it been a hard christmas and stuff....
but i m happi oso.... tat she came to church wit mi....
hmmm took so much pic...
and quite happi... haha... GOD thank you for everything... and the love u gave to mi ....
GOD thank u for giving mi such a great and awesome galfriend that love mi so much
and a kor tat love mi so much....
ya....


baby a new year is coming and hope tat we will start a new year together...and
make our relationship much better....
baby i m urs always.... hor.....
be mine forever... muack.....
i wanna tell u tat. i haf love u alot more le...
baby thank u for loving mi so much too....



alll i wan for christmas is u!!!!
and i will change....
a new year a new change.....

movie...a&c
haha... is nice.. but is like wat the bird...watch alone...
and stuff....in the way cox jab and shan sit at the side... i sit at the other side...
>< i hate to be this kind of light...
lol....
ok... brought cake... haha... celebrate christmas wit her...
yea yea....
but today
kinda not in the gd mood....
slept veri little....and nvr eat at all cox like no appetite for the whole day....
hungry abit but ask jab.. he dun wan.. then nvr eat...
but now stilll dun haf appetite at all...

hmm... cant get to sleep...
cox think alot...
lalala.... listening to songs...view hui shan
blog.....
haha...veri happi for jab to haf a gal to love him so so much.....
jia you jab and shan.....last long... stay happi too....
hmm....
misses miss my heart.... tat longs to run for HIM....
dun care abt anything but all the way....
lalala.....
i wan go nuts... haha..... i just wan to be crazy once again.....
:)
dun like my life... no colour and spices to heat things up....so so bored....
lalalala........
must be happi :) dun so sad le.....
hahahahaha...... ok... i just so bored tat i just post stuff....
two at a day....
haha.....
i wan to play pool again more......
haha.........

behind this smile of mine....
lies deep sorrow.. tat no one can understand....
wat can i do other then being fake happi....

i love u so much tat i didnt say anything nor wan to argue wit you abt anything
although my mood is bloody horrible....
i cry the worst yesterday feeling tat my christmas is so wasted....
and no one understands mi....
u say tat your mood is not gd...but did i argue wit you....?
u say tat you are tired... did i say i wan to spend more time wit you....although i
m crazy from head to toe over u....tat i wan to spend time wit you....
but i just say tat ok...gd night i love u....
is alright....
u say tat u did not do anything wrong....
u say met him onli once...but total i count is thrice....
and i just ok... and smile.... and u say tat he like you and stuff....
and u say tat u feel u do nth wrong.... and u tell mi once sentence sorry he is my friend.....when i think back.... the friend tat like mi... u do not wan mi to meet them... i dun meet....
is like wat the fuck.... i just ok.... and stuff...
i did nt say anything just giving smile... and did nt wan to scold u or argue....
cox i treat you as my princess... and i reallli wan to treat you nicely even my mood is like...... wtf..... 'sorry he is my friend'
u noe tat i will not be tat happi and yet over and over again u meet him....
i just smile smile smile.... without saying anything... other than asking how is it?
is it gd?
i haf changed..... but i m nvr being appreciated.... time and time again....
i stay up late i wait for u... hoping i can tok to u.....
sometime i cannot cox at my kor house... spend time wit him... but most of the time... i can i stay at home... although i hate to stay at home....cox is boring....
and the moment u say you will stay at home... i just stay at home.....
suppose to play basketball...it is my favourite... but i waited for u.... but nvr u appear...i didnt complain.....
i nvr mind u going out wit him.... as long as u are safe... i m truely happi.....
in the end crying there alone.... dun realli plan to call anyone... cox i noe you will be unhappi if i do....so i nvr... u say tat u will not alone and stuff...at first is like woo.... u love mi alot.....
but when u did it i just ok nvm......u safe can le... u happi can le....
i noe i did do wrong things... but nvr... i will betray u....
i m so down....i dunno wat to do la.....
m i being too in love wit someone?
我知道我本来不配你。

hmmm.... i veri happi tat i tok wit her...
so long nvr tok to her....
when toking to her... i m like arhh... flying... haha....
i love my baby alot alot and alot :)

kinda hurt when i read someone blog.....
wanna cry but tears cant seem to flow out....
so pain so pain... each word goes deep into my heart....
the more i think abt it tears begin to flow....


maybe the love u haf for mi is not there anymore...
hmmm but i still wanna say i love u...

tat all... maybe if u think tat i not the right guy....
i will let you go.... if someone love u more than i do i will let you go...
and if u will be happier i will let you go...
i will force myself to let you go if u wan to leave
tat how much i love u....
maybe u think tat i dun understand you... and i m sorry...
if u think i dun...

haha...
ok been long time i haf update my blog
rahhhh
school is opening soon and is arhhh pls let mi haf a longer holiday
i dun feel i play enough...
hmm... been a rough time lately because is like
without her, my life is some sort of weird.....
and is rather dull... when i cant see her and smile and tok....
ok ... but is ok... recently spend my time wit my kor... do quite a sum of tings
hmmm... and ktv is the best although my voice is like rahhhhh!!!
and i learn how to play majong... haha...is kinda fun... ya
haha...
ok....

hmmm
we haf been together for 9 months le....
hmm although we cant spend 9 months together... but hope u are happi wit mi
baby i love u k?
i love u alot alot and alot....
haha.... muack.....



i think tat all ba

ok....
i dunno how to explain my feeling....
and i hate it alot.....
and veri sad.....

the attitude came back....
i nvr meant anything la.... i just wan to tok to u nicely although i m bloody irritated.... but yet say tat put mi in ur position...
huh? u ask the question first then i just ask back... tat all....
rahhhh!!!!
nvm....
although alone for awhile onli la....then my kor calll....
ok la... he comfort mi although he is angry wit mi .....
arh!!!! ><

hope u happi can le la....
haf fun today wit them.....
i nvr do anything la!!!!
nvm....

hmm....
ok.....
after the power house....
went to find kor.... cox he veri sad....
then i just went
to find him.... then we went to ktv
and sing.....
4 guys....
lol....
haha..... but super fun and stuff....
is like so so awesome.....

haha.......
ok...yesterday is so like wat.....
haha.... i whack a guy then i run....muahahaa.....
is like so exciting la.....
hit him in the head....




hmmm....
baby.....
say the truth u are still always in my heart....
i m missing you badly...
i need u alot ><
waiting for u....
dun think tat i dun love u anymore k?
i still deeply love u....

ok....
been a long time since i update...
cox i m so so lazy.....
haha......
ok.... went for chalet.....
ok.... is mel bd.... anyway hope u are happi.....
alan is like so cute la.... he is like so drunk.....
haha... then i took care of him.....
although i m abit blur...
ok... haha....
tat is onli the fun part...
and play basketballl!!!!
say the truth i m realli so happi when i play basket ball....
it been years tat i play basketball...
i play till veri sweaty....
is seriously fun.. i hope one day i can play wit you.....
but you dun like sports...haha.... oh welll.....


ok.....
three days of work...
first day i slack alot... haha... cox not much people....
haha.....
be truthful...elleen getting crazy over alot of man....gosh....
pls be focus... on jilson...hope u can be wit him.....
all the best....
second day work was alittle tired....
when to kor kor house....and tok and stuff....
my kor kor get donuts for mi...and q up.... touch!!!!
haha... donut is nice!!!!
yummy.....
haha.....
third day is like so so bored......
rahhhh.....a long time....and i work like abit crazy.....
tat all....
haha.....
hmmm....kinda miss you .... out of a sudden......
cannot feel u...is kinda different......
baby i love u and miss u......