i need her... then say until i wan to remember like tat... i say i just feel weird... and just wan love secure and comfort....
hmm... tat all ba....i onli noe tat i still **** u

DEEP LOVE

HAHA... realli happi...yesterday....
haha... i still remember the feeling....the sweet sweet feeling tat you gave....the security... tat when i tell u to hug mi....
hmm... i m a person long for security.....
ttat i will be protected by someone....i may seem strong but i m not the person u think i m.....
realli so happi....
hmmm i dun like the thing you tok abt... u noe the la....
veriiiiii J******

hmm....actually if second recess u nvr pei mi is ok:) i understand de...haha....u oso must tc of babies :) jkjkjkjkjk
haha...i m a understanding person:)
of course i remember i promise de... i dun wan to break promise anymore..at tat time maybe will break wit you if she hold longer....
ya lo...but now no matter wat happen nth will break us apart :)
ok... u must be realli hurt at tat time... hmm i hate him tat he hurt you so so much..... :(
actually u are veri veri strong gal :)
hmm...i m urs now and forever urs....
surely love before... hmm u waited for him so long of course becox u love him la... then for fun med...haha
hmm sorry tat i keep toking abt the past...hmmm... help mi ok? to forget every single things in the past.... YA!!!i dun care abt your past :)
i just wan you and you to be happi now :)
haha... u must run more la...then u are more healthy and sexy :p haha....
hmmm i just wan to pei you...i dun mind being a little tired... but as long i can see u,i veri happi le....hmmm... onli found the key chains... but the rest cannot find... :(
ya tat time so warm feeling when u kiss mi...so so happi....
sorry i will take the first step more often ok ?
ok.... gd night to my darling gal and xiao dar :)
sorry tat i make u sad at times :(
i promise i will treat u better de.........i will treat you better de :(






TODAY
hmm.... ok nth realli much happen....
just one thing happen...after school man...
hungry....hungry...then wan to go recess... then no one pei mi...
hmmm.. i dun like to be ALONE...... but nvm....happi tat at least eugene suddenly go wit mi...haha... although weird..but at least got someone....not so lonely....
haha....nvm... is ok.... i will be strong....
hmm... i just wan to be wit you...
我爱你

letters

haha....in the morning veri tired :( i realli need more sleep....
super tired....haha.. then i veri happi cox she gave mi letters..haha...
realli sweeter and sweeter each day...haha...
ya u nvr gave mi letter before!!!!letters will make mi remember of the things we do before....ya... the letter veri cute...i will keep them welll and safe...hmmm... i nvr say i a little happi is a bit sad la.....hmmm ya i m jealous.... and becox u and him haf a lot of thing u all do together...like lots of mail..and stuff... u are great gal!!!!! i m just afraid tat i m not good enough or nvr treat you good enough....
she is good...but u treat mi better :)
i m realli happi tat u nvr think of him.....cox u haf mi in ur heart...
hmmm... i believe one day my heart will be crazy for u tat i will not think abt in the past le....so u must do ur best :) i will do my best to make u happi everyday...
hmm i feel u realli become realli mature in our relationship...and u realli care for mi :) i realli happi....i oso dun wan the past to be between us :) i love u...hmmm
forgiving realli will take away the burden... haha... ya... u haf love him before de... ya lo....hmmm... ya...hmm ur family realli neglected ur feeling..... and u may feel love in a wrong way.... but... i will give u the love u need.... i will take care of u...and i will not hurt you...cox i love u....hmmm tat time i remember i wan to break tat time then she dun wan...but in the end she let go...but i feel if she hold longer... i will continue wit her...ya lo...so i dun wan you to let mi go too....
hmmm i will not let you go tooo......i will not wan to hurt you...i love you too.....i wan to be wit you forever... tooooooo!!!
i trust yo tat you give mi all your heart :)
i love u i love u i love u i loveu i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i loveu i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i loveu i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i loveu i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i loveu i loveu i loveu i loveu
and i miss u too... realli touch tat you write the letter...

haha i m a naught boy...haha... actually i realli wan to read... so i cant wait ma....haha....hmmm realli not happi cox u like leave mi alone....tat i told u tat if i let you go home alone then u surely not happi the right... ya lo... nvm :)
hmm when we one year i will put de :) i love you.....


haha...went to fetch her... wah... realli veri tired...cannot make it... i wan to die liao....
but i love her...haha... so is ok :)
now wan to study le....byes :)

...

yea yea....
hmmm... today nth much... realli tired...wanna sleep...
and waNNA rest...felt realli tired... :( but oh nvm.... gonna carry a big wide smile.... haha....and she make mi angry because she didnt notice tat she did something wrong...and time and time i keep repeating the same old time.....
but in the end still slept during geo lesson...man...so so boring....
haha... after tat went home....haha...
this is a special feeling...haha... when i kiss her... oh my gosh... i felt a warm warm feeling...reallli so so happi.......
haha.... i m in love....
haha... after tat went to bugis together... haha.. she need to do her stuff there... and i bought her the bag she wanted.....
haha... hope u will be happi... ok? happi 6 months... i love u baby....

baby feel my heart with your love... and strive to win my whole heart..
i wan u to haf my whole heart.....i wan to think of onli u...i onli love u...baby....
give mi ur whole heart let mi fill it wit love.....
thanks for being so understanding when i tok abt the past...u didnt lose ur top... but instead you love mi... realli happi....
haha...but i still jealos of him!!! haha... c0ox i love u alot.................

HAHA...NICE

HAHA....stay at home in the morning....

haha...and she ask mi this question...should i let you go?

in my mind is hell no!!!!!

i nvr wan u to let mi go....

hmmm...i realli love u and wan to be wit you....

sorry if i haf hurt u and make u feel bad abt yourself....

i love and need you too...nvr will i leave u.....

hmm... afternoon jab and penis came my house....

haha... we played... man i got scatch...painfull... that penis....rahhhh....

haha... went to bukit gobak... haha.... realli fun... we took lots of pic..... and shout... man... there is echoes... realli awesome... haha....

went to cwp and bought food and watch bruce almighty....

haha... it is great....

GOD haf alot of works to do...and HE do the best for us....

we always pray for the things we do not realli wanted...and is not the best for us....

we should be the miracle maker....we haf to do wat we realli can....

so i wan to tell xh....tat i love u and i love u and i love u....

nvr will i wan to regret for not loving you enough.....

I LOVE U.....

6 month....

haha.....

spent our 6 month....hahahahahahahah....realli happi... as

this is important to mi......

haha...yesterday she is going through a time of discouragement...

so haha... i went to cwp early to buy sweets...hope

it will brighten up her....

haha...happi to see her...

went to take bus and it is a veri fast journey....

yea... but giddy cox didnt rest....haha....i haf bus sick easily... haha.....

her mum is realli too over to control wat she realli wan.... but i will do my best and go to the same school wit you :) if i can...haha... realli wanna be wit you....we went to buy the ticket.... haha... watch evan almighty... is

a great great great show...man.....

i m like so wan to see GOD myself......

i wan to be like HIM...haha......i will waiting for that veri day to come.....

learn quite alot of things actually....

haha...... and after movie... haha... we went to jacks place.....

haha... as this is our 6 month so wanted a little special on that day....

haha... we order..and ate....haha... almost everything i eat...cox she haf a little stomach...haha.... realli enjoy the food and time wit her....

realli happi.....

haha...but she eat until she like wan to die...haha...

i think i noe you better than ever le..noe wat you dun like to eat... haha

happi?

afterr tat went to take neo print...haha..the machine is like a little weird....

oh well..... my eye realli getting big... so nice...wahaha.... becox by HIS glory.i m made beautiful.....

haha... she is also veri beautiful.....haha.. iloveubaby...

went to service...haha it is a realli great service.....

during worship i tear.... and i haf a vision abt GOD goodness in my life....

HE is nvr tired of mi... always interested in my life....which no one can nvr understand... HE make mi so important...

i wan to stay where YOU are....my love haf grow deeper for U my LORD...... U are my everything... when U are here wit mi...nothing else matter.....

the guy realli hiong... becox of GOD he is strong....

GOD will use our weakness as HIS strength....

ur life is not in the hands of ur parents....

it is in ur own hands....

by the way you are veri important to mi...

i m sorry if i in anyway pressurize you....

i will not leave you... i promise to take care of you the rest of your life...

and i will love you.... and i love you deeply....

GOD grant the desires of my heart....

for my desires is UR desires... surely U willl grant it to mi

i will be an encourager

haha....ok... today went to do something wit her... we went to orchard
and take the passport thing....yea.... haha... wake up quite early...
quite tired too....
yea yea... but veri happi tat i can be wit her....
haha... so it worth it...
so we went to eat...veri hungry... oh man...
she ate fast food for few days...haha...
realli will become xiao zu....
haha....
i m sorry that i speak of her.... but ok....
went home and she slept at my chest at the mrt...
haha... she slept so soundly....realli sweet...
guess she is realli tired.....
haha.... went home... and ok hmmm realli miss her.....
went home... i m so so tired... went to take a shower and fall asleep....
at my bed....haha....
went to cg and it is great... haha...
i will be an encourager to my friends best friend my family and my darling....
haha... is realli great and GOD speaks to mi...
HE show mi a vision of two
clay.... and one clay is soak in water and put on the table...
and the other one is dry....and HE want to mould the wet clay... it is easy to make up a beautiful one and when HE wanted to mould the dry one... it breaks....
HE say to mi tat the wet one is soak in the spirit...praying everyday and getting strong wit the word... and the dry one is living in a normal life...without caring so much....
HE say I cant give you the things I wan you to do for mi as it will break mi as i m not strong...but if i m willing and soak in the spirit.....
and getting strong...when the time comes HE will use mi like nvr before.....i will prosper.. i will be use in great way.....
eyes haf not seen... ears haf not hear....open them...
HE prepare things for those who love HIM....realli touch....
HE give mi another chance in life.....
i will not waste anymore time... i will take this chance....
i love the blesser more than the blessing......


(there is a place in YOUR heart
i am longing to find
wont YOU show me
there is a place i know
i can run to and hide
wont YOU show me
show me
show me
show me YOUR heart
show me
show me
show me YOUR heart)
this is a song tat indicate to YOU my GOD...
i wan to see YOUR heart and know wat are YOU thinking.....
i love YOU... i adore YOU....




realli haf a great time.... realli blessed....so bless so bless....
it is all in the spiritual realm.... i m blessed.....
i m bless...


ok...waited for her msg for the whole day.....
but she nvr send mi a msg... then i m thinking...hmm i m sure she is waiting for mine too....
then ok ....in the end i msg her...haha....ok...then she like not realli happi....then i dunno wat happen so did not ask further..
after i read her blog then i found out tat she is not realli happi... ok......






hmm.....maybe the time you are going through are veri irritating for you....
and u feel guilty of using ur parent money and not doing anything for them.....i noe in their heart is wan you to do well....in life.....
just do ur best and study....and i will be just beside you :)
when time u are feeling veri lousy.... i will be ur sunshine....
when time u are going through bad time... i will be holding your hand tight and go through it wit you.....
when time you are tired.... i will be there to carry you...
when u are discourage... i will be ur cheer leader.. jumping up and down cheering for u.....
maybe you wan to go the way you wanted but it does not go ur way... and ur destiny is in the hand of your parents..and wanted their way.....
and u feel utterly lost...and do not noe wat your future ahead....
but fear not fear not..... is gonna be alright :) it is gonna be alright.....
u can do it :) u surely can.....
i trust you.....do ur best for eoy......
no matter wat happen i will go through it wit you....
pardon mi for being so passive... and not taking the first step....letting you go through all this alone.....

haha

haha....met her in the morning...
haha... veri happy....
miss u alot too.....so long nvr see u....
i feel...although yesterday saw u... but not enough....
so went home.... realli realli tired...
so so tired... went home to sleep again... haha.... and we tok too....
haha.... then after tat went to bank to deposit money... at last...
haha.... after a few weeks at last deposit money.....
so went home again.... slept for 4 hours again... realli tired...
oh gosh....
haha......u are the onli one in my mind...
i will onli love u... need you.... and i m urs... and no one else....
i will not do anything tat you dun like...
went to use com and study jus alittle...
oh my gosh....so so long i jus study a littlee...... man .... GOD i haf the wisdom in mi.....so i will not worry abt tml....regretting abt yesterday....i will be concern abt today.....i will do my best....haha....waited for her...so long....
rahhh... i m super worry.... cox my estimated time is veri accurate de....
ya....then i msg her....
call her....at tat time i m realli worry
cox i cant get through her....so i call jacob...to go cck together......
then i think then i call my sis to call her house...then she is at home ya....
so my mind is at ease...realli happi...but angry a little... make mi worry for nth... you mean alot to mi tat why..... i m so worry....
ya....
haha
when to cycling...rather fun... haha...but veri tired....haha.....
keefe like wan to die like tat.....
haha.....
so train a little.... yea... i wan to be more strong... haha....
now just reach home... yea yea.....haha... i almost get car bang.... haha....
cox i look back and the brake abit lousy....
haha...then i say to her.. haha... then i say if anything happen at most u find a better guy then mi lo.....
tat can take care of u....
then she dun wan....haha...realli happi tat she say tat....



ai yo....when u wan to hug mi....u should hug ma...i dun mind de...haha.....
hmmm.... tat habit is not a bad one... cox i m open to you...
i m not strong infront of u.....
i do cry infront of you......u wan mi to be strong infront of u med???
i dun mind you to be weak infront of mi cox i m to take care of you....
i need you too... if u noe mi well....
i m sorry if i make u cry :(
hmmm.... ya wat i say is truth lesser abit but will be more later...
hmmm... i found out tat you love mi even more than ever....
:) i love you deeply too...i dun wan to do the things u dun like :(
hmmm i realli worry abt you cause you are precious to mi :)
i nvr scold u la....
hmmm u say ding ding cute.... :( i jealous le la....
and who is ps!!!!
so jealous la


da zu zu love xiao zu zu :)

HAHA.... she brought the cake for mi.....veri touch....i miss her.... and thanku so much for making the effort...for mi..and listen to wat i wanted...i m bless to haf you as my galfriend...haha.... man we ate alot alot..... haha... i m so fulll and stuff.... is like i went to shit oso....then wan to eat somemore... but cannot le...haha....

the food is ok... haha..... still not veri nice cox not eat wit her... cox eat wit her is veri nice... cox got sweet sweet the feeling...

man super super full i and edwin like die le... but this is i tell him posed de :Xhaha...but realli fulll....

jacob wasted alot of money cox he dun realli eat raw stuff.... and eat stuff tat is veri healthy....lol.....i think out of 21 dollar he ate 10 dollar onli...so is a waste

arent we cute.... mi and jacob... haha.... i like his face...so like baby.......we nth to do so we posed......haha

hey my first friend...this is how we comunicate...lol!!!

haha....after tat and stuff.... we went to shop for bags....ya....haha....

and we watch movie...yea... is a not bad movie...

war..and stuff..... yea....

haha.......at the bag shop.....

when yong say his galfriend always pull his bag then spoil....so make mi think oso...ya lo....ok...oh wellllll!!!!!!!!!! i noe i love onli her...so

gd bye to the past :)

haha....went to hong kong cafe....

haha.. haf a drink and stuff.....so is ok...

haha

and i almost laugh to death...

is so funny and enjoyable day....

yea......

hmm
i m sorry tat if i haf hurt u in anyway....
i m sorry for not being sensitive wit my words...
ya.....thanks for forgiving mi....
i wan to tell u a deep feeling in my heart......













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forever...

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HMM... haha...realli happi today....in the morning called her.... then
after tat went to prepared.....and bath and stuff....haha....
went to causeway early in the morning....hee hee...
waited for her...wanted to give her a surprise....
haha....waited for 30 plus mins... but worth the wait...
when i saw her realli happi as 3 days nvr see her....
hmm but she dun look happi or anything at the first place...guess she is realli tired....haha... saw a sleepy face....so cute :)

pei her to school...and we tok so coldy... man so funny but cold....
haha....giggle all the way long....
then she reach school and stuff then i went home...
haha... cant sleep anymore... then i watch deathnote....
haha..so bored...then she msg mi then i came rushing to school... haha...
then she say must wait cox of the people there...haha...ok...is ok...i love u so waiting for u worth it... i m willing to wait for u the rest of my life :)
haha..when i saw her she is realli angry and stuff...hear her complain...and find tat she is even cute when she complain...haha.... oh gosh... i m so in love wit her....i made her smile in the end haha....
because i m cute too... haha :x
she came to my house and we spent time..... and i went to cut my hair...
ok not bad..better than my mum hair cut :x
so i look nicer now....
and bought everything i need for tml...
hmm i m a little worry abt the question i ask u...wat if ur mum dun let us together...so u ans to mi tat i need to study harder...so she let...
hmm ok...in my mind is wat if she dun realli accept so...we will nvr be together?
hmm nvm... maybe i m thinking to far... but i realli wan to last long and forever wit you....i nvr nvr nvr wan you to be hurt by anyone... i wan to protect you all the rest of my life... so i wan to be wit you...
hmm i wan to move on even further with you....
thank u for loving mi... so much... i love u deeply too :)
i m realli looking forward to this sat...


and i will always remember you when u return to taiwan....
i will think of u night and day....haha...so faster come back.. i will miss u alot....

HAHA

in the afternoon went to find potato....going to the bank and wan to buy stuff....haha... we went to look for his pants...tat he wanted....haha....
ok... not bad quite nice.....then went to the bank....
oh shit....my mum nvr gave mi the pin number....
cannot deposit money for her...rahhh...wasted trip....
went to eat yoshinoya....haha....quite nice....then ok... there is this gal....
ok...she keep looking at mi...ok...haha.... then she is like so shy....
then when i look at her...she is like smiling and turn away....
ok...
went to go shop for the thing i wan....
then after tat potato gan mei and her friend came....ok.....
went to brought the ticket...dead silence....haha....
i told potato tat... i die oso dun wan to sit wit one of them....
haha.... then i sit wit potato...haha...the show is great... i understand the whole thing....ok...is a little frightening.....and the ghost face is so ugly...
haha....
went home...and now felt a little warm.... i think i m going to fall ill... ok... because it rained just now... and i m drench....





hmmm.... i m sorry nvr tell u as i m afraid tat i disturb u ... so i wait for you to msg....hmm... dun worry... i m not even least interested in any of them.....
hmm..realli miss u...wan to hug you tightly.... hmm...
i wan to be ur sweetest bf... tat i will be more patience,loving,caring,sweet,thoughtful,kind for you :) i love u

BUY....

OK.....today is ok ok.....
went to buy present....hmmm....
ok.... to be truthful... is realli lonely.... so i dun realli enjoy the
whole thing....but... i m looking forward to the date wit her.......
brought my cloths....gonna dress realli nice for her....
so i just shop myself....so alone... but is ok....
after tat went to changi airport to eat with...andy,dor,rong, and guo wei...
haha..he is so cute.... i like to gay wit him...haha.....
he is realli cute...
hmmm
after tat went down to bugis again... to meet fang...she want to buy pants....haha... ok...then she went to the shop and ask for the largest size...then i say to her...hey must haf more confident la....
after brought the pants finish we.. went to rong house...haha...like his house real big...haha.... i say in my heart before wan to haf as big as his house wit my darling baby...wan to give her a happi and gd life...but first action la...words no use de... went to his room jus slack around....realli tired......and play psp.....haha...i wan to haf one... but i think if i haf onli use a while then throw it aside.....hmm...wanted alot of things.... but cant realli haf it...so oh well.....dun wanna care so much with tat...just
work hard now.... and give her and my child a good life....

so yea....today owl brought donuts...arhhhh!!!! ok realli grateful and happi to haf donuts to eat.....
thanks thanks.....so went to eat and stuff.....and fang poke my eyes.... arhhh!!!! i noe not purposely de.....
super pain..... one big one small sia....arhhh!!!!! i wan to cry le la
MY FACE.......
ok...went to eat nasi le mak...ok....the q is long... ok... is ok...the food...ok ok..... haha....ate...
and tok... and i and jacob start burping....
haha
so so fun....
and shooting ice and owl and fang.... cox they disturb us :x
haha... head home...slept during the trip...realli tired....
haha....on the bus sleep real long... and while heading home...met lao gao...then we sat down and tok and stuff...haha....is ok....




all the best for your exam...must realli jia you ok....i wan you to be the top...and i will jia you too... haha...
hmm althought i think of the past...but my heart is still wit you:( sorry...
i noe i should not be doing this....
wat i call her?? xxxx i dunno wat i say...realli...
if i haf say something tat realli not right.... i m really sorry...
hmmmm...ok...sorry for making you so unhappi today....
hmmm... i nvr msg u because i thought you haf no money... in the phone..and my hp the batt is dead...so i nvr reply...sorry tat i nvr charge enough....and nvr msg you...sorry to make u frustared...
hmmm... if u feel insecure... i m willing to be far away from gals....
because u matter the world to mi...
i love u wit all my heart,my body,my mind, and my soul....
i miss u

hmmm...went out today...was rather ok....
took neo print and stuff....haha....quite happi....but she cant spent
a long time wit mi....ok....so she went home early...
rather disappointed...because i wan to spent time wit her....
cant see her in another 3 days....
hmm.... baby is ok... i understand de....
i m mature :) haha......

ok....cg is ok... because my mind is flying away....
hmm....
wat realli go deep in my heart is tat...
GOD speaks to mi tat....
go the narrow way,lead a holy life, and a life for christ....
and i will PROSPER like nvr before....when HE mean prosper is realli prosper....i haf so much blessing.....and stuff.....
and my heart is cold towards HIM...but HE say I can give you back the vision and dream... and i will come back more on fire....and love HIM more.....and deep...
i can feel HIM so real!!! just beside mi....wooh...


and the word is putting GOD first and the centre of everything....
like centre of our finace and relationship ,studies,business and stuff ....when HE is in the centre the thing will prosper....
but if it is wit our own might...it will surely fail!!!
i realli wan our relationship to prosper....i noe how everything works.....
i realli love u deeply and wan us to last forever....