haha...
ok this holiday i wan to pray like nvr before...
fast like nvr before....
do HIS work like nvr before...
i haf my vision and my dreams....
i wan to do wat i realli wan in life...
i do not wan to fall anymore...
i m realli sick and tired...
of falling to much...
in sins and darkness....
i wan to get a new life....wit GOD
HOLY SPIRIT HELP MI!!!
give mi back my dreams and vision... let mi see
and i will get it...nth is impossible...
i will no longer get tired in doing gd....

when i walk alone in the darkness no longer i will fear....because HE is wit mi...
although i cant see it now and i cant feel anything...
but GOD i will follow u blindly through the veri breath....
i m missing U badly like how i long for U....
GOD i wan to give U my life once again....





GOD is always faithful when we are not faithful...when we dun trust in HIM anymore...
HE is always waiting for us...HE will give u dreams, HE will give u an hope...
when times the devil crush ur dreams into pieces...GOD is always repairing everything tat is broken....
HE love us no matter wat.......

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hmmm
ok i type veri long...
haha....
yea....520 of i loveu....
hmm baby....sometime is like this typing this is veri tired....
sometime...
when we get together veri long and we feel tired at times but we wan to continue.
cox we always love one another deeply....
and we wan to finish everything together...
we will be together forever...
sorry for this few days...
tat i get realli crazy at times...
maybe i need you even more at times....
so i get a little too crazy...
so forgive mi but i hope tat u will understand mi more...
i will be nice to u de...
i will take care of u ok?
hhmmm
i hope u will listen to mi more...
ya...
tat all i wan...
sometimes i m realli mad because u dun listen to mi...

xh and yl 4ever...
the promises made.....nvr be broken....

i wan tell u something i love u even more le....
more than last time alot alot....
hope u will be touch and happi to hear this....

haix haix...
ai yo...
really hate it....
really !!!
so u dun do tat anymore.. if u ever do it again....
i realli will not care for u le...
i will give my care to other....and dun argue back!!!
makes mi ever mad....so realli veri angry...

and u say u hug a guy in ur dream ><
wat you do in dream show ur true personality led...
is true de....
ur dream show ur true self...
><"
u dun do it in reality then gd le...or else the guy will die...




ok....
so went to wait for mar...
so kinda lonely....
so actually i hate being alone...
oh wellls
so i hope u will msg mi.....but nvm....
i noe u busy....
and suddenly i saw hf...
ok....
she going to visit someone...wit her friend...but she took a little time to tok to mi...
so a little blessed....
and then she went off...
ok...mar say abt 15 mins but i waited for 30 mins....
so i was realli pissed....
and just say i wanna rest so went home...
anyway she visiting her grandma..so nvm ba....
i think i meeting jab later...
brothers....will be there....
haha...
ok.....



ok...
reALLI upset

haha...realli happi can spend time wit baby....
although haf a tiring day toking....
crap......
haha....but anyway is my 3 years de friend so is ok....
hmmm.....eat the humble pie and you will not regret de....
i promise u:)
haha....



i decided to treat my gal better i dun wan to lose her and regret but i wan to cherish her.....
i love u baby....
i wan to be better than him....
be more patience, loving,tok to you nicely,no shout at you,and dun angry easily than him:)
i will try on the angry part....
haha...
i found a way veri gd to control :)
haha....
i promise tat i will not leave u...
hope u too!!!
hmm must take care of mi and listen to mi hor!!!
haha....



hmmm today abit upset when u say we do not match!!
ya lo....
then realli haix...i will change de...
i try my best le....
u noe!!!
i do my best le...just wanting us to be the best....



hmmm
before u go taiwan
we do something special together ok
?
haha...
love u alot alot....
want us to be forever.....

ok....
woke up in the morning....
haha...wear couple tee...
so so happi...
because is our 7 months.....
haha...
get out of the house and met her...
we went to pasir ris...
to meet...and we sat at bench
and ate the sushi she bought for mi... :)
realli happi...haha....we just ate and spend time...
then after tat went to rent bicyle...
haha...
so so happi man...first time ride the bicyle tat haf two person...
and wit her somemore...so my first give it to her :x
haha....
then we ride around pasir ris...so is veri cool....
haha....
i do pattern then almost fall....off lol....haha......
we jus cycle and tok to one another....
and suddenly rain so we took shelter...
then we tok abt the past and compare....
haha.... i felt i did more than him...and she love mi more i think :)
haha....


then i have some desire and wants...
i dun wan to tell her cox i noe she will buy...
tat why i dun wan...cox is ex....
but she say she gonna buy for mi...
unhappi cox i dun like she sacrifice too much...
but touch at the same time tat she haf love mi so much....
hmm
i willing to do anything for u cox i love u more tat i love myself....
i love u darling...


and we went to church and worship GOD together..i held her hand and i feel like standing infront of
GOD together...
i long for tat....
ya.... i abit unhappi because my things wit GOD....ya....
and hope u will but will not pressure u cox i love u...
ya lor...

and ate together...and stufff...
haha...thanks for the presents:)
i love it...
i love u too...

we are deeper and deeper and loving each other more than ever....
i love u onli baby...hope u too will love mi alot...and madly....
i will not let you be alone...nor let mi be alone
muack....

ok...
today took back most of my paper...
HAHA....
the onli miracle is chinese and a maths....
awesome i pass....
haha...
the other few i pass but is not my ideal results....
haha..but anw i wan to thank GOD and is all HIS grace and mercy upon mi....
haha...
thanks JESUS...

ok....
my e maths is horrible...
i nvr get a...
realli upset wit it.....CANNOT MAKE IT MAN..
hmmm..although her english fail...but her other subjects did realli well...
i noe she will be promote de...remember i got pray for u hor...
give thanks to GOD ok....so i noe she did not did well in english...so i went over to her first...i just wan to be by her side even i m feeling lousy...
...because i promise to by her side...



in the moring realli upset because she dun realli wans to tok to mi...
so nvm...
cox i noe i need to be strong and independent...i cannot depend on people....
nvm....
is ok i just wan to be happi....
yesterday after letting out my heart...just breaking down i feel better....
is a bit bitter and sour...



i and my friend is ok....
hope tat this friendship will be forever...
i and brother...
arhhh
happi go lucky...
i and my gal....
hmm....
nth ba....




gave her chocolate just wan to reward her after exam...
and another box for her family...
i realli wan acceptance from her parents...
ok...anyway i will be strong

ok....
marking day....so happi can go out and haf fun...
haha....
and went to sentosa.....
and was fun...and i send her to school....
ya happi to see her...then we went to sentosa...and play and tanning too... haha...
i m so so red....
then after tat i saw isabelle and her gang....haha....
lol...
they come sentosa then sit there onli afew go play water than come sentosa for wat...
go under block play la...
lol....
haha....
then today yong teach how to front flip and i m the onli one success....haha....
so delighted... and play and tan....
then i suddenly sit at one side and think something...and felt unhappi...
so i decided...i lie on the float....and sun tan...
and i feeling ok ok....
then suddenly someone flip over...then i scold *&^*($
then i walk away....
super piss...
and yong tok to mi....
he tok to mi...then i listen...
and to mi he is like a big brother....
veri gd ok....
then i apologize to mar....
i will change and control....and respect my leader....
then we went to vivo....and just slack and eat....
haha...just lie down and tok.... and stuff and walk walk brought stuff...
haha....
ok....
then went home....
so is a fun day......





yesterday was realli upset...because i keep toking to this gal....
and she like treat mi transparent in the way..... so realli upset...thought tat we are best friend but now not even a friend....and i m like an idiot caring?
but she treat mi as if i do not exist....
and i realli hate and angry....
i really hate her.... when she do this to mi....
did u respect mi as a normal friend....no!!!!
and today i treat her as if tat she does not exist....
and i am upset too..


is ok cox i haf her....
and i chat wit her....
and tok and tok then tok abt the guy...
tat say wan to take care of you...
of course i m pissed!! althought u say dun wan...i m happi .... but when u say is like friend onli la....
is like bell....
wat the &^*$ ....
i tell her to.....
and she is my friend....
and if is a guy and my friend so is ok...
and i say wat if a gal take care of mi...surely u dun like it....
then u say i m pushing my anger towards you....
fine....and i m thinking tat why should i care so much...
when u dun like.....
haf you went to my friendster...
and keep looking at my comment whether gals go flirt wit mi...
basically no....
and i always go to urs and check...
becasue i dun wan anyone to flirt wit you....
coz you are mine...
i m always anxious abt you....
and i m realli upset...
i noe to u i m a unreasonable and angry bf....
i m thinking why should i be so anixious.... i think i should just let it
be....



and ok!!! i think...nvr mind no friend and her.... to be there for mi...
i think brother will be enough!!
and yet when on the way home....
i was toking and jab and keefe ps mi....
wt...
ok lor...
nvm then i say why nvr call mi...then kvii say i thought you toking...
then cannt inform la...
i m like idiot go and find you all..then u all ps mi...


ok...on the bus i felt realli sad and unhappi...
on the way home....on the bus my tears keep flowing and is veri warm tears tat is filled saddness and hatered.....
and thinking there is no one to lie on to....
and all the way like tat...and when she msg mi...i was happi alittle but when i replied.... there is no reply back....
so nvm....
and i walk home alone....
cox just wan to relax a little....



so today happiness ccannot be compared to the saddness...
oh nvm....i will be strong....

HMMM.....
YESTERDAY I suddenly mood swing....
like suddenly siao......and ya sorry my darling suddenly like this...
then went to watch show and then tok on the phone wit jab...
then sleep
...


take exam today....and is then last paper....
haha....
so so happi man....
haha...
in the end i wait for potato alone...
man....
i hate being alone!!!
i wan to msg other people to keep mi accopany....but i think dun wan cox i onli wan her....i miss her...alot...


then went home and look at her friendster...
then wtf....
the guy say poor thing...
if he mean tat being wit mi poor thing i will kill the guy....
then after tat
msg her and she say tat is she sick tat why....he say tat....
so ok i nvm then she say tat he say i take care of u.....
then wth....
i will kill him if i see him....

ok i m a sensitive guy..... but if u dun like then i will surely give u freedom.... but i will haf mine too...sorry....


ok....
went out to play bb..... haha... it was a little fun...
ahaha....
but veri hot and i m melting...
lol...
then went to playground and tok and stuff then suddenly wan to spa...THEN potato and jab fight
hah... jab fight like hiong abit onli...
then
potato like wan to die....
lol....so funny....
then i tell them
4 on 1 then all runnn
lolll
so funny
then in the end i catch them and beat u....
lol....then in the end my leg injure
lol....

OK....HAHA...
tat time went to CHANGI airport to eat...
and on our way home...
got one lady tat is a black....
and ok....she is veri big size.....
man...she took almost all of my space
THEN I WAN TO FALL....
LOL....ok...then i like wt>< she stink man....
then i ask jacob can change place... and stuff. then he dun wan :(
SO SAD
i like dying lol...
then i was saying tat her leg was huge!!!
then i told keefe then he say wat bacon...
then the lady suddenly say thank you veri much.....
i like oh shit...
then i just act like nth happen and act sleeping...
then she stare at keefe....ok...
then is like so funny la... then i msg jacob then he laugh out loud and i was laughing quietly....so bad la...
then keefe like veri du lan... then when got off the bus keefe... scold her...shout use ur infarate la....
lol.....




haha... exam is gonna end tml...and i m super happi
wan to celebrate and go crazy...haha... i think i done fairly welll...
but need to see result...
haha...but i believe i will do welll cox i study my best and GOD do the rest....
haha...and after exam need to play piano....and get stronger and fitter...

haha.....
hmm...
sometime maybe i hurt her badly...but i make her veri happi...
sorry for the hurts tat i haf hurt you...
but for human instinct they normally forgot abt the good thing tat
people had done for them....
they rather remember the hurts than happiness....
and ya she felt my love for her is lesser but didnt decrease and increase more and more...
sorry if u dun feel it...i will change more too...
i wan tell u tat i love you and i will take care of u the rest of my life...
thanks for loving mi too....

haha...it been a long long time......
that i haf blog...
haha...recently exam started and
i felt realli exhausted.... man... so tired... la....
i hope it willl end soon....
haha...last two paper...and i gonna fly....
haha....
chem and dnt but dnt i willl not study...
and chemmm!!! ahhhh!!!
so much to revise....


baby jia you...dun give up.... i will be there for u when u need mi...hope tat i haf been ur encourager and hope u are happi and wan to keep on going....


ha..... actually got alot of things to let out for the past few days.... but
i lazy to write blog....
so i forgotten! haha.....
anyway i am a happy boy... because i haf a wonderful galfriend tat take care of mi... and love mi.....
u are a good galfriend ok....u treat mi realli well and i veri happi :)



ya...
haha.... yea....
i having victory...bit by bit....
each day i m stronger and stronger...
realli happi...but sometimes... is veri hard....
GOD i love u......
haha,......


haha... i feel tat i and a friend became further and further apart....
i thought tat although we go our ways, we will be best friends? and share our problems?
ok... ya... now we are like hi bye friendS? but anyway i haf my own life...
so i m happi.... so is ok..... but
i wish tat if there is anything you can tell mi... i can listen....