hmm... ok... alot of things happen
yup...
firstly... i m realli frustrated abt my product....
it broke twice...
and is like@!$@#$%^R*^&
ok... i think nvm... ya... then i help someone do...
then the worse thing is i get scolded...rather then being thank...
and given attitude...
then is like
rahhh....
ok.. if u say u can do urself... then i m like....
i dun wan you being
hurt and tired...
then....i m like doing my best...
ok....
i think this i will let go ba....
and the other...is the words is really hurting........
some times when u are angry u realli speak words can hurt mi...
i feel horrible...
kinda discourage but no matter wat... i believe.... i will do my best....
and obtain a result tat is good..



ok... i hope no matter wat.... seriously stand by my side....
supporting mi....
will u be my supporter or the one stand wit others tat discourage mi?
but i seem stronger... because i believe i can do it...


ya...this actions are hurting...




and today.... why lied....
hai....
i just haf some terrible thoughts in my mind...kinda
sad?
ya.... but i can tell u one thing.... i seriously forget her number....
i dun even noe....


hmmm nvm... nvr the less....
hope things go well...



hmmm....
maybe i feel we haf driven apart....
?
love each other lesser...?
will it be the case?
i still love u....
deeply...
but i dunno how you feel towards mi...




hmmm... wat i say today is...
i love u so much...
wanna be wit u the rest of my life...
and haf a family wit u....
loving each other till old age....
ya...



i love u
i will be there to support u...

ok....
firstly....
i got a cross keychain... seriously... veri touch because is from
sweetheart....like... she made effort for mi...

how sweet can she be...
:) i love her...
haha...
and
a ear ring.. she made for mi...
i wonder... she love mi more or do something wrong
aing..... ahaha...
thanks sweetie....



hmmm... went out wit friends... then sparing...


oh my gosh... keefe.. can fight... haaha... i think is because he dun like being look down at...
fierce.. sia... lol... kick bird bird so many time...

my almost get kick... but i m fast enough to dodge...
haha....
lol... my leg veri slow... but hand can make it... wahhaa....



nvr ton... ya.....
hmm.. my mummy oso veri sweet...
she call mi... and she noe my key i nvr bring them... so call mi.. so sweet of her right...
haha.. best mum.....



made baked... rice... oh my gosh is so nice can... hope sweetheart like it.....
:) my genius method.......
haha....
so happi... can cook wit her...

haha...
today was talking wit.. her...


the requirement to marry her...
a condo
a sportcar
-.-

wa how stress can i be....
maybe ya..... is ok....
i must work hard then....
haha... her expectation
-.-
so GOD help mi ar...
haha....


gals... are like cat?
cat are realistic... when they got something better... their heart will change course...
haha....
so my cat.... can say
ok ba....
still must work hard...

hmm...today... kinda get bastard...
by the same bloody fellow
jab _/_

i wanna so kill u.. _/_


amen.... must relax



hmm sweet heart u are veri cute ok
haha

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1.Who are you chatting with now?jane ho... beenting sister...lol


2.What do you want the most now?:i wan... to be a genius so i no need to study..and play everyday

3.What will you be doing at 6pm?send my sweetheart home.. most of the time

4.Do you hate your friends sometimes?:of course i hate them... sometime they are jerks... aing

5.When do you wish to die?after i marry been ting... haf kids... do great and awesome things completing everything in my life... abt 100 plus... lol

6.Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?:yup if i haf the honour....

7.What impossible things you would wish to do?: to be by GOD side now?


8.What are your greatest phobia?:unable to protect the people around mi...

9.Have you broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?:nope other then my mum... but fake one... lol....

10.What if your crush asked you out?:hee hee if i m single.. i will go out... but i will be like so shy....

11.When was the last time you fell in love?: today ? and still falling in love wit my sweetie

12.What feeling do you hate the most?: helpless...

13.Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?:i do if they do cherish mi...

14.What are you looking forward to in the coming weeks?:super brain... aing... hmm.. study.. hard...

15.Who do you hope to be always there for you?:miss ho

16.List words that describe you?:friendly... talkative..

17. would u cry alot? ya.. if i m hurt by the one i love most...

18. When do you plan to settle down? : by 25?
haha... by then she is 26 :X

19.who are you eyeing on now :married women.... aing.... miss ho

20.kw. iz. bt. mar.kat.jos.jia le.bread

today is boring... actually is going for swimming wit sweetheart...but her mother.. say going out...
ya...so cannot... hai...
sweetheart is ok....i understand ya..:)

haha... today woke up super late... lol....
haha... ate around 6 plus... lol... veri tired and boreed today... haha.

there is once a boy and his father... they stay together... they onli haf one another.
they haf a veri strong relationship wit one another....
his son is a fan of football... and he wanted to play football so much....
tat he practice and join a team...at his school...at primary school...
he is a veri small size guy....compare to the other boys... at the team... half of their size....
so everytime there is a match.... the team played... but this boy nvr plays at all... not even a single match...
but everytime... his father will be there...cheering for him....
jumping for him....
shouting my son u can do it....
every match....
the father is always there to support even his son is not playing...


as time goes by... the son haf grown up and haf enter secondary school...
his dad still say i believe in my son... u can do it.. i trust in ur abilities....
the son gave a smile...
and the son tried to enter the school football team...
he is veri hardworking and run as fast as he could... jumping as high as he could....
he is still half the size of the other boys....
but the coach saw him pitiful as he tried so hard for the election... he
let him be in the team....
the boy nvr miss training at all..
he tried veri hard.....
doing and putting his veri best in the training...
but he nvr plays in any match....
one week before the final match...for
championship....
his father dies... and the boy ask the coach can i miss this training i wanna be at my father
funeral...
the coach say... is alright my son u can go.... and take a break....
he ran.....



at the match....it is the first half...of the game...
the team is losing badly... and is behind 10 points...
the coach is kinda stress , do not noe wat to do...
and suddenly the boy appear.....in the team...shirt...
he came and ran towards the coach and beg the coach... let mi play this game pls.... just let mi play...
the coach is thinking how can i do this... i cannot send the weakest player... we are already losing...
but the boy was veri persistent and the coach gave in....
the boy.... ran in... he throw the ball wit style and power....
he intercepts many balls.... he bang... dodge....and score....
and is the last thirty second... nobody can believe tat it is same points...
the boy is performing veri amazing...he had nvr play but he did so well....

the boy intercept again...
he ran towards the line... block and score...

there is a great roar....
and the team carried him and toss him...
is the best match ever in secondary...
it ended and back at the locker room...
the coach when there and found tat the boy is sitting at one corner....
the coach went over and say...wat got into u... u are awesome....
the boy turn over wit lots of tears...in his eyes...
the coach ask wat happen...
the boy say.... my dad had die ...and my dad is actually blind.....
from the start....
the boy say...as he die he go to heaven...he is able to see mi play
and i haf show him how a real player.... haf played :)










when i hear this story...
my heart hurts...
badly...
because from the start i nvr had a caring father... a man tat will stand by my side..
supporting mi ....
protect mi....
in fact is the other way round...
my mum is the one tat take care of mi...
i may not haf a dad...
but.... no matter wat GOD is my dad.... i noe tat HE is supporting mi.... cheering for mi....
HE will lift mi up when i m falling....
tat why i will treasure GOD...cox i nvr haf this protection... but HE gave mi.....
i may feel veri terrible....
tat alot of my friends....
haf their dad..... but no matter wat... GOD lift mi higher....
keefe run home... today wanting to celebrate his dad birthday...
sometime...i think if i can be like this is good...
but is alright....
just some thoughts of mine...
i wan to share wit sweetheart... but she sleep le -.-////
oh wellelelele....
ok....

i wish
my DADDY GOD
to be happi and haf more sheeps :)
i love u. i love u. i love u...
i realli cannot imagine life without U?
without U... i will still be like last time... no sense of security....
thank U...for blessing mi...



happi FATHER DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the sweetest FATHER

to sweetheart:)
happi 1 year and 3 month!!
hmm... seriously
we have been through thick and thin....
and we haf habits that we totally hate about one another...
but we haf change just to suit one another....
we haf done and change for one another so much...tat is so different from the first time wit met...
haha... when first met you... you are a stubborn gal... u are veri are...
but now.... u begin more loving and caring for mi...
putting your pride away just for mi...u are becoming a more adorable and lovely gal to mi....
haha.. i haf bad points oso:)
veri flirt... i admit ok...
but change le... because i now haf a another person to live for....
we change for one another... love each other more....
sweetheart....i cannot imagine if i haf nvr met you...
u make my life wonderful... and i can depend on.....
i LOVEＵ
muack muack




haha... now at ws house.....
training is kinda fun ba.....
ya.....




hmmm thursday went out wit her and mummy and sisters... all gals can haha...
hmm i think is the first time... i look for something for her... and wit her so patient and:)
haha... ok just tat the pink one -.-
abit -0-
hmmm i noe when saw something we realli like we will not care so much about how people feel...
hmm... dear.. no matter wat i love u:)
haha... hope u like the japanese food alright :)
haha... veri happi u like....
sometimes the way i see dear smile... just make mi so happi too...



i haf a bad dream :(
dear remember the promise hoｒ:)

praise the LORD in good time or in bad times...
just praise HIM....
everything gonna be alright for mi...


smile and dun talk so much o,0
best way....


some feeling are to be kept....
some thoughts are to be kept...

i haf read this sentence which says "love is to keep quiet when the person do something wrong"
maybe it dont applied to mi but....
i dunno wat to do le... when i saw the reaction....when i say wat i realli feel....
ok... when see her cried my heart realli melts...
but i dunno wat to do...
keeping the hurts to myself is it better.?


hmm....
sometime i m just simply confused....
we promised each other to be transparent to one another...
but seems tat the promise is fading away....

maybe just realli flooding my mind wit thoughts...
maybe sometime letting go is better... then finding the matter and settle it... straight in the face....

ok....
camping was fun....
but seriously is tiring...
ya....
haven sleep well....
hmm....
to be truthful... i m experincing GOD once again.... haven HIS grace upon mi...
it is fabulaous!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the feeling is veri great....
hmm.... maybe silence is not tat bad after all...
just realli pray after tat..... i feel better... when GOD just comfort mi... when i dun realli think much.... but realli just feel the presence......
GOD will nvr fail mi but man always does.....

sowing into the right ground and prosper like nvr before....
guide mi for the rest of my days... protect mi from harms....
heal mi when i m heartbroken......
rise mi up when my hopes are down.....



mood kinda bad and sour....
is alright.....GOD is wit mi forever and ever...

hmm... spent time wit sweetheart....
watch kung fu panda... haha...
is veri cute....
ya... dear dear see le.. veri happi...
i oso veri happi...
ya...
then we just see down and talk....
haha.... sometime... we tend to quarrel over alot of small matter...
haha...
but now... relationship is better le...
ya... i noe tat
our relationship is becoming better....
ya....
haha....
i think i must save money....
ya:)

ok... at night went to kw house to ton...
lol....
is like not bad... and we noe some dirty secret.... haha......



later going to fetch her... then i think tat
at night the camp will be fun i think....
haha....
i will not any how de... ya...so reassure ok:)
love u so much....

hmm... our brother haf different kind of bonds and thinking...
ya...
hope tat
it will work well...
ws and hl....
they two quarrel abt game.. lol....
game is evil....
haha...

and to keefe be happi hor
haha

ok.... so bloody angry....
stupid gal.. so petty...
fuck off away from mi la... if cannot take it...


ok... i noe i m wrong but...
is like even i m in wrong... telling mi to apologize... is abit over ba....
and infront of alot of people can....
need to understand guys ego !!!!!!!!
i think nvm la.... i think u are oso in between veri wei na... but
like.... rahhh... i dunno wat to say... i think next wit your friends i just shut up better....
u may say is my fault... totally agree it...
but telling mi off infront of people.... just for a _(#*@*
hurt alot actually....
so main point(wit gals. guys shut up)




bitch_/_ (refer to someone petty)

ok....
hmmm...
had a quality time wit her...
and then talk...
then she say tat "guy should do this"
lol..ok...then i say typical gal...
then she say...is u spoil mi de....
last time she not like this...
haha...ok...
maybe love her too much le...


i wan to do my dnt
stuff...
i wan it perfect and flawless.... but sure not perfect...lol...
hope i do my best GOD do the rest....

andy share a word wit mi...
abt a sherperd.. and sheep...
ok.... i understand and is kinda good.. ya....

hmm....
ok...recently....
i think i haf make alot of mistake...
then cause lots of unhappiness to her...

i wan to apologize first....
sorry maybe i tie u down?
too much...
i dunno wat to do to be a good bf...

ok...
i still cause insecurity...
to you...
hmmmm.... i will do my best to give u sercurity...
i m sorry to give u this kind of feeling...


hmm... went to nich house to ton... lol... i still the same fall asleep at the sofa...
while watching tv....
is the same as last time... watch tv till fall asleep...
at sofa.... and the first one.....
same as last time...
nvr get a chance to sleep at his bed... not fair can...
lol.... i keep eating at his house... i going to be fat...
haha
....
ok... went to swim oso...is kinda fun... ya....
hmmm... when i reach someone party... first thing is eat....lol...
i like eat and eat....
ok....
play game.... y8 lol....
hmmm... i make dear angry again
D;


ok...heard wen shen say tat
the earth.... is dying...

ok... i got alot of things i wan to do and i dun wan to lose it...
i felt the burden stronger than ever...
but i dun wan to stand around doing nothing... i wan to be like last time
strong.... i wan to haf a faith like a child...