behind this smile of mine....
lies deep sorrow.. tat no one can understand....
wat can i do other then being fake happi....

i love u so much tat i didnt say anything nor wan to argue wit you abt anything
although my mood is bloody horrible....
i cry the worst yesterday feeling tat my christmas is so wasted....
and no one understands mi....
u say tat your mood is not gd...but did i argue wit you....?
u say tat you are tired... did i say i wan to spend more time wit you....although i
m crazy from head to toe over u....tat i wan to spend time wit you....
but i just say tat ok...gd night i love u....
is alright....
u say tat u did not do anything wrong....
u say met him onli once...but total i count is thrice....
and i just ok... and smile.... and u say tat he like you and stuff....
and u say tat u feel u do nth wrong.... and u tell mi once sentence sorry he is my friend.....when i think back.... the friend tat like mi... u do not wan mi to meet them... i dun meet....
is like wat the fuck.... i just ok.... and stuff...
i did nt say anything just giving smile... and did nt wan to scold u or argue....
cox i treat you as my princess... and i reallli wan to treat you nicely even my mood is like...... wtf..... 'sorry he is my friend'
u noe tat i will not be tat happi and yet over and over again u meet him....
i just smile smile smile.... without saying anything... other than asking how is it?
is it gd?
i haf changed..... but i m nvr being appreciated.... time and time again....
i stay up late i wait for u... hoping i can tok to u.....
sometime i cannot cox at my kor house... spend time wit him... but most of the time... i can i stay at home... although i hate to stay at home....cox is boring....
and the moment u say you will stay at home... i just stay at home.....
suppose to play basketball...it is my favourite... but i waited for u.... but nvr u appear...i didnt complain.....
i nvr mind u going out wit him.... as long as u are safe... i m truely happi.....
in the end crying there alone.... dun realli plan to call anyone... cox i noe you will be unhappi if i do....so i nvr... u say tat u will not alone and stuff...at first is like woo.... u love mi alot.....
but when u did it i just ok nvm......u safe can le... u happi can le....
i noe i did do wrong things... but nvr... i will betray u....
i m so down....i dunno wat to do la.....
m i being too in love wit someone?
我知道我本来不配你。