why people will hurt someone so dear to them?
a question being asked by a friend
because of self center of the human being.
this question i have contemplated before
like why do i hurt her even when i love her.
got my answer at last
exams coming and i am so gonna be -.-
go darrion
you can do it !!!!!!!!!!
yes i can !
haha
encouraging myself because i do not have someone very dear dear encouraging me
lets run the race! do not give up~
Thursday, 30 July 2009
Sunday, 26 July 2009
Friday, 24 July 2009
it been years since i blog uh...
i saw a old lady sleeping on the street :( i wish i were to be richer.
i think i will do something for her when i see her.IF i can talk to her.
when i turn 18 i will get a motor bike and have the license of course! haha then i can beat the traffic.
and jab want it too of course.
2 more project and 3 more exams
and i am done with this sem!
i saw a old lady sleeping on the street :( i wish i were to be richer.
i think i will do something for her when i see her.IF i can talk to her.
when i turn 18 i will get a motor bike and have the license of course! haha then i can beat the traffic.
and jab want it too of course.
2 more project and 3 more exams
and i am done with this sem!
Monday, 20 July 2009
Monday, 13 July 2009
i guess you may read this..
well after reading your blog.
i believe is better this way.
If you will not cry for me anymore,
do not know me as a friend or treating me like a stranger.
well
i believe i am not a ideal boyfriend for you nor love you like how you like it to be.
so i believe is alright although is painful.
sorry that i am not a good bf or friend.
i do understand my character not that perfect right :)
now it really open my eyes how cruel can it be after a relationship can be broken off.
well sometime my friends around me tell me to put it down but i would not want to because i am still so deeply in love with you .
now maybe all i can think of is you having a great and awesome boyfriend that will treat you really well and not hurt you like i do, demanding as me. i begin to see myself being dirty in the heart. Because of my behavior towards you it shows a lot of things of myself .
thank you for everything.
and sorry for the hurts i cause in your life..
i am not such a nice person after all.
i know this relationship can never be mend no matter how hard i try. i just cannot change anything nor is within my control.
well after reading your blog.
i believe is better this way.
If you will not cry for me anymore,
do not know me as a friend or treating me like a stranger.
well
i believe i am not a ideal boyfriend for you nor love you like how you like it to be.
so i believe is alright although is painful.
sorry that i am not a good bf or friend.
i do understand my character not that perfect right :)
now it really open my eyes how cruel can it be after a relationship can be broken off.
well sometime my friends around me tell me to put it down but i would not want to because i am still so deeply in love with you .
now maybe all i can think of is you having a great and awesome boyfriend that will treat you really well and not hurt you like i do, demanding as me. i begin to see myself being dirty in the heart. Because of my behavior towards you it shows a lot of things of myself .
thank you for everything.
and sorry for the hurts i cause in your life..
i am not such a nice person after all.
i know this relationship can never be mend no matter how hard i try. i just cannot change anything nor is within my control.
Tuesday, 7 July 2009
a allegory is being made wonderfully by the creator.
one day a man have everything in his life. He have the riches of the land. He lead a nation!
He is a apostle of GOD.He is a bachelor . Many women long to have him as a husband.
A line of women will always be in front hearing him preach about the word of GOD.
The ladies is in awe of his charisma.
He one day wait on GOD and GOD spoke to him about his future spouse.
He is totally shock.He cannot believe the news.
GOD say" her name is Goomo a high class prostitute at street 51 "
mark says "is impossible, how can that be?'
his worker told mark it cannot be GOD that spoke that? it must be the devil!
many people around him criticize about that word.
GOD say to mark "it is true, goomo is for you'
mark cannot comprehend what GOD is saying
GOD said ' I want to create a love story that is going to impact the history'
mark went to street 51. He asked around where is goomo. The prostitutes told him ' is going to be expensive and hardly can get to see her " mark say " is alright i just want to know where will she be"
they told him that goomo stay in that mansion over there.
mark went over and he paced himself slower as his heart beat against his chest.
He reach the doorstep of the mansion "the playboy mansion"
he paused to take a deep breath and knock against the door of the mansion.
The door slide open and there was goomo. She was gorgeous with the long silky blond hair and with the beautifully curve shaped body . Her sexy voice spoke ' i know you, you are the pastor of the nation,is on the house tonight. you can enjoy me for free.'
mark startle and say ' no thanks but could we have a date?'
goomo was astonish and agreed due to his purity.
mark abased his head and went off quietly. when the door is shut. He jumped with joy feeling a joyous feeling.
mark and goomo have their first date and goomo was feeling a love feeling she never felt before and was curious about mark. on their first date they never held hand, mark was shy.
as the dates pass by mark fall on his knee to propose to her wanting to take her hand for marriage.
the workers under him critisize him saying that the people disagreed with what you are doing pastor. mark refuse to listen and say she is my only love and i love her.Many worker walk out of mark life and during the marriage very little turn up for the wedding.
mark and goomo were intimate and they loved each other deeply.
as years went by there are three children in the family.
goomo begin to act weird in the marriage
and
one day
mark recieve a note saying "dear mark, i want to thank you for your love for this period of time and i am happy to be with you .
but i have to leave as i cant be with you anymore and
i want to tell you a secret i have been keeping from you
the three children are not yours and they are from different father.
i am sorry to cause so much misery.
mark begin to bend down and tears flow like a stream of river.
the kids ran to mark.shouting daddy
daddy
mark turn his way unable to face the kids for a moment as there are no blood and tie
but he turned and hug the kids saying i will be here for you kids , no one can take you away from me , no one!
a few days later
a worker recieve a news
and pass it to mark.
the news is about goomo.
the worker ' pastor ,goomo is facing judgement of GOD , she have HIV and now she is going to be sold by the auction sales.
mark was in a rush to gather all his cash and placed it into his cargo and went to the place.
The auctioneer have brought out goomo. goomo 's face is bruised and she look like bones and stick. The auctioneer have strip her naked and people laughed at her. She look down on the floor and she was afraid. the auctioneer placed a bid of 100 pieces of silver.
but no one wanted
the auctioneer shout come
just name your price
no one wanted
the auctioneer lower it to 50
no one wanted
and the auctioneer was so tense where he is willing to seel at 10 pieces of silver.
someone shouted
offering 1000 pieces of silver. everyone turned and startle by the price.
It was the panting mark grasping for breath.
he ran towards goomo and he strip off his clothes and put it on goomo and holding her assuring her saying ' lets go home '
this is a picture of Jesus and us.. where we (goomo )where we sin and betraying GOD.
GOD still love us, not despise us where others (worker)despise.
the a devil (auctioneer)where he try to humilate us and selling our life off.
and Jesus died at the price(high price) to redeem us.
For my story
i lived in a broken family and it was never perfect for me.
i have never experince what is a real fatherly love before i came to know GOD.HE is my first love, my FATHER that always love me even though i am rebellious at times.
GOD filled my life, He never fail to strengthen me when i am weak. some love may look eternal but is not.sometime I am being abandon by friends(mere friends) and the one i loved and devoted my life the most.i was so broken when i am being abandon once again but it doesnt matter.because in life humans are never perfect . MAR says believe in people and trust in people.
there are people i want to thank!
bryan, dennis, mar, van.they stick with me when i am down!
there are some also !
especially bryan -.- become so crazy with him -.-
recently my mum and i have a tense conversation.
comparing me, and i teared because so many thought just came upon me. like she have a partner that cared for her. and i am alone now! but ya i am not alone :) HE love me more than anything .
projects!!!! -.-
could you even think for a moment?
you made the statement that you are lost but i am free ?
i am stating that i want you to be happy to let you go and that what you wanted.
and now you say
come on.. i am the one who gave you the authority to make the decision. i never make the decision of breaking up! if at that moment of time you have the decision and you made that you wanted to leave me and great you put every mistake on me. did you ever think for a moment, when i begged for you to come back and you rejected :)crying for you to come back.
i lost you . yes! i lost your heart !
think for a moment! i know i am incompatible to you! i am not that intelligent, handsome, romantic, rich! but at least i devote my life to you ?
you told me you will leave and you left. leaving me in a bad state where i am picking up the pieces! you just say love is tiring.
thank you :) i wore you out. so sorry .
one day a man have everything in his life. He have the riches of the land. He lead a nation!
He is a apostle of GOD.He is a bachelor . Many women long to have him as a husband.
A line of women will always be in front hearing him preach about the word of GOD.
The ladies is in awe of his charisma.
He one day wait on GOD and GOD spoke to him about his future spouse.
He is totally shock.He cannot believe the news.
GOD say" her name is Goomo a high class prostitute at street 51 "
mark says "is impossible, how can that be?'
his worker told mark it cannot be GOD that spoke that? it must be the devil!
many people around him criticize about that word.
GOD say to mark "it is true, goomo is for you'
mark cannot comprehend what GOD is saying
GOD said ' I want to create a love story that is going to impact the history'
mark went to street 51. He asked around where is goomo. The prostitutes told him ' is going to be expensive and hardly can get to see her " mark say " is alright i just want to know where will she be"
they told him that goomo stay in that mansion over there.
mark went over and he paced himself slower as his heart beat against his chest.
He reach the doorstep of the mansion "the playboy mansion"
he paused to take a deep breath and knock against the door of the mansion.
The door slide open and there was goomo. She was gorgeous with the long silky blond hair and with the beautifully curve shaped body . Her sexy voice spoke ' i know you, you are the pastor of the nation,is on the house tonight. you can enjoy me for free.'
mark startle and say ' no thanks but could we have a date?'
goomo was astonish and agreed due to his purity.
mark abased his head and went off quietly. when the door is shut. He jumped with joy feeling a joyous feeling.
mark and goomo have their first date and goomo was feeling a love feeling she never felt before and was curious about mark. on their first date they never held hand, mark was shy.
as the dates pass by mark fall on his knee to propose to her wanting to take her hand for marriage.
the workers under him critisize him saying that the people disagreed with what you are doing pastor. mark refuse to listen and say she is my only love and i love her.Many worker walk out of mark life and during the marriage very little turn up for the wedding.
mark and goomo were intimate and they loved each other deeply.
as years went by there are three children in the family.
goomo begin to act weird in the marriage
and
one day
mark recieve a note saying "dear mark, i want to thank you for your love for this period of time and i am happy to be with you .
but i have to leave as i cant be with you anymore and
i want to tell you a secret i have been keeping from you
the three children are not yours and they are from different father.
i am sorry to cause so much misery.
mark begin to bend down and tears flow like a stream of river.
the kids ran to mark.shouting daddy
daddy
mark turn his way unable to face the kids for a moment as there are no blood and tie
but he turned and hug the kids saying i will be here for you kids , no one can take you away from me , no one!
a few days later
a worker recieve a news
and pass it to mark.
the news is about goomo.
the worker ' pastor ,goomo is facing judgement of GOD , she have HIV and now she is going to be sold by the auction sales.
mark was in a rush to gather all his cash and placed it into his cargo and went to the place.
The auctioneer have brought out goomo. goomo 's face is bruised and she look like bones and stick. The auctioneer have strip her naked and people laughed at her. She look down on the floor and she was afraid. the auctioneer placed a bid of 100 pieces of silver.
but no one wanted
the auctioneer shout come
just name your price
no one wanted
the auctioneer lower it to 50
no one wanted
and the auctioneer was so tense where he is willing to seel at 10 pieces of silver.
someone shouted
offering 1000 pieces of silver. everyone turned and startle by the price.
It was the panting mark grasping for breath.
he ran towards goomo and he strip off his clothes and put it on goomo and holding her assuring her saying ' lets go home '
this is a picture of Jesus and us.. where we (goomo )where we sin and betraying GOD.
GOD still love us, not despise us where others (worker)despise.
the a devil (auctioneer)where he try to humilate us and selling our life off.
and Jesus died at the price(high price) to redeem us.
For my story
i lived in a broken family and it was never perfect for me.
i have never experince what is a real fatherly love before i came to know GOD.HE is my first love, my FATHER that always love me even though i am rebellious at times.
GOD filled my life, He never fail to strengthen me when i am weak. some love may look eternal but is not.sometime I am being abandon by friends(mere friends) and the one i loved and devoted my life the most.i was so broken when i am being abandon once again but it doesnt matter.because in life humans are never perfect . MAR says believe in people and trust in people.
there are people i want to thank!
bryan, dennis, mar, van.they stick with me when i am down!
there are some also !
especially bryan -.- become so crazy with him -.-
recently my mum and i have a tense conversation.
comparing me, and i teared because so many thought just came upon me. like she have a partner that cared for her. and i am alone now! but ya i am not alone :) HE love me more than anything .
projects!!!! -.-
could you even think for a moment?
you made the statement that you are lost but i am free ?
i am stating that i want you to be happy to let you go and that what you wanted.
and now you say
as long as i am happy?! 我會讓你明白 是你失去了我 不是我失去了你
( and well your ignorant friend agree 说得好:) ) do they know me ? basically no. and how much i have gave you just wanting you to be happy and wanting you have a new life of love.come on.. i am the one who gave you the authority to make the decision. i never make the decision of breaking up! if at that moment of time you have the decision and you made that you wanted to leave me and great you put every mistake on me. did you ever think for a moment, when i begged for you to come back and you rejected :)crying for you to come back.
i lost you . yes! i lost your heart !
think for a moment! i know i am incompatible to you! i am not that intelligent, handsome, romantic, rich! but at least i devote my life to you ?
you told me you will leave and you left. leaving me in a bad state where i am picking up the pieces! you just say love is tiring.
thank you :) i wore you out. so sorry .
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