it been a hard christmas and stuff....
but i m happi oso.... tat she came to church wit mi....
hmmm took so much pic...
and quite happi... haha... GOD thank you for everything... and the love u gave to mi ....
GOD thank u for giving mi such a great and awesome galfriend that love mi so much
and a kor tat love mi so much....
ya....


baby a new year is coming and hope tat we will start a new year together...and
make our relationship much better....
baby i m urs always.... hor.....
be mine forever... muack.....
i wanna tell u tat. i haf love u alot more le...
baby thank u for loving mi so much too....



alll i wan for christmas is u!!!!
and i will change....
a new year a new change.....

movie...a&c
haha... is nice.. but is like wat the bird...watch alone...
and stuff....in the way cox jab and shan sit at the side... i sit at the other side...
>< i hate to be this kind of light...
lol....
ok... brought cake... haha... celebrate christmas wit her...
yea yea....
but today
kinda not in the gd mood....
slept veri little....and nvr eat at all cox like no appetite for the whole day....
hungry abit but ask jab.. he dun wan.. then nvr eat...
but now stilll dun haf appetite at all...

hmm... cant get to sleep...
cox think alot...
lalala.... listening to songs...view hui shan
blog.....
haha...veri happi for jab to haf a gal to love him so so much.....
jia you jab and shan.....last long... stay happi too....
hmm....
misses miss my heart.... tat longs to run for HIM....
dun care abt anything but all the way....
lalala.....
i wan go nuts... haha..... i just wan to be crazy once again.....
:)
dun like my life... no colour and spices to heat things up....so so bored....
lalalala........
must be happi :) dun so sad le.....
hahahahaha...... ok... i just so bored tat i just post stuff....
two at a day....
haha.....
i wan to play pool again more......
haha.........

behind this smile of mine....
lies deep sorrow.. tat no one can understand....
wat can i do other then being fake happi....

i love u so much tat i didnt say anything nor wan to argue wit you abt anything
although my mood is bloody horrible....
i cry the worst yesterday feeling tat my christmas is so wasted....
and no one understands mi....
u say tat your mood is not gd...but did i argue wit you....?
u say tat you are tired... did i say i wan to spend more time wit you....although i
m crazy from head to toe over u....tat i wan to spend time wit you....
but i just say tat ok...gd night i love u....
is alright....
u say tat u did not do anything wrong....
u say met him onli once...but total i count is thrice....
and i just ok... and smile.... and u say tat he like you and stuff....
and u say tat u feel u do nth wrong.... and u tell mi once sentence sorry he is my friend.....when i think back.... the friend tat like mi... u do not wan mi to meet them... i dun meet....
is like wat the fuck.... i just ok.... and stuff...
i did nt say anything just giving smile... and did nt wan to scold u or argue....
cox i treat you as my princess... and i reallli wan to treat you nicely even my mood is like...... wtf..... 'sorry he is my friend'
u noe tat i will not be tat happi and yet over and over again u meet him....
i just smile smile smile.... without saying anything... other than asking how is it?
is it gd?
i haf changed..... but i m nvr being appreciated.... time and time again....
i stay up late i wait for u... hoping i can tok to u.....
sometime i cannot cox at my kor house... spend time wit him... but most of the time... i can i stay at home... although i hate to stay at home....cox is boring....
and the moment u say you will stay at home... i just stay at home.....
suppose to play basketball...it is my favourite... but i waited for u.... but nvr u appear...i didnt complain.....
i nvr mind u going out wit him.... as long as u are safe... i m truely happi.....
in the end crying there alone.... dun realli plan to call anyone... cox i noe you will be unhappi if i do....so i nvr... u say tat u will not alone and stuff...at first is like woo.... u love mi alot.....
but when u did it i just ok nvm......u safe can le... u happi can le....
i noe i did do wrong things... but nvr... i will betray u....
i m so down....i dunno wat to do la.....
m i being too in love wit someone?
我知道我本来不配你。

hmmm.... i veri happi tat i tok wit her...
so long nvr tok to her....
when toking to her... i m like arhh... flying... haha....
i love my baby alot alot and alot :)

kinda hurt when i read someone blog.....
wanna cry but tears cant seem to flow out....
so pain so pain... each word goes deep into my heart....
the more i think abt it tears begin to flow....


maybe the love u haf for mi is not there anymore...
hmmm but i still wanna say i love u...

tat all... maybe if u think tat i not the right guy....
i will let you go.... if someone love u more than i do i will let you go...
and if u will be happier i will let you go...
i will force myself to let you go if u wan to leave
tat how much i love u....
maybe u think tat i dun understand you... and i m sorry...
if u think i dun...

haha...
ok been long time i haf update my blog
rahhhh
school is opening soon and is arhhh pls let mi haf a longer holiday
i dun feel i play enough...
hmm... been a rough time lately because is like
without her, my life is some sort of weird.....
and is rather dull... when i cant see her and smile and tok....
ok ... but is ok... recently spend my time wit my kor... do quite a sum of tings
hmmm... and ktv is the best although my voice is like rahhhhh!!!
and i learn how to play majong... haha...is kinda fun... ya
haha...
ok....

hmmm
we haf been together for 9 months le....
hmm although we cant spend 9 months together... but hope u are happi wit mi
baby i love u k?
i love u alot alot and alot....
haha.... muack.....



i think tat all ba

ok....
i dunno how to explain my feeling....
and i hate it alot.....
and veri sad.....

the attitude came back....
i nvr meant anything la.... i just wan to tok to u nicely although i m bloody irritated.... but yet say tat put mi in ur position...
huh? u ask the question first then i just ask back... tat all....
rahhhh!!!!
nvm....
although alone for awhile onli la....then my kor calll....
ok la... he comfort mi although he is angry wit mi .....
arh!!!! ><

hope u happi can le la....
haf fun today wit them.....
i nvr do anything la!!!!
nvm....

hmm....
ok.....
after the power house....
went to find kor.... cox he veri sad....
then i just went
to find him.... then we went to ktv
and sing.....
4 guys....
lol....
haha..... but super fun and stuff....
is like so so awesome.....

haha.......
ok...yesterday is so like wat.....
haha.... i whack a guy then i run....muahahaa.....
is like so exciting la.....
hit him in the head....




hmmm....
baby.....
say the truth u are still always in my heart....
i m missing you badly...
i need u alot ><
waiting for u....
dun think tat i dun love u anymore k?
i still deeply love u....

ok....
been a long time since i update...
cox i m so so lazy.....
haha......
ok.... went for chalet.....
ok.... is mel bd.... anyway hope u are happi.....
alan is like so cute la.... he is like so drunk.....
haha... then i took care of him.....
although i m abit blur...
ok... haha....
tat is onli the fun part...
and play basketballl!!!!
say the truth i m realli so happi when i play basket ball....
it been years tat i play basketball...
i play till veri sweaty....
is seriously fun.. i hope one day i can play wit you.....
but you dun like sports...haha.... oh welll.....


ok.....
three days of work...
first day i slack alot... haha... cox not much people....
haha.....
be truthful...elleen getting crazy over alot of man....gosh....
pls be focus... on jilson...hope u can be wit him.....
all the best....
second day work was alittle tired....
when to kor kor house....and tok and stuff....
my kor kor get donuts for mi...and q up.... touch!!!!
haha... donut is nice!!!!
yummy.....
haha.....
third day is like so so bored......
rahhhh.....a long time....and i work like abit crazy.....
tat all....
haha.....
hmmm....kinda miss you .... out of a sudden......
cannot feel u...is kinda different......
baby i love u and miss u......

baby.....
this is i draw for u de...
hmmm.... we are so far away apart together... but
our hearts is so close....
i dunno wat to do but at least i hope this
simple drawing will touch u....
i hope u will happi....
hmmm... baby trust mi
ok?
i oso trust u de....
i will be happi de... hope u are always happi....
muacks........ i love u so much....
baby i m always missing you.....
:(

i miss u ....faster come back so i can hug u....
i love u baby........

haha....woke upp early in the morning...dun realli wan to go school actually but
i wan go becasue she got go...ya.... becasue i cant see her for her month...
and i realli will miss her de....
so i will wan to go....
ok....met her...realli happi....
cox miss her so much....
hope she will feel the same for mi....
:)
hmm...then went there.... and went to vista to buy something to eat.....
then went school de table and ate at there.... then she tell mi
faster eat because of isabelle there le...
then i feel like... i nvr force u to eat faster before...and
u wan mi faster drink and eat....
lol...ok...nvm....hhaa....
and the lesson is kinda bored.....i realli wan to sleep zzzzzzzzzzzz.....
haha....


the lesson finish and was planning to
bring her go and eat.... and spend time wit her....
cox i oso dun wan her hungry....
hmmm.....
ok.... then she tell mi to buy for her....ok....
hmmm... i dun mind....and realli walk veri fast....i noe she tired...
so i buy for her....although i hate to be alone.....
but is ok :) i love u...so i willing to do anything...
then when reach there....realli so so dissapointed.... i pass her the food and told mi
bye bye..... then i like ok.... i dun realli wanna show out my feeling...i just act until
veri tired....i just dun wan to bother her much.....
so i just walk home alone... realli sad....
i realli wan to spend time wit u... cox i cannot see u for another month... so so pain...
my heart.... but oh well.... a smile can cover everything
:) no matter wat i realli love u and wanted to be who u wan mi to be... to be sweet bf

ok...today went to swimming wit kor kor...then go geyland and eat....
and is nice... haha.... then went to play pool...crap i lose so mani time...
onli won one time...haha...


haha...
hmmm... i think i will control my temper le.. ya lo...
hmmm... baby hope tat u account to mi more... cox wat you say
i realli hate it... when u say u forgot....
and i dun realli like him.....u say i swimming... then nvr tell... so if
u busy then i dun need to msg u wat i do and stuff....
ok nvm.....ba... i trust u but pls tell mi....
before i ask... i realli dun like....


baby realli wan us to realli last... so i kept the anger and controlll....
so we will not quarrel :(
hope u understand mi more :)
baby i will not be like last time tat get angry so easily....
i realli wan you to be happi always de.....

haha....
ok.... hmm woke up in the morning veri early.... but wanted to
wake up early and cook for her... but cannot wake up...
too early le...
sorry ok?
then i prepare, nvr eat cox i wan to eat wit her....
haha.... i miss her alot:)
then went to mrt and she is late... haha....
haha... cox because of her mother as usual...haha....
she is so pretty... so pretty....
haha...
so happi when i see her... i hug her... haha....
we went to somerset...haha......
first we went to take neo print.... seeh....my hair so so ugly :(
so i look so ugly la....
but she look so pretty... like a flower in a pool of shit...
my hair longer then will nicer....
:(
so faster grow....haha...i pray....
i wan to look nicer....so i will look like ur bf :)
haha.... then we go hk cafe...
then we ate and tok.... so i thought her hw to say grace... this is the best thing of the day... tat we do something spiritual....together... GOD is in the centre.....of our relationship....
and i realli happi....
then we actually wanted
to watch movie... but in the end.... nvr...so we played arcade... hmmm...
she dun realli like.... but we played together...haha... is her first i think... so realli happi.....
hope she is happi... ya lo... realli happi she played wit mi :) haha....
haha... we then still deciding to watch movie anot... in the end nvr haha....
then we went to city hall... go one place to sit and we tok....
haha.... we just chat and like so so in love...
so realli happi.....
and she slept at my lap cox she is realli tired...
ya lo....
haha... she is like a baby so cute.....
then we just like get to noe one another more....
:) realli happi...and we went to church... together...
the painting is great veri nice... veri gd... and i wan to be like peter so close by JESUS....
so i m realli blessed....
baby i wan tell u tat is ok... i noe the decision to become christian maybe is critical to u...
but is ok baby... i love u...
lets slowly :) ok.... baby i trust u? babytrust mi ok?
baby i will nvr cheat you de....
:) dun feel sad ok? although i m alittle but i noe.. slowly ba...cox i noe we will forever...
do u believe tat we will forever?
then after tat we went home.....
then we tok abt the saving thing.....
baby i wan to tell u tat.... i realli cherish our relationship....
so i realli wanna save alot of money... i wan to take care of u and i dun wan u to suffer....
ya lo....baby hope u love mi and let mi love u more ok?
haha..... i love u baby and i realli wan u to love mi hard hard hard and lots lots too hor :)
baby i realli will miss u de when u go taiwan.... baby i will be gd de..ok.?
u must be gd hor!!!dun do something will hurt mi!!!! i love u:)

haha....
today is realli a bad day for mi actually....
first...i stay at home two days and i m going nuts....
second... i call lots of people and all not free....
third... i make my hair and it just will not stand!!
fourth... is raining badly and is like wat the hell....
fifth.... i go out alone... and is horrible.....i hate to be alone....
...
but is ok... at the end my gal...care...and i m realli veri touch.....
although she is kinda busy.... i love her so much so i will not anyhow call gals to go out de :)
haha... thought will be alone... but in the end...i bump into mani friends... then
spend time lo.... haha.....
then just walk walk...
haha... then i wait for my gal...ya lo....
then she came....
i m so so happi :)
haha... i miss her alot....
ya lo.. then we spend time and stuff....
baby thank u for giving mi a chance... i will not ever ever smoke le.....
hope u trust in mi once again.... and care for mi like u do.... :)
thanks for loving mi so much.....



baby i wanna say i realli wan to cherish u le...i dun wan us to quarrel... anymore...
i wan u to be happi :)
I LOVE U!!!

baby... i veri jealousy cannot go shang hai wit you......
and u look so cute....i saw one of the photo tat zq posted
i love u

hmmm this two days realli been through hell...
both of us hurt one another deeply...
so is realli cannot be imagine....
quarrel over lots of things.. our belief...gals.... guys....
love... misses... thoughts....
and i realli break down terriblely.....
i feel like dying at tat time....
hmm baby....

we haf start all over again....
hope tat we will be happi every single day...
i will treasure u more and cherish u....cox i m afraid tat i lose u...
baby.... i nvr once treat you like a toy... pls trust mi :(
baby i love u... realli love u deep...
nth matters....
i hope u will not give up on mi ok?
baby i m veri happi tat u willing to give mi this chance...to start all over again.....
i love u so so much....





GOD i surrender this relationship into UR hands.....
i pray U blessed it in the name of JESUS.... let this relationship be blessed...
wit YOUR love.....let not sin come into this relationship.. let not jealousy, doubt,unforgivenss,unholiness,unrepentence, to come in....
but let peace,patients,love,joy, kindness,anoiting,and most importantly GOD in the centre of the relationship....

i dun wan i dun wan i dun wan i dun wan i dun wan i dun wan i dun wan

i dun wan i dun wan i dun wan i dun wan i dun wan i dun wan i dun wan

i dun wan u to leave mi ;(

A store that sells husbands has just opened where a woman may go to choose a husband from among many men…The store is composed of 6 floors, and the men increase in positive attributes as the shopper ascends the flights.There is, however, a catch. As you open the door to any floor you may choose a man from that floor, but if you go up a floor, you cannot go back down except to exit the building.So a woman goes to the shopping center to find a husband.On the first floor the sign on the door reads:Floor 1 - These men have jobs.The woman reads the sign and says to herself, "Well, that's better than my last boyfriend, but I wonder what's further up?"So up she goes.The second floor sign reads:Floor 2 - These men have jobs and love kids.The woman remarks to herself, "That's great, but I wonder what's further up?" And up she goes again.The third floor sign reads:Floor 3 - These men have jobs, love kids and are extremely good looking."Hmmm, better" she says. "But I wonder what's upstairs?"The fourth floor sign reads:Floor 4 - These men have jobs, love kids, are extremely good looking and help with the housework."Wow!" exclaims the woman, "very tempting. BUT, there must be more further up!" And again she heads up another flight.The fifth floor sign reads:Floor 5 - These men have jobs, love kids, are extremely good looking, help with the housework and have a strong romantic streak."Oh, mercy me! But just think… what must be awaiting me further on?" So up to the sixth floor she goes.The sixth floor sign reads:Floor 6 - You are visitor 3,456,789,012 to this floor.There are no men on this floor. This floor exists solely as proof that women are impossible to please.Thank you for shopping at The Husband Store and have a nice day.





lol...is a story i got from the web.....
lol...women are hard to please :x

hmm...today is kinda bored....
went out wit jab, penis and gene....
ok lol...
he wan to buy skinny
and 3 quarter pants....
then we buy and stuff....lol...
ok this is a bit disgusting....we saw 3 lady
and they are mens......
lol...eeeeeeeee......think they change sex....cox i and jab heard their voice...
eee....gross...
haha...head home...and ate kfc at admirlty...
haha...

now getting ready for the camp....
haha....put all the shirts into the bag...hmmm...
gonna haf fun....
i believe....
haha......off i go....
baby... i m still waiting for u....
miss u lots lots....
hope u dun cry le.....

haha...ok....woke up in the morning....ok..la...not seh already....get back
to normal...haha....lol....
then crap....i run here and there...no one help mi la....
but is ok...
i willing to do my father"S business....
haha...
although go here and there to pass consent form...lol...
haha... then went to find ying jie...supposely jab going wit mmi.... then lol....
he say he cannot...
guo wei oso...go out wit uncle...so ya...sian...
so went then go find mar.. and jo is there and her husband..and wei fang is there oso...
haha.. but i tok to ying jie more...haha.....
then went to buy things for the camp....zzzzzzzzzzz
tiring sia...lol....
haha...doing father"S business..it been awhile tat i haf gone a extra miles for HIM...
hmm felt realli gd cox i noe HE is smiling at mi :)
haha....she called mi....i m happi
haha....
i miss her!!!
haha....then she cry...oh no.....
sorry i cant hug u in my arms...
hmmm do not be afraid i and GOD will always be there for u :)

haha...
ok....

WOKE up early in the morning....msg kor...

and quarrrel! lol.....crap..... haha....met gan jie in the morning wit other... guy...

chat awhle lor...so long nvr see her liao...lol....

the guy tat is 21 is like not 21 la... lol

like veri young....lol....they tok...then tok abt gang thing wa lao ei...i listen hor....

the guy is like at jurong quite big like tat....lol....

haha....my gan jie oso...i think.... at cck....

crap.... i listen...haha ok la.... i not lousy oso hor!!!

haha... secret!!!

haha...went to somerset then met him....

then he did not tok much...cox i think he is angry wit mi....

haha....

nvm...ba...then we walk walk and take the things he wanted...

then went window shopping....to look at perfumes...

then psp...

then we went to watch movie...

the game plan....

haha...tat veri nice show....

hmmm... is abt fathers...

and ya.. when i watch the show...i felt realli sad ba...

cox i dun haf a father tat loves mi alot....

so ya......but is ok....i got her....is enough...nth else matters....

then after tat go bar to drink... haha.... first time drank martell...

haha....i m not drunk la....

lol...but abit seh and high haha....

then i tell my kor tat i miss her alot....

cox other than her...i dun realli haf closer the friend ba...haf is haf abit but

not realli spend alot of time lo...

then my kor kor console mi...he oso suddenly veri sad...

then i pei him....wa...

realli seh sia then oso sing...haha...haf a great time actually....

haha...then cab home....

haix.... i realli miss u...come back quickly....

crap....
my sister wake mi up again...
lol....cannot sleep well again....she wake mi up
becasue i my maid cooking finsh...lol...
ok...haf lunch tat is gd...haha...
japanese dishes....
cool...
ahha....then
i prepare and style my hair...
then went out....
then 4 person say not nice...
jab , my two sis and my maid...
crap...lol....not nice med...is nice wat!!!

lol...then went to church...haha....then
mag and jess praise mi....arh!!!
so happi la....haha......
yea..... love to be praise....
thanks to you two...
then we praise GOD and jump together....woohhoooo coool...
brother together....

haha...service is great....
after service is crap....went going home...
i got scolded for like nth....wat i do!!!
lol....i onli nvr smile...then say my face black black....
wat you wan mi to do....
wear a fake smile...!!!
i m neutral...and is the same no diff??
crap....
if not happi and not sad oso must smile?
huh? wat is this...
ok at cg is my fault....
i just wan attention!!! cox i m alone in the way!!!
crap....if u wan u stay or u can leave....
wat the ****
cg people oso dun like....tat i m in the mist of them....
so i m like in the pain of the ass.....i might as well dun come la.....
nvm man....wat chel say is true...when they need you...they will call u..espcially on
friday and sat onli man...
crap la....
so i m not realli important in the way to them la...
if u wan u stay if u wanna leave u can!
even my outside the kor care for mi more....
so i can go the outside world where there are more care....

haha...
ok...in the morning i m awake by the music that my maid played...
and the msgs...crap...headach man....i wan to sleep!! but cant already...
then i went to use com....
and bath and stuff...and gouwei wan to meet earlier than ok....
then went to jab house first...
HAHA...
and jab dad tok to mi....he is cool....he noe the word....and a gd example tooo...
GOD is GOD of impossible.... I M POSSIBLE....tat wat it means...
character. hurts.relationship.foundation.word.

yea...
haha.. went to tamp and play arcade...wooo...
haha...
and walk around.. tat crappy gouwei...same as ever...but funny and i like him...
then wa...saw alot of ice cream.....especially the vanila one....so nice la.....
tamp got alot of ice cream....lol...no like woodlands...lol.....
haha...lol...
then the pervert gouwei wan to take vidieo of a gal that is veri pretty..
lol...young small pervert...
haha...anyway haf a fun time....
then i bought something real interesting...
haha.... i nvr buy before....this is the first time...ever...cool....haha....
and went to void deck and ..... cox gou wei just wanna smoke...
ya lo...
haha....
then crap he ask mi join other gang....lol....
zzzzzzzzz
lazy to do this kind of thing...
lol....
then went to eat and stuff....haha...
then pass jess present haaha....
then went to cg....haix...realli veri tired...
and tired of everything man....
just wanna rest...




hmmm....i will not find any replacement.....
hmm..ya...cox i noe if i do i will hurt u...
and i dun wanna hurt myself... is stupid...and pain :x
andi dun wanna starve myself cox i cant take it...
but i did do something tat can relax...i will not wan to tell u when u are in shang hai...when
u come back then i tell u ba....
i hope u wil not be angry wit mi or upset wit mi....
cox i m already veri hurt and pain when i cant see u...really miss u lots.....
i hope u come back soon...miss u...

HMMM....
in the morning went and ate wit my mum.....
and went to bugis to buy cloths...
and i bought two shirt
yea....
haha....
then i went home....and use com....then
jacob call mi then... i go down of my house...
and go and sell ice cream...
haha...i hate selling ice cream but i earn alot.... :)
haha....at least got money...
haha.....
and noe some friends....
lol....
haha.. they are friendly....
ya....
cool....
then went home after tat
and potato came my house....
then we use com....suddenly she send mi a msg....then wa.....
realli happi....then i call her....i realli miss her like siao....i like in the way finding any replacement....
say the truth i m realli lonely and do not like to be lonely...
and we chat awhile then like veri lonely and when i say i gonna do certain stuff...she became quiet...
and not realli happi...
so we tok abt it...hmmm i not meeting anyone le....
hmmm...i will see wat to do....when i m alone i will normally do something stupid....
sorry tat i do not understand you enough and always make u cry and do the things u hate....
dun cry le ok?
i dun like la!!!
i will bear wit it de! ok .....?
i will not do anything you dun like....





and i went to log into ur friendster...and
i read her msg...so i just feel kinde sad....because you nvr tell mi anything abt your msg....
so is nvm....i dun wanna quarrel over this small things...just felt unhappi alittle tat u nvr tell mi anything....
nvm....
being a happi go lucky person is better....

OK.....
spend time together......
haix....why leave mi :(
veri happy at first then at the end veri sad....
haix.....

faster come back to mi hor.....
i realli miss you and will be lonely de.....
i need you alot de....
u cannot be replace by anyone....
i will wait for u.... de....

and i will not do anything tat will hurt you...
and i hope u will not!!!
love u lots.....
watever i promised i will do it de...

haha...
ok this holiday i wan to pray like nvr before...
fast like nvr before....
do HIS work like nvr before...
i haf my vision and my dreams....
i wan to do wat i realli wan in life...
i do not wan to fall anymore...
i m realli sick and tired...
of falling to much...
in sins and darkness....
i wan to get a new life....wit GOD
HOLY SPIRIT HELP MI!!!
give mi back my dreams and vision... let mi see
and i will get it...nth is impossible...
i will no longer get tired in doing gd....

when i walk alone in the darkness no longer i will fear....because HE is wit mi...
although i cant see it now and i cant feel anything...
but GOD i will follow u blindly through the veri breath....
i m missing U badly like how i long for U....
GOD i wan to give U my life once again....





GOD is always faithful when we are not faithful...when we dun trust in HIM anymore...
HE is always waiting for us...HE will give u dreams, HE will give u an hope...
when times the devil crush ur dreams into pieces...GOD is always repairing everything tat is broken....
HE love us no matter wat.......

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hmmm
ok i type veri long...
haha....
yea....520 of i loveu....
hmm baby....sometime is like this typing this is veri tired....
sometime...
when we get together veri long and we feel tired at times but we wan to continue.
cox we always love one another deeply....
and we wan to finish everything together...
we will be together forever...
sorry for this few days...
tat i get realli crazy at times...
maybe i need you even more at times....
so i get a little too crazy...
so forgive mi but i hope tat u will understand mi more...
i will be nice to u de...
i will take care of u ok?
hhmmm
i hope u will listen to mi more...
ya...
tat all i wan...
sometimes i m realli mad because u dun listen to mi...

xh and yl 4ever...
the promises made.....nvr be broken....

i wan tell u something i love u even more le....
more than last time alot alot....
hope u will be touch and happi to hear this....

haix haix...
ai yo...
really hate it....
really !!!
so u dun do tat anymore.. if u ever do it again....
i realli will not care for u le...
i will give my care to other....and dun argue back!!!
makes mi ever mad....so realli veri angry...

and u say u hug a guy in ur dream ><
wat you do in dream show ur true personality led...
is true de....
ur dream show ur true self...
><"
u dun do it in reality then gd le...or else the guy will die...




ok....
so went to wait for mar...
so kinda lonely....
so actually i hate being alone...
oh wellls
so i hope u will msg mi.....but nvm....
i noe u busy....
and suddenly i saw hf...
ok....
she going to visit someone...wit her friend...but she took a little time to tok to mi...
so a little blessed....
and then she went off...
ok...mar say abt 15 mins but i waited for 30 mins....
so i was realli pissed....
and just say i wanna rest so went home...
anyway she visiting her grandma..so nvm ba....
i think i meeting jab later...
brothers....will be there....
haha...
ok.....



ok...
reALLI upset

haha...realli happi can spend time wit baby....
although haf a tiring day toking....
crap......
haha....but anyway is my 3 years de friend so is ok....
hmmm.....eat the humble pie and you will not regret de....
i promise u:)
haha....



i decided to treat my gal better i dun wan to lose her and regret but i wan to cherish her.....
i love u baby....
i wan to be better than him....
be more patience, loving,tok to you nicely,no shout at you,and dun angry easily than him:)
i will try on the angry part....
haha...
i found a way veri gd to control :)
haha....
i promise tat i will not leave u...
hope u too!!!
hmm must take care of mi and listen to mi hor!!!
haha....



hmmm today abit upset when u say we do not match!!
ya lo....
then realli haix...i will change de...
i try my best le....
u noe!!!
i do my best le...just wanting us to be the best....



hmmm
before u go taiwan
we do something special together ok
?
haha...
love u alot alot....
want us to be forever.....

ok....
woke up in the morning....
haha...wear couple tee...
so so happi...
because is our 7 months.....
haha...
get out of the house and met her...
we went to pasir ris...
to meet...and we sat at bench
and ate the sushi she bought for mi... :)
realli happi...haha....we just ate and spend time...
then after tat went to rent bicyle...
haha...
so so happi man...first time ride the bicyle tat haf two person...
and wit her somemore...so my first give it to her :x
haha....
then we ride around pasir ris...so is veri cool....
haha....
i do pattern then almost fall....off lol....haha......
we jus cycle and tok to one another....
and suddenly rain so we took shelter...
then we tok abt the past and compare....
haha.... i felt i did more than him...and she love mi more i think :)
haha....


then i have some desire and wants...
i dun wan to tell her cox i noe she will buy...
tat why i dun wan...cox is ex....
but she say she gonna buy for mi...
unhappi cox i dun like she sacrifice too much...
but touch at the same time tat she haf love mi so much....
hmm
i willing to do anything for u cox i love u more tat i love myself....
i love u darling...


and we went to church and worship GOD together..i held her hand and i feel like standing infront of
GOD together...
i long for tat....
ya.... i abit unhappi because my things wit GOD....ya....
and hope u will but will not pressure u cox i love u...
ya lor...

and ate together...and stufff...
haha...thanks for the presents:)
i love it...
i love u too...

we are deeper and deeper and loving each other more than ever....
i love u onli baby...hope u too will love mi alot...and madly....
i will not let you be alone...nor let mi be alone
muack....

ok...
today took back most of my paper...
HAHA....
the onli miracle is chinese and a maths....
awesome i pass....
haha...
the other few i pass but is not my ideal results....
haha..but anw i wan to thank GOD and is all HIS grace and mercy upon mi....
haha...
thanks JESUS...

ok....
my e maths is horrible...
i nvr get a...
realli upset wit it.....CANNOT MAKE IT MAN..
hmmm..although her english fail...but her other subjects did realli well...
i noe she will be promote de...remember i got pray for u hor...
give thanks to GOD ok....so i noe she did not did well in english...so i went over to her first...i just wan to be by her side even i m feeling lousy...
...because i promise to by her side...



in the moring realli upset because she dun realli wans to tok to mi...
so nvm...
cox i noe i need to be strong and independent...i cannot depend on people....
nvm....
is ok i just wan to be happi....
yesterday after letting out my heart...just breaking down i feel better....
is a bit bitter and sour...



i and my friend is ok....
hope tat this friendship will be forever...
i and brother...
arhhh
happi go lucky...
i and my gal....
hmm....
nth ba....




gave her chocolate just wan to reward her after exam...
and another box for her family...
i realli wan acceptance from her parents...
ok...anyway i will be strong

ok....
marking day....so happi can go out and haf fun...
haha....
and went to sentosa.....
and was fun...and i send her to school....
ya happi to see her...then we went to sentosa...and play and tanning too... haha...
i m so so red....
then after tat i saw isabelle and her gang....haha....
lol...
they come sentosa then sit there onli afew go play water than come sentosa for wat...
go under block play la...
lol....
haha....
then today yong teach how to front flip and i m the onli one success....haha....
so delighted... and play and tan....
then i suddenly sit at one side and think something...and felt unhappi...
so i decided...i lie on the float....and sun tan...
and i feeling ok ok....
then suddenly someone flip over...then i scold *&^*($
then i walk away....
super piss...
and yong tok to mi....
he tok to mi...then i listen...
and to mi he is like a big brother....
veri gd ok....
then i apologize to mar....
i will change and control....and respect my leader....
then we went to vivo....and just slack and eat....
haha...just lie down and tok.... and stuff and walk walk brought stuff...
haha....
ok....
then went home....
so is a fun day......





yesterday was realli upset...because i keep toking to this gal....
and she like treat mi transparent in the way..... so realli upset...thought tat we are best friend but now not even a friend....and i m like an idiot caring?
but she treat mi as if i do not exist....
and i realli hate and angry....
i really hate her.... when she do this to mi....
did u respect mi as a normal friend....no!!!!
and today i treat her as if tat she does not exist....
and i am upset too..


is ok cox i haf her....
and i chat wit her....
and tok and tok then tok abt the guy...
tat say wan to take care of you...
of course i m pissed!! althought u say dun wan...i m happi .... but when u say is like friend onli la....
is like bell....
wat the &^*$ ....
i tell her to.....
and she is my friend....
and if is a guy and my friend so is ok...
and i say wat if a gal take care of mi...surely u dun like it....
then u say i m pushing my anger towards you....
fine....and i m thinking tat why should i care so much...
when u dun like.....
haf you went to my friendster...
and keep looking at my comment whether gals go flirt wit mi...
basically no....
and i always go to urs and check...
becasue i dun wan anyone to flirt wit you....
coz you are mine...
i m always anxious abt you....
and i m realli upset...
i noe to u i m a unreasonable and angry bf....
i m thinking why should i be so anixious.... i think i should just let it
be....



and ok!!! i think...nvr mind no friend and her.... to be there for mi...
i think brother will be enough!!
and yet when on the way home....
i was toking and jab and keefe ps mi....
wt...
ok lor...
nvm then i say why nvr call mi...then kvii say i thought you toking...
then cannt inform la...
i m like idiot go and find you all..then u all ps mi...


ok...on the bus i felt realli sad and unhappi...
on the way home....on the bus my tears keep flowing and is veri warm tears tat is filled saddness and hatered.....
and thinking there is no one to lie on to....
and all the way like tat...and when she msg mi...i was happi alittle but when i replied.... there is no reply back....
so nvm....
and i walk home alone....
cox just wan to relax a little....



so today happiness ccannot be compared to the saddness...
oh nvm....i will be strong....

HMMM.....
YESTERDAY I suddenly mood swing....
like suddenly siao......and ya sorry my darling suddenly like this...
then went to watch show and then tok on the phone wit jab...
then sleep
...


take exam today....and is then last paper....
haha....
so so happi man....
haha...
in the end i wait for potato alone...
man....
i hate being alone!!!
i wan to msg other people to keep mi accopany....but i think dun wan cox i onli wan her....i miss her...alot...


then went home and look at her friendster...
then wtf....
the guy say poor thing...
if he mean tat being wit mi poor thing i will kill the guy....
then after tat
msg her and she say tat is she sick tat why....he say tat....
so ok i nvm then she say tat he say i take care of u.....
then wth....
i will kill him if i see him....

ok i m a sensitive guy..... but if u dun like then i will surely give u freedom.... but i will haf mine too...sorry....


ok....
went out to play bb..... haha... it was a little fun...
ahaha....
but veri hot and i m melting...
lol...
then went to playground and tok and stuff then suddenly wan to spa...THEN potato and jab fight
hah... jab fight like hiong abit onli...
then
potato like wan to die....
lol....so funny....
then i tell them
4 on 1 then all runnn
lolll
so funny
then in the end i catch them and beat u....
lol....then in the end my leg injure
lol....

OK....HAHA...
tat time went to CHANGI airport to eat...
and on our way home...
got one lady tat is a black....
and ok....she is veri big size.....
man...she took almost all of my space
THEN I WAN TO FALL....
LOL....ok...then i like wt>< she stink man....
then i ask jacob can change place... and stuff. then he dun wan :(
SO SAD
i like dying lol...
then i was saying tat her leg was huge!!!
then i told keefe then he say wat bacon...
then the lady suddenly say thank you veri much.....
i like oh shit...
then i just act like nth happen and act sleeping...
then she stare at keefe....ok...
then is like so funny la... then i msg jacob then he laugh out loud and i was laughing quietly....so bad la...
then keefe like veri du lan... then when got off the bus keefe... scold her...shout use ur infarate la....
lol.....




haha... exam is gonna end tml...and i m super happi
wan to celebrate and go crazy...haha... i think i done fairly welll...
but need to see result...
haha...but i believe i will do welll cox i study my best and GOD do the rest....
haha...and after exam need to play piano....and get stronger and fitter...

haha.....
hmm...
sometime maybe i hurt her badly...but i make her veri happi...
sorry for the hurts tat i haf hurt you...
but for human instinct they normally forgot abt the good thing tat
people had done for them....
they rather remember the hurts than happiness....
and ya she felt my love for her is lesser but didnt decrease and increase more and more...
sorry if u dun feel it...i will change more too...
i wan tell u tat i love you and i will take care of u the rest of my life...
thanks for loving mi too....

haha...it been a long long time......
that i haf blog...
haha...recently exam started and
i felt realli exhausted.... man... so tired... la....
i hope it willl end soon....
haha...last two paper...and i gonna fly....
haha....
chem and dnt but dnt i willl not study...
and chemmm!!! ahhhh!!!
so much to revise....


baby jia you...dun give up.... i will be there for u when u need mi...hope tat i haf been ur encourager and hope u are happi and wan to keep on going....


ha..... actually got alot of things to let out for the past few days.... but
i lazy to write blog....
so i forgotten! haha.....
anyway i am a happy boy... because i haf a wonderful galfriend tat take care of mi... and love mi.....
u are a good galfriend ok....u treat mi realli well and i veri happi :)



ya...
haha.... yea....
i having victory...bit by bit....
each day i m stronger and stronger...
realli happi...but sometimes... is veri hard....
GOD i love u......
haha,......


haha... i feel tat i and a friend became further and further apart....
i thought tat although we go our ways, we will be best friends? and share our problems?
ok... ya... now we are like hi bye friendS? but anyway i haf my own life...
so i m happi.... so is ok..... but
i wish tat if there is anything you can tell mi... i can listen....

continue

hmmm...
her parents found out and stuff...
and i was worry... but i say to myself and her tat no matter wat happen... i will be wit her.... even the mean to wait...
baby i will wait....
i love u deeply.....
dun worry k? nothing can seperate us.....
all i wan is u to be happi :)
lets work hard together....
and acheive good result.....
i m urs and you are mine......

baby i wan to tell u one thing....
this is the ring i wan to wear forever....

haha....yester day went out wit auntie alice...ate alot....

and is nice food...haha...

realli realli blessed by
GOD and her... haha.... haf a great time..... and went i grow up i wan to be like her.....

so so greatt....

haha...ok...woke up in the morning...still tired.. haha

then penis called...to buy present... haha..

ok...

then i went...and i bought present too... haha.... is not bad....

then went to cwp...haha... bought cars....haha... and motorcycle... ahahah...but in super mini version haha....

then.... i went to the park alone... haha....

just wan peace and joy...haha...so went there...

actually wanted to study first before praying....but cant....haha....
and there is alot of people...so GOD cant realli appear in the sense...
but can feel HIM.... so so peace....haha...then i explore the place.....haha...is veri cool...i climb here and there.....haha...but i got scratch by something while i was climbing over....ar....
haha... haf great views...and my heart pump quick as i was climbing as is is realli high....haha....
and i almost fall afew times....
haha... saw alot of couple...hhaa...
and tat time i miss her alot alot...wan her to be wit mi.....
haha...but anyway is wit GOD... so is great oso...quite fill.....
haha...quite hot and stuff so went back home...on the way home... man wind blow and one leaf come towards mi and i got scare over it >< haha... scary cat man.....
so went home...haha..... happiiii....
oso...





hmmm i still love u de same....
i prefer my gal to be crazy over mi tat all...
but nvm... is ok....
i miss u badly

I WAN TO BE HAPPI WIT YOU... IT DOES NO MATTER ABT THE PAST .....



I WAN TO LIVE IN THE WORLD OF MUSIC AND DANCING AWAY THE SADDNEESS....



I WAN TO BE HIGH....

I DUN WAN TO BE ALWAYS SAD...



I WILL LEARN THE PIANO...

I WILL PLAY FOR U.... I WAN TO GIVE WAT YOU WAN
YA LO...
HMM I WAN TO BE WIT YOU FOREVER...I REALLI WAN WAN!!!
i **** u onli...

haha

hmm... this morning veri tired....
haha...so sleepy...she tok abt last time of something...then i like ><>< reALLII alone....
dun like but nvm.. anyway i resting so is ok..... i and understanding that u need to be wit your friend oso... so is ok....
haha... then ss test lol.....
i nvr study but sbq not need study haha...
but noe how to do...
haha... but abit bad mood because alone... and tired.... and i tok to her... then she cut in >< arhhhh... wat she wan... i tok oso cannot i dun tok oso cannot i think i go back indian and flip roti prata....
ok... after boring lesson then went home wit her.... haha...
then we tok... then i say can we start again and forget abt the hurts for the past few days...
hmmm ya... i reall love u de......
haha... happi can spend time wit her... and she enjoy it too... and shy... :x so cute dde lor......

lifeless

hmmm.... ok... in the morning... i clip up my hair... haha... alot of people say tat i cut hair... haha.. i dun wan to be caught or else must cut hair...haha.. i thought i will not be caught... but still get caught because of the side and back...
then i >< ' not happi la... hha...then hear mr justin to tok and tok.. haha... his stage..... the potato go rtp because of attitude.. ai yo.. must be smart... learn how to react ma....
ai yo....haha... went back to class... haha... saw her sit alot...then i sit beside her... then teacher tell mi to sit at my place.... rahhh i say " teacher u jealous ar?" haha...
went for pe... haha.... so so fun... played hokey.... haha... run here and there... veri fun.... haha... but she stand there like a rock... haha... but nvm....not as sporty... haha...but nvm... different people.... i cant expect her to be sporty...
hmmm... ya.... everyone haf gd each and his or her gd point....... but nvm... for her i will change... i will play the piano...one day... for her... because she wan....
i will step into her life... :) but sometime no one step into my life :( but haha.... she step alot... i m happi to a certain extend.... haha....
ok... realli wet... because sweat alot...
haha....
went for recess... and ate... then jab told mi tat the shop the food haf worm >< wat!!!! next time i not going to eat there anymore.....
haha...went back class... wanting to change... then i saw msg... then i rush down..cox i thought she alone... chey... wit zq...hmmm but veri happi becasue she care... she thought i m alone.... haha..... recess ended... spa... veri tired...
so i work wit aqidah... save time and strength....haha....
so second recess i fall asleep then she wake mi up...then she tell mi to sit wit her... then i tell her to sit wit mi then she give mi the :( face...then i walk behind reluntanly...then she walk to sit my place there...man... so so so complicated gal.... nvm......
hmmm... so i tok to her... but she ignore mi....then i like wat the....... u told mi tat i tok tooo little.... then u feel i love u lesser... then i tok now...then u ignore mi....wattttt
nvm.... then do group work... once again... i tok to her...and she ignore mi... then i like rahhhhhh!!! ok.... maybe she nvr hear.... so i nvr say anything... then i was thinking i alwasy listen to u...attentively....but sometime i tok. u listen but your mind is always away at other thinngs....sometime i m hurt by your action... but i just nvm.... is ok.....
went home... and slept and bath then went out... my ez card is spoil... so i went to amk to do.... ok...haha...find her oso... and listen to her....haha....
ok.....so we tok...she tok abt how unhappi she is...ok...she is a great great gal.....
haha....hmm... actually today not realli happi abt how she react when i tok...but nvm... so abit unhappi ba.... but glad to see her happi......
haha.. she is cute...her action so so cute....
went home after tat...to be truthful i m not happi when i say i love u and u are normal.... maybe i m too sensitive.... so went home.. waited her... she nvr msg mi... is onli went i use my sis phone... then she msg...
nvm....
so today is like unhappi plus haix.....
oh well.....is ok.....





prayer :
i pray for my mum to haf gd health as she is not feeling well lately....
she is one of my closest.... because she is my mother...
i pray tat UR blessing will be pour over her....

wat is love?

ok.... i been lazy to update blog....
haha....but sometime i dun realli wan to share my thoughts wit
not realli close people.... ya lo....but anyway....
the day before cg....
hmmm i love u so i will not want to do the thing tat u dun like....
and after tat i remember the thing then i told her...hmm.. ya is my fault and i dun wan to give any excuss....
hmmm.... u feel tat being slap in the face even you dunno... hmmm... i didnt do tat thing when i m wit you ? is before....
but.... nvm...
i feel tat i m a jerk... not an ideal bf....
now my thinking is tat i need to be more "perfect" so tat i will not dissapoint u.. in the way....
sorry tat i m not transparent. sorry tat i m not mr perfect. sorry tat i make u cry so much. sorry for being forgetful.sorry tat i keep thinking of the past,but now i m not trying to think anything,i dun wan to spoil our relationship. sorry for bringing so much hurt into your life. sorry tat i bring you tears. i nvr wanted you to be sad.... but this is due to my bads points and my wishs will nvr come through... tat i always wish u will be happi every single day...
as i begin to walk alone to the place.. i m thinking why is it like this...
why because of one wrong thing human do the gd mermories disappear...
and maybe i not gd enough to make u happi....
as i begin to go the cg place...hmmm.. i put a smile... but the smile didnt last veri long.... during worship.... i break down... i ask for forgivness.....
wat GOD says is i will be like peter and not as weak as samuel.....
i understand wat HE says....ok... is good... i m a little better...hmmm... i noe at tat time she is realli upset.... but yet she still ask keefe to tell mi to take care.... at tat time... i m happi as she do care....
ok.... but i told her tat i m not the guy u think i m....

for today.... her first msg to mi
DARRION.... ........ ...
and ok... realli stranger.. and dissappointed... walking in the rain... while on my way home....and went home... and her... nick is " i belong to myself" actually she write " i belong to him" last time....
and is like ok...... i realli arhhhhhh!!!
and it hurtS!!! due to my mistake her love is so much lesser....
ok... nvm... is human reaction... so...
nvm... but when she hurt mi...i always noe i love her even more...because my tears are more than ever....hmmm... after tat she say she forgive mi... hmm.. i m like ok ok.... because my mindset is change.... in my mind is to be mr perfect and cant afford to make any mistake.....
in the future..... during msg... felt weird...like nth to say.... i dun wish to say anything wrong... 'ok ' alot.... welll both is like injured puppy...dun even wish anyone to touch... or will be afraid if anyone come near....
after tat went to service....hmmm... during service is great i noe i m so fill with love.. i feel much much better.....
haha... i will learn to DO A ACT OF RANDOM KINDNESS A DAY... haha...
hmmm...after tat went to eat...haha... i m starving badly....
hmm... after tat i saw her.... felt weird...then i tell her tat i need her... then say until i wan to remember like tat... i say i just feel weird... and just wan love secure and comfort....
hmm... tat all ba....i onli noe tat i still **** u

DEEP LOVE

HAHA... realli happi...yesterday....
haha... i still remember the feeling....the sweet sweet feeling tat you gave....the security... tat when i tell u to hug mi....
hmm... i m a person long for security.....
ttat i will be protected by someone....i may seem strong but i m not the person u think i m.....
realli so happi....
hmmm i dun like the thing you tok abt... u noe the la....
veriiiiii J******

hmm....actually if second recess u nvr pei mi is ok:) i understand de...haha....u oso must tc of babies :) jkjkjkjkjk
haha...i m a understanding person:)
of course i remember i promise de... i dun wan to break promise anymore..at tat time maybe will break wit you if she hold longer....
ya lo...but now no matter wat happen nth will break us apart :)
ok... u must be realli hurt at tat time... hmm i hate him tat he hurt you so so much..... :(
actually u are veri veri strong gal :)
hmm...i m urs now and forever urs....
surely love before... hmm u waited for him so long of course becox u love him la... then for fun med...haha
hmm sorry tat i keep toking abt the past...hmmm... help mi ok? to forget every single things in the past.... YA!!!i dun care abt your past :)
i just wan you and you to be happi now :)
haha... u must run more la...then u are more healthy and sexy :p haha....
hmmm i just wan to pei you...i dun mind being a little tired... but as long i can see u,i veri happi le....hmmm... onli found the key chains... but the rest cannot find... :(
ya tat time so warm feeling when u kiss mi...so so happi....
sorry i will take the first step more often ok ?
ok.... gd night to my darling gal and xiao dar :)
sorry tat i make u sad at times :(
i promise i will treat u better de.........i will treat you better de :(






TODAY
hmm.... ok nth realli much happen....
just one thing happen...after school man...
hungry....hungry...then wan to go recess... then no one pei mi...
hmmm.. i dun like to be ALONE...... but nvm....happi tat at least eugene suddenly go wit mi...haha... although weird..but at least got someone....not so lonely....
haha....nvm... is ok.... i will be strong....
hmm... i just wan to be wit you...
我爱你

letters

haha....in the morning veri tired :( i realli need more sleep....
super tired....haha.. then i veri happi cox she gave mi letters..haha...
realli sweeter and sweeter each day...haha...
ya u nvr gave mi letter before!!!!letters will make mi remember of the things we do before....ya... the letter veri cute...i will keep them welll and safe...hmmm... i nvr say i a little happi is a bit sad la.....hmmm ya i m jealous.... and becox u and him haf a lot of thing u all do together...like lots of mail..and stuff... u are great gal!!!!! i m just afraid tat i m not good enough or nvr treat you good enough....
she is good...but u treat mi better :)
i m realli happi tat u nvr think of him.....cox u haf mi in ur heart...
hmmm... i believe one day my heart will be crazy for u tat i will not think abt in the past le....so u must do ur best :) i will do my best to make u happi everyday...
hmm i feel u realli become realli mature in our relationship...and u realli care for mi :) i realli happi....i oso dun wan the past to be between us :) i love u...hmmm
forgiving realli will take away the burden... haha... ya... u haf love him before de... ya lo....hmmm... ya...hmm ur family realli neglected ur feeling..... and u may feel love in a wrong way.... but... i will give u the love u need.... i will take care of u...and i will not hurt you...cox i love u....hmmm tat time i remember i wan to break tat time then she dun wan...but in the end she let go...but i feel if she hold longer... i will continue wit her...ya lo...so i dun wan you to let mi go too....
hmmm i will not let you go tooo......i will not wan to hurt you...i love you too.....i wan to be wit you forever... tooooooo!!!
i trust yo tat you give mi all your heart :)
i love u i love u i love u i loveu i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i loveu i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i loveu i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i loveu i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i love u i loveu i loveu i loveu i loveu
and i miss u too... realli touch tat you write the letter...

haha i m a naught boy...haha... actually i realli wan to read... so i cant wait ma....haha....hmmm realli not happi cox u like leave mi alone....tat i told u tat if i let you go home alone then u surely not happi the right... ya lo... nvm :)
hmm when we one year i will put de :) i love you.....


haha...went to fetch her... wah... realli veri tired...cannot make it... i wan to die liao....
but i love her...haha... so is ok :)
now wan to study le....byes :)

...

yea yea....
hmmm... today nth much... realli tired...wanna sleep...
and waNNA rest...felt realli tired... :( but oh nvm.... gonna carry a big wide smile.... haha....and she make mi angry because she didnt notice tat she did something wrong...and time and time i keep repeating the same old time.....
but in the end still slept during geo lesson...man...so so boring....
haha... after tat went home....haha...
this is a special feeling...haha... when i kiss her... oh my gosh... i felt a warm warm feeling...reallli so so happi.......
haha.... i m in love....
haha... after tat went to bugis together... haha.. she need to do her stuff there... and i bought her the bag she wanted.....
haha... hope u will be happi... ok? happi 6 months... i love u baby....

baby feel my heart with your love... and strive to win my whole heart..
i wan u to haf my whole heart.....i wan to think of onli u...i onli love u...baby....
give mi ur whole heart let mi fill it wit love.....
thanks for being so understanding when i tok abt the past...u didnt lose ur top... but instead you love mi... realli happi....
haha...but i still jealos of him!!! haha... c0ox i love u alot.................

HAHA...NICE

HAHA....stay at home in the morning....

haha...and she ask mi this question...should i let you go?

in my mind is hell no!!!!!

i nvr wan u to let mi go....

hmmm...i realli love u and wan to be wit you....

sorry if i haf hurt u and make u feel bad abt yourself....

i love and need you too...nvr will i leave u.....

hmm... afternoon jab and penis came my house....

haha... we played... man i got scatch...painfull... that penis....rahhhh....

haha... went to bukit gobak... haha.... realli fun... we took lots of pic..... and shout... man... there is echoes... realli awesome... haha....

went to cwp and bought food and watch bruce almighty....

haha... it is great....

GOD haf alot of works to do...and HE do the best for us....

we always pray for the things we do not realli wanted...and is not the best for us....

we should be the miracle maker....we haf to do wat we realli can....

so i wan to tell xh....tat i love u and i love u and i love u....

nvr will i wan to regret for not loving you enough.....

I LOVE U.....

6 month....

haha.....

spent our 6 month....hahahahahahahah....realli happi... as

this is important to mi......

haha...yesterday she is going through a time of discouragement...

so haha... i went to cwp early to buy sweets...hope

it will brighten up her....

haha...happi to see her...

went to take bus and it is a veri fast journey....

yea... but giddy cox didnt rest....haha....i haf bus sick easily... haha.....

her mum is realli too over to control wat she realli wan.... but i will do my best and go to the same school wit you :) if i can...haha... realli wanna be wit you....we went to buy the ticket.... haha... watch evan almighty... is

a great great great show...man.....

i m like so wan to see GOD myself......

i wan to be like HIM...haha......i will waiting for that veri day to come.....

learn quite alot of things actually....

haha...... and after movie... haha... we went to jacks place.....

haha... as this is our 6 month so wanted a little special on that day....

haha... we order..and ate....haha... almost everything i eat...cox she haf a little stomach...haha.... realli enjoy the food and time wit her....

realli happi.....

haha...but she eat until she like wan to die...haha...

i think i noe you better than ever le..noe wat you dun like to eat... haha

happi?

afterr tat went to take neo print...haha..the machine is like a little weird....

oh well..... my eye realli getting big... so nice...wahaha.... becox by HIS glory.i m made beautiful.....

haha... she is also veri beautiful.....haha.. iloveubaby...

went to service...haha it is a realli great service.....

during worship i tear.... and i haf a vision abt GOD goodness in my life....

HE is nvr tired of mi... always interested in my life....which no one can nvr understand... HE make mi so important...

i wan to stay where YOU are....my love haf grow deeper for U my LORD...... U are my everything... when U are here wit mi...nothing else matter.....

the guy realli hiong... becox of GOD he is strong....

GOD will use our weakness as HIS strength....

ur life is not in the hands of ur parents....

it is in ur own hands....

by the way you are veri important to mi...

i m sorry if i in anyway pressurize you....

i will not leave you... i promise to take care of you the rest of your life...

and i will love you.... and i love you deeply....

GOD grant the desires of my heart....

for my desires is UR desires... surely U willl grant it to mi

i will be an encourager

haha....ok... today went to do something wit her... we went to orchard
and take the passport thing....yea.... haha... wake up quite early...
quite tired too....
yea yea... but veri happi tat i can be wit her....
haha... so it worth it...
so we went to eat...veri hungry... oh man...
she ate fast food for few days...haha...
realli will become xiao zu....
haha....
i m sorry that i speak of her.... but ok....
went home and she slept at my chest at the mrt...
haha... she slept so soundly....realli sweet...
guess she is realli tired.....
haha.... went home... and ok hmmm realli miss her.....
went home... i m so so tired... went to take a shower and fall asleep....
at my bed....haha....
went to cg and it is great... haha...
i will be an encourager to my friends best friend my family and my darling....
haha... is realli great and GOD speaks to mi...
HE show mi a vision of two
clay.... and one clay is soak in water and put on the table...
and the other one is dry....and HE want to mould the wet clay... it is easy to make up a beautiful one and when HE wanted to mould the dry one... it breaks....
HE say to mi tat the wet one is soak in the spirit...praying everyday and getting strong wit the word... and the dry one is living in a normal life...without caring so much....
HE say I cant give you the things I wan you to do for mi as it will break mi as i m not strong...but if i m willing and soak in the spirit.....
and getting strong...when the time comes HE will use mi like nvr before.....i will prosper.. i will be use in great way.....
eyes haf not seen... ears haf not hear....open them...
HE prepare things for those who love HIM....realli touch....
HE give mi another chance in life.....
i will not waste anymore time... i will take this chance....
i love the blesser more than the blessing......


(there is a place in YOUR heart
i am longing to find
wont YOU show me
there is a place i know
i can run to and hide
wont YOU show me
show me
show me
show me YOUR heart
show me
show me
show me YOUR heart)
this is a song tat indicate to YOU my GOD...
i wan to see YOUR heart and know wat are YOU thinking.....
i love YOU... i adore YOU....




realli haf a great time.... realli blessed....so bless so bless....
it is all in the spiritual realm.... i m blessed.....
i m bless...


ok...waited for her msg for the whole day.....
but she nvr send mi a msg... then i m thinking...hmm i m sure she is waiting for mine too....
then ok ....in the end i msg her...haha....ok...then she like not realli happi....then i dunno wat happen so did not ask further..
after i read her blog then i found out tat she is not realli happi... ok......






hmm.....maybe the time you are going through are veri irritating for you....
and u feel guilty of using ur parent money and not doing anything for them.....i noe in their heart is wan you to do well....in life.....
just do ur best and study....and i will be just beside you :)
when time u are feeling veri lousy.... i will be ur sunshine....
when time u are going through bad time... i will be holding your hand tight and go through it wit you.....
when time you are tired.... i will be there to carry you...
when u are discourage... i will be ur cheer leader.. jumping up and down cheering for u.....
maybe you wan to go the way you wanted but it does not go ur way... and ur destiny is in the hand of your parents..and wanted their way.....
and u feel utterly lost...and do not noe wat your future ahead....
but fear not fear not..... is gonna be alright :) it is gonna be alright.....
u can do it :) u surely can.....
i trust you.....do ur best for eoy......
no matter wat happen i will go through it wit you....
pardon mi for being so passive... and not taking the first step....letting you go through all this alone.....

haha

haha....met her in the morning...
haha... veri happy....
miss u alot too.....so long nvr see u....
i feel...although yesterday saw u... but not enough....
so went home.... realli realli tired...
so so tired... went home to sleep again... haha.... and we tok too....
haha.... then after tat went to bank to deposit money... at last...
haha.... after a few weeks at last deposit money.....
so went home again.... slept for 4 hours again... realli tired...
oh gosh....
haha......u are the onli one in my mind...
i will onli love u... need you.... and i m urs... and no one else....
i will not do anything tat you dun like...
went to use com and study jus alittle...
oh my gosh....so so long i jus study a littlee...... man .... GOD i haf the wisdom in mi.....so i will not worry abt tml....regretting abt yesterday....i will be concern abt today.....i will do my best....haha....waited for her...so long....
rahhh... i m super worry.... cox my estimated time is veri accurate de....
ya....then i msg her....
call her....at tat time i m realli worry
cox i cant get through her....so i call jacob...to go cck together......
then i think then i call my sis to call her house...then she is at home ya....
so my mind is at ease...realli happi...but angry a little... make mi worry for nth... you mean alot to mi tat why..... i m so worry....
ya....
haha
when to cycling...rather fun... haha...but veri tired....haha.....
keefe like wan to die like tat.....
haha.....
so train a little.... yea... i wan to be more strong... haha....
now just reach home... yea yea.....haha... i almost get car bang.... haha....
cox i look back and the brake abit lousy....
haha...then i say to her.. haha... then i say if anything happen at most u find a better guy then mi lo.....
tat can take care of u....
then she dun wan....haha...realli happi tat she say tat....



ai yo....when u wan to hug mi....u should hug ma...i dun mind de...haha.....
hmmm.... tat habit is not a bad one... cox i m open to you...
i m not strong infront of u.....
i do cry infront of you......u wan mi to be strong infront of u med???
i dun mind you to be weak infront of mi cox i m to take care of you....
i need you too... if u noe mi well....
i m sorry if i make u cry :(
hmmm.... ya wat i say is truth lesser abit but will be more later...
hmmm... i found out tat you love mi even more than ever....
:) i love you deeply too...i dun wan to do the things u dun like :(
hmmm i realli worry abt you cause you are precious to mi :)
i nvr scold u la....
hmmm u say ding ding cute.... :( i jealous le la....
and who is ps!!!!
so jealous la


da zu zu love xiao zu zu :)

HAHA.... she brought the cake for mi.....veri touch....i miss her.... and thanku so much for making the effort...for mi..and listen to wat i wanted...i m bless to haf you as my galfriend...haha.... man we ate alot alot..... haha... i m so fulll and stuff.... is like i went to shit oso....then wan to eat somemore... but cannot le...haha....

the food is ok... haha..... still not veri nice cox not eat wit her... cox eat wit her is veri nice... cox got sweet sweet the feeling...

man super super full i and edwin like die le... but this is i tell him posed de :Xhaha...but realli fulll....

jacob wasted alot of money cox he dun realli eat raw stuff.... and eat stuff tat is veri healthy....lol.....i think out of 21 dollar he ate 10 dollar onli...so is a waste

arent we cute.... mi and jacob... haha.... i like his face...so like baby.......we nth to do so we posed......haha

hey my first friend...this is how we comunicate...lol!!!

haha....after tat and stuff.... we went to shop for bags....ya....haha....

and we watch movie...yea... is a not bad movie...

war..and stuff..... yea....

haha.......at the bag shop.....

when yong say his galfriend always pull his bag then spoil....so make mi think oso...ya lo....ok...oh wellllll!!!!!!!!!! i noe i love onli her...so

gd bye to the past :)

haha....went to hong kong cafe....

haha.. haf a drink and stuff.....so is ok...

haha

and i almost laugh to death...

is so funny and enjoyable day....

yea......