i guess you may read this..
well after reading your blog.
i believe is better this way.
If you will not cry for me anymore,
do not know me as a friend or treating me like a stranger.
well
i believe i am not a ideal boyfriend for you nor love you like how you like it to be.
so i believe is alright although is painful.
sorry that i am not a good bf or friend.
i do understand my character not that perfect right :)
now it really open my eyes how cruel can it be after a relationship can be broken off.

well sometime my friends around me tell me to put it down but i would not want to because i am still so deeply in love with you .

now maybe all i can think of is you having a great and awesome boyfriend that will treat you really well and not hurt you like i do, demanding as me. i begin to see myself being dirty in the heart. Because of my behavior towards you it shows a lot of things of myself .


thank you for everything.
and sorry for the hurts i cause in your life..
i am not such a nice person after all.

i know this relationship can never be mend no matter how hard i try. i just cannot change anything nor is within my control.